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p e t e

it doesn't mean that much to me to mean that much to you

About Me

I'm often disillusioned but I retain some type of grasp on an abstract notion that there's possibly a reason for the madness. I think life is tragic while I secretly think the whole mess is sometimes beautiful. I think human beings are unevolved creatures who suffer from the unrestrained abilities of their intellect and from their own consciousness, and I love the art that quite likely wouldn't exist without this struggle. And I often wish I was a white German shepherd.
I've been a musician since I was 9 years old. The latest stuff I've done is here , and another band I'm in which is currently in a coma is here .

My Interests

loving things that can't love me back.

I'd like to meet:

[s o m e o n e w h o d o e s n ' t h a v e T h e A n s w e r]

Music:

yes.

Movies:

requiem for a dream, natural born killers, the big lebowski (i'm pretty sure i know every word to this movie), fargo, y tu mama tambien, the godfather i & ii, dot the i, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, the wall

Television:

occasionally it's a nice brain vacation. Seahawks games and entire seasons of 24 all at once.

Books:

Ishmael by Daniel Quinn changed my life once. I also love much of what these people have written: Hunter S. Thompson, George Orwell, Chuck Palahniuk, Chuck Klosterman. I have not read as much Nietzsche as I think I should have by now, but I'm working on it...

My Blog

grandma

my grandmother is in the hospital. she's been in and out for the last several weeks, not eating for days at a time and in enough pain to actually tell someone about it...which for my grandmother is r...
Posted by p e t e on Thu, 17 May 2007 02:30:00 PST

baby you're a rich man

in the silence i ponder a hundred other realities besides the one i'm in. i do this all the time. for the one reality that i am inside of, there are infinite others i could be in at this moment&othe...
Posted by p e t e on Mon, 14 May 2007 01:55:00 PST

...

Two monsters live in the back clouds of my mind on wheels--one reasons with one feeling. On certain days they dance in the sun and the grey, but not as beautifully as you.
Posted by p e t e on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 10:22:00 PST

some people deserve your money.

i think this won't be a normal one of my blogs...i have two nephews--the beautiful children of my amazing sister. the youngest, benson, is 3, and his older brother, Lukas, is 5.i don't necessarily be...
Posted by p e t e on Sat, 03 Mar 2007 07:11:00 PST

sunk

pregnant raindrops bloatedsymphonically explodeddirt, acid, ugly dollars and broken cents scatteredrusted anchors pierced in lungslooking at you for breath amongst ideas tired and dream-fragments...r...
Posted by p e t e on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 01:34:00 PST

it's better to burn out... (crying in public pt. 2)

i don't blog much lately, so i'm over-doing it today to make up.yes, the answer to your question is i did cry last friday when i saw brian wilson. twice. not just because the music was amazing. tha...
Posted by p e t e on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 11:28:00 PST

the best friend request i've ever gotten

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewpro file&friendid=152425430
Posted by p e t e on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 10:31:00 PST

do

the older i get, the world seems stranger and stranger to me. every day, everyone wakes up and gets ready and "does something". something that they very well may not want to do, and almost definitel...
Posted by p e t e on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 10:09:00 PST

thxgvng

Holidays don't usually do much for me. I know that's probably not surprising to anyone given my usual depressing and pessimistic blogs. Sometimes I read back through these and think that I sound too...
Posted by p e t e on Thu, 23 Nov 2006 02:52:00 PST

being...

my feelings are always real, but i sometimes think my perspective rarely is...i underplay. underestimate. devalue when i shouldn't. ascribe shame where it's not necessary.i hold a light in my hand,...
Posted by p e t e on Thu, 16 Nov 2006 10:43:00 PST