By daily proof you shall me find,
To be to you both loving and kind.
"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb..."
"What a stupid lamb."
"What a sick, masochistic lion."
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Firstly, I'd like to request that you message me before adding me if your profile is private. I'm unlikely to add somebody I know nothing about.
There's no simple way to describe myself; I have many traits that make up who I am, just like anybody else. I'll let you find them out for yourself. :)
My name is Martin.
I was born on the third of July, 1988.
I've got brown eyes.
I am studying Psychology at Napier University in Edinburgh.
I'm originally from a small town in the north-east of England called Stockton-on-Tees.
I have aspirations of being a Forensic Anthropologist or something similar.
I don’t know whether I’m winning or losing.
Things are changing and I’m not entirely sure which direction they’re going in. I’ve made a lot of new friends recently, and I’m relieved that I have because one of my many fears was that I would be unable to. I miss my friends at home to an excruciating degree. I’m looking for a job and a flat to move into this June. I can’t pay for the flat without a job and I can’t keep a job without a home, so both are vital and in both I’m lacking.
This trimester has been nothing short of a disaster. I’ve been experiencing motivational problems, financial concerns and personal losses. I haven’t achieved a great deal.
On the plus side, I’ve been progressing with my novel. New ideas and inspirations have been blossoming. I’ve developed a passion for photography. Nature. Beauty in all its forms. Expression. The conflict between the mind and the body. Desire.I wish somebody would look over my life for me and tell me where I go wrong. Guide me and make sure I stick to the right path. Which path is the right path?
I’m lonely. But I feel the most content on my own. I get upset over a pencil and paper.
Even Skins isn’t going to be the same. Fuck’s sake. Maxxie.
My Best Friend
"Spud". I've known Amy for a very long time and she means the world to me. She always makes me laugh and we think exactly the same things. If soulmates exist, she's mine. You can check out her profile here .
Piercings:
1. Eyebrow bar, left side. (REMOVED)
2. Lip ring, right side.
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Currently living in:
Edinburgh, Scotland, UK
Been to:
England, UK
Tenerife, Canary Isles, Spain
Tunisia, Africa
Egypt, Africa
Cyprus, Europe
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I want to be a lot of things.
I want to be a raging fire.
I want to make it rain so hard that the pavement cracks.
I want to breathe in tension and exhale atmosphere.
I want to be everything you want.
I want to be all you think about.
I want to be above it all.
I want my name to be the one spoken when it shouldn't be.
I want to be liked.
I want to be loved.
I want to love.
I want everything to be perfect.
I want to be something more like you.
I want you.
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Dream.
But don't make the mistake of living in one.
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I wish that it didn't take years to get to know somebody. I wish it wasn't the case that it takes so much time for an individual's personality to soak through the thick blanket of judgement before bonds can be formed. I wish that I could expose myself inside one moment and have people take it or leave it. I wish that people would take it, rather than leave it.
"Your thoughts are on the AM frequency and I'm only getting FM."
Random
I find old people highly amusing.
I love harsh weather.
I love my friends more than they know.
I'm learning not to expect much. That way, I'm always pleasantly surprised. :] (Or horribly shocked.)
I have forgiven the unforgivable, yet I have been denied forgiveness for the forgivable.
Forgiveness is divine.
I can keep a secret. I'm not stupid nor insensitive enough to break someone's trust, as I know from experience how long it can take to develop that trust.
I love the world around me.
I can speak a little French.
My favourite word is cunt.
I believe that the only ones that can truly inflict emotional pain upon us are the ones we truly love.
It irritates me when I read people's profiles and they say: "You hate me because I'm better than you, get over it, accept it, etc." Who gives a fuck what you think you are? Also, I hate: "Don't add me if you're not going to talk about anything interesting, if you're ugly don't add me, you won't find anybody like me; I'm unique, etc." Seriously. Do they have mental images of millions of MySpacers screaming over their profiles - just dying to be accepted - as they examine their pictures before deciding they're not good looking enough to be friends with them afterall and cancelling the request? Is that the imagery they use to comfort themselves when they sign in to no new mail? Fuck off.
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Love
I don't force my beliefs on to other people; I know that everybody has their own ideas about everything. This is by no means a definition for love, but it's what I believe love is.
Love is and isn't universal. It is universal because we all feel it at some point in our lives. But it also isn't universal because we all perceive love differently.
Nobody can say: "What you're feeling isn't love". If you feel something that you believe is love, then it is your right as an individual to label it so. Nobody else's.
I sometimes find it frustrating when people only expect pain where there is love. Love can lead to pain, we all know this. But people tend to magnify the pain and minimise the amazing feeling of love itself. How can anybody appreciate love if they associate it with pain?
The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you and does no longer.
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Language
Language is one of the most amazing things that we have been blessed with. The ability to express emotion in a collection of sequenced symbols, the ability to communicate with these symbols and the sounds associated with them. Language means a lot to me and I can't stand it when people fail to use correct spelling, grammar and punctuation. I don't judge people on this, however.
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Life
It's frightening to think that as we live our lives, even during the most turbulent events we can imagine experiencing, the hands of time still keep ticking, no matter what. It's an inevitable (and no doubt depressing) fact that no matter how important we feel in ourselves and how insignificant others may seem, we are going to die just like everybody else. No prolonged life. No second chance. You might look around at others and think: Do they realise how special life is? Regardless of religious beliefs, it cannot be countered that in comparison to the lifespan of the Universe, the human lifespan is miniscule. When people say: "Life is short", people reply: "How can it be so short if it's all we have?" But they're right. Life is short. Make the most of it.
"The purpose of life is a life of purpose." - Robert Byrne
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The Past
My one true love. I've recently learnt that dwelling on the past is something I can't stop doing. I've learnt that the past is the only thing that doesn't change in this world. The past governs the future. We look back in order to look forward. I don't wish that I could turn back time. I wish that history could repeat itself. I want to relive the happy times. Love for what I've lost is love for the past. I wish that I could say exactly what I mean to, but words fail at times.
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Rejection
We get rejected every day. Whether it's a job we've been denied, a university offer that has been rejected, or perhaps we've been turned down by the person we've been dreaming about spending the rest of our lives with.
Most people put rejection down to their own faults. Every. Single. Time. This is a mistake.
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Learn from mistakes. I've made mistakes; some I've learnt from, some I've repeated.The difficulty lies not in learning from the mistake, but in discovering the lesson that must be learnt.
Never look back. It hurts.
That's one lesson I'll never learn.
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I believe that whatever force that has so decided to choose us to live this live deserves something in return. I have decided for myself what I am to return, and I feel that everyone else should.
I feel that the younger generations need guidance in finding their own path and those from older generations have a responsibility in helping them. We do this in our own way.
I live for two things. To inspire; i.e. to fuel the imaginations of those that are willing to act upon it and to spark the potential that I know everyone has.
Second to that, I live to indulge in self-content and happiness. Self-content opens the door to self-respect, and with this you can do anything. Self-respect is a breeding ground for inspiration.
Capture life; in words, images, whatever.
Preserve it for years to come.
I'd like to travel. I'd like to settle down.
I love choice. I hate decisions.
I'm a walking and talking contradiction and I don't give a fuck.
I'll take things as they come at me and if they knock me down I'll get back up.
“When they came for the Jews, I wasn’t Jewish so I did nothing.
When they came for the homosexuals, I wasn’t homosexual so I did nothing.
When they came for the gypsies, I wasn’t gypsy so I did nothing.
When they came for me, there was no-one left to do anything.â€
I'm going to blow you all away.
One day.
"And speaking of Italy and sports cars that I stole there, you still owe me a yellow Porsche."
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