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myrrh

there's something thankless in a wish fulfilled

About Me

the truth about me is that i inhabit a near-constant state of childlike excitement and fascination. intoxicated with my surroundings.

you can't shatter sand on the beach: nothing gets to me, but everything touches me. just like anyone else, i don't really know what i'm doing. and you? you're just as lost and you do it anyway.

things change irreversibly into other things. even if they change back, even if you can't tell it happened, these things are different for having gone through it.

this is life and it's more real than i could ever describe.

this isn't about words, it's about action.

My Interests

superficiality, liminality, entropy, periphery, distraction

I'd like to meet:

friendly outgoing people without any leisure time.

this is my personal profile. the profile for my band is at ( myspace.com/myrrhlarsen )

Music:

pan sonic, tony conrad, sonic youth, burt bacharach, cocteau twins, prince, afghan whigs, concrete blonde, x, the dresden dolls, bauhaus, slowdive, burning airlines, britney spears

Movies:

nadja, brazil, the nightmare before christmas, fight club, northfork, the salton sea, the sweet hereafter, the princess bride, kiss kiss bang bang, annie hall, amateur, spirited away, prospero's books, a very long engagement, dancer in the dark.

Television:

is generally better on dvd. i do enjoy: anything written by aaron sorkin. anything written by bruce eric kaplan. most things created by joss whedon. stuff tim minear's done.

Books:

i like something that surprises me, pulls me in, arrests me. i like something that inspires me, enchants me, keeps my eyes roped to its pages all evening and then keeps me up all night thinking, writing, singing, celebrating the unexpected and the dirty and the sublime. straightforward narrative tends to bore me. i need something to hold my attention more commandingly than the world outside. i need books that understand what they're competing with. i like anne carson and kathy acker and barry gifford and antonin artaud. i like the situationists and the revolution of language (and the language of revolution) but i have a soft spot for boris vian and for andre breton's "nadja".

Heroes:

they're all dead.

My Blog

Don't fold without telling me.

I just found out that Genesis Juice Co. went out of business last month. I had only just discovered them. Great juice, in glass bottles, and they sterilized and reused their bottles. The perfect examp...
Posted by myrrh on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 06:24:00 PST

Notes on a disappearance, it's shape and accoutrements.

I finished mixing and mastering four songs, recording another three. I pinched a ligament in my neck which rendered me largely immobile for the last little while. Radical changes in day-to-day life li...
Posted by myrrh on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 07:36:00 PST

I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart, here.

I have a dream and I'm at the house of these people I hardly know. We're all there to watch a movie and drink vodka, and afterwards we sit and talk for hours until the sun comes up. This girl and I le...
Posted by myrrh on Fri, 18 Aug 2006 07:34:00 PST

Vernal equinox.

A feeling of perfect imbalance, at a time of perfect balance.I added "entropy" to my interests list and I'm deleting Tom as a friend.
Posted by myrrh on Wed, 22 Mar 2006 12:26:00 PST

Patterns of human behavior, a brief study.

She says, "don't fall," you say "too late".
Posted by myrrh on Thu, 12 Jan 2006 10:07:00 PST

Nobody wants me this way, least of all me.

You want barbed wire and fisticuffs, you can have mine. Everyone's a walking contradiction. I had become desperate, cloying, it's unbecoming. So I'll savor this solitude and give the same "fuck off...
Posted by myrrh on Sat, 17 Dec 2005 04:23:00 PST

Already tried every kind of poison.

Sunset on the beach was delightful, falling asleep with a backdrop of sea and stone and old Hitchcock films and the sweet smells of burning wood and red wine and salt and fog. Back now in the mad s...
Posted by myrrh on Tue, 06 Sep 2005 08:39:00 PST

Anna's advice, subject to glitches of automated translation.

n'évitez pas une chance d'être amoureux. parce qu'il ne se produira pas, souvent. à condition que la personne ne soit pas folle. à moins que, vous soyez folle. aussi, à condition que la person...
Posted by myrrh on Thu, 01 Sep 2005 06:26:00 PST

Empty bottles, spent cigarettes.

The one thing I've learned about life: there's always room for surprises. Scenes from a photobooth: ...
Posted by myrrh on Mon, 29 Aug 2005 07:29:00 PST

Three things, maybe four.

I'm not here as often as I'm here. It's just a question of time. Between one thing and the next, the absolutely mesmerizing firefly dance from uncertainty to uncertainty, I only have so long to lay le...
Posted by myrrh on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST