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Patrick

"Lonesome -- Thank God!

About Me


"All energy flows according to the whims of the Great Magnet."
-- Hunter S. Thompson, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
"Stuff your eyes with wonder . . . live as if you'd drop dead in ten seconds. See the world. It's more fantastic than any dream made or paid for in factories."
-- Ray Bradbury
"Like the wind crying endlessly through the universe, Time carries away the names and the deeds of conquerors and commoners alike. And all that we are, all that remains, is in the memories of those who cared we came this way for a brief moment."

-- Harlan Ellison, Paladin of the Lost Hour
“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!”
-- Jack Kerouac, On the Road
In Memory of Robert J. Mallin (1984-2007)
A roman candle.
Mourned. Missed. Celebrated. Loved.

The sole scion of his heritage, last and only son to bear his family's name, Patrick Gerard was raised by folk of modest Midwestern stock, the kin of Kansas farmers, in small down America amidst the verdant scape of the pastoral countryside.
His youth was littered with dime stores and soda pop and block parties and yard sales and church socials and thrift stores and comic books. He drank lemonade in the scorching summers. His trusty dog and his cats were his most constant of companions. He loved the smell of musty old books that he read with a flashlight under the quilted covers in his bed. He loved the crunch of leaves and the crackle of frozen puddles as he stepped on them. Most of all, he loved running defiantly into the wind on warm days until he felt a chill and a tickle in his stomach -- and sometimes past the green blur of grass and trees, he thought he could see the stars and felt as though the wind was strong enough to lift him from the ground.
Some nights, he collected fireflies in grassy fields beneath the harvest moon and secretly hoped that he came from the stars.
Mostly, though, he collected butterflies deep within his bosom. A creature of anticipation, he frequently walked on the tips of his toes. He was restless wherever he was -- and his family moved often. Some nights, only the gentle hum of his parents' car rattling against him as he reclined in the back seat of his parents' car could lull him to sleep. His mind raced with questions like, "What are shadows made out of?"
As he aged, his blond locks formed a dark mane. His eyes grew wild and tired. His mind raced with questions. He became lost in daydreams frequently. By the age of twelve, he wore a uniform of sweatpants, tee shirts and Velcro sneakers. He could lecture his peers on Einstein's theories of Relativity and he was beginning to shave but he could not swim or ride a bicycle and he was a dozen years away from a first kiss. He was tall and gaunt and bespeckled and, mostly, weird and aloof.
As the years continued, he filled into his frame and fell into friends. He fell in love a time or two as well or, at least, he thought so. He certainly felt full of love for the world in spite of its differences with him and the sight of some girls made him light headed and hyperventilate. He learned to dance and learned that he loved an audience. He learned to make music and play drums and shook a tambourine with glee at high school sporting events. He was an editor on his high school newspaper, an artist -- both digitally and with pen and ink -- and an actor. He was even rapidly becoming an underacheiver as his straight A's started to slip and he longed to get out of school and out of town. After all, he topped the charts in all the IQ tests and indexes and examinations; why wasn't he ready to take on the world?
However, time and again, he would learn through trial and error that he was not ready. However, along the way, from job to job, in and out of college, at parties and on strange adventures with even stranger people, he did gather more friends and experiences and a greater appreciation for the ways in which the world moved. Through it all, he maintained close contact with one friend, Jeffry. It was Jeffry who met him at 3am at Waffle House to discuss the nature of the universe or explain the idiosyncrasies of girls and dating over a cup of coffee.
However, there were many other cups of coffee and many other friends. Patrick knew that he could always turn to his friend Andrew for a cup of coffee or an adventure -- and many other friends as well. Slowly, through the coffee and conversation and failed starts, Patrick came to recognize the vital anticipation that ran as an undercurrent through his zigzagging life.
Moment by moment, it had crystallized on the streets of Ireland to the distant hum of drunken carolers, on a long and lonely hike down an interstate without a jacket, amidst the gentle laughter and hot tears at funerals, with a first kiss in a damp, grassy field covered in dim bonfires, beneath the lights of a stage and a stadium, at a surreal rave in the heart of an urban hub, in a restaurant full of joyous rage and racing pulses, amidst the trolleys and sea breeze of San Diego, in hotel lobbies and convention centers and art exhibits and classrooms and on the grass beside a lake, watching spotlights chase eachother.
And each time he stood on the cusp of awareness, he lost it and fell into confusion and anxiety and frigid, trembling isolation. But he was certain that with each loss, he stood the chance to come closer to that perfect day or that hearty laugh or that strange awareness that tauntingly hid from him on the next plateau.
And even now, at night, when he is half asleep, his hands rise up -- reaching, climbing, reaching, grasping... His smoky, sonambulatory gaze searches for that next clue, that next puzzle, that next step, that next glimmer in the greatest scavenger hunt of all.
And so, he finds himself chasing fireflies all over again, forever and ever and ever across the corridors of creation...

My Interests


Ancient Mythology, Art, Autism, Bathrobes, Blushing, Books, Carnivals, Coffee, Comic Books, Computers, Copyright and Trademark Law, Creative Writing, Cryptograms, Dancing Badly, Double-breasted Jackets, Dreams, Education, Fedoras, Film, Fog, Futurism, Getting Hopelessly Lost (And Loving It!), Jack-O-Lanterns, Icicles, Memes, Midadventures, Movies, Mysteries, Northern Lights, Ocean Air, Outer Space, Philosophy, Publishing, Qabalah, Quantum Physics, Randomness, Rocketships, Shakespeare, Sodas, Sociology, Street Lamps, Sunsets, Superstitions, Sushi, Synchronicity, Technology, Theatre, Time Travel, Trivia, The Universe(s), Voice Over, Web Design, Western Literature, What If Scenarios, White Chocolate, Wind, World Domination

I have an innate fascination with how things work and an innate frustration with how people work. I enjoy speculating alternative histories. I like discussing quantum physics, time travel and literary theory. I can discuss human psychology or theories of handedness or legal theory for hours on end. I enjoy discussing conspiracy theories. I love discussing proofs for the existence of God. I'm fascinated by serendipity, coincidence, memes, synchronicity and theories of anthropic principle.

I am also a number of people's go-to resource for questions about Shakespeare's
Hamlet or prior versions of Hamlet, in addition to consulting on such questions regarding such topics as the names of the six main Decepticon jets in the old Transformers cartoon. I know all or most of the Summers family tree from the X-Men comics. I can tell you who Bruce Wayne's cousin or uncle are. Don't even get me started on Superman trivia unless you want to eventually hear my treatise on how people falsely assume that all four Super-pets were Kryptonian, the significance of the people with L-initials, the people of Smallville or why I prefer that Superman's father Jor-El wear a headband. That eventually leads to my argument for Krypton's destruction as an allegory for the Holocaust, Supergirl's much-maligned intelligence level (and penchant for interracial and interspecies) dating and ultimately leads to madness...

I'd like to meet:

First and foremost are the people I'd like to meet AGAIN.The casual fourth grade friends I lost touch with like that cool kid named Jake who wore the bomber jacket with the shades. The roman candles I knew briefly and instantly and lost touch with.And of course, the dead people who were ripped from the pages of my life, their stories denied a proper arc...***For a long time, I've wanted to meet Ray Bradbury. I've had the honor of seeing him speak on a couple of occasions but each time he is a little more breathless, a bit more weary. Before I can reach him, a crowd forms around him with pens and books in hand; all I want is to shake his hand once, just once.Bradbury has often told the story of how he first became acquainted with death in 1932 when his uncle died. That same week, he went to a carnival where a performer by the name of Mr. Electrico would do a routine on the wonders of electricity and, in a performance, Electrico knighted young Bradbury with a sword, flowing with electric current and screamed, "Live forever!" Bradbury wrote every day from that day on until his wife died several years ago.I've always hoped that if I could just reach Bradbury and touch his hand, perhaps a spark might jump out -- a fluke of static electricity, perhaps -- and that he might repeat that sacred alakazam to me: "Live forever!" ..
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Your Slanguage Profile
Prison Slang: 75%

British Slang: 50%

Canadian Slang: 50%

New England Slang: 50%

Aussie Slang: 25%

Southern Slang: 25% What Slanguage Do You Speak? ..

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Music:


The Ataris, Audioslave, Barenaked Ladies, The Beatles, Coldplay, Johnny Cash, Ben Folds, Fastball, Billy Joel, Matchbox Twenty, John Mayer, Nerfherder, Steven Page, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Simon & Garfunkel, The Wallflowers, Weezer, William Shatner, Thom Yorke

This list doesn't do justice to my full musical tastes nor does it do justice to my relative illiteracy in the realm of popular music. I like classic rock. I like Big Band music. I like alternative. I like some folk music. In general, I like anything with an acoustic sound -- although I am partial to a bit of punk and some experimentation with electronic sounds. I like strong lyrics with a message of some kind; don't mistake that to mean I listen exclusively to very political music.

I like songs that tell a story or go beyond just sounding pretty. I like songs that aren't just toe-tapping love songs; I think the best love songs are often lyrical, evocative or quirky. I like songs about a broad number of topics ranging from ambition to depression to familiar places to God to war to death to Italian food to chimpanzees. I have trouble enjoying musicians who don't ever make jokes or laugh at themselves or express some kind of irony (not so much the "black fly in your chardonnay" variety but the real, personal kind). I like peculiar metaphors. If I can't make out the lyrics, I probably won't enjoy it. Unless it's instrumental. Good use of violin or mandolin will swoon me. Also, piano and pipe organs frequently hit the spot. Maybe a gospel chorus or a harmonica here or there.


Movies:


Classic Favorites
The Absent Minded Professor, Arsenic and Old Lace, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid, Camelot, Citizen Kane, Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned To Stop Worrying And Love The Bomb, Duck Soup, Gone With The Wind, Harvey, Hatari!, It's a Wonderful Life, The Man Who Knew Too Much, My Fair Lady, The Quiet Man, Singin' In The Rain, Some Like It Hot
Modern Favorites (ie. post 1970)
50 First Dates, Back to the Future, Big Fish, The Big Lebowski, Donnie Darko, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Flight of the Navigator, Hook, The Majestic, The Never-Ending Story, The Princess Bride, Raiders of the Lost Ark, Serendipity, Simone, The Spanish Prisoner, Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country, Superman: The Movie, The Thirteenth Floor, The Truman Show, What Dreams May Come
I like magical realism. I like space captains dealing with racism. I like love that turns back time. I like coincidences and chance meetings and exotic settings and elaborate, comedic musical numbers. I relate to the idea of living in an artificial reality; haven't you ever stared out to the vanishing point at twilight and noticed now the stars over the orange and purple horizon look like a beautiful wall? The sky is a prison of pearl-studded velvet, my friends.
I like Technicolor and Frank Capra movies. I like snappy black and white films where people talk in crisp radio voices. I like soundtracks full of anticipation that crescendo into a splash or wonder. I like studio lots painted to look like pastel-washed cities. I like the smell of popcorn and the films that exude that smell. I like clever language and wit and charm and plots that purr like well-tuned engines. I like vasoline covered camera lens effects and noir lighting and women with piercing, evocative eyes and men in double-breasted suits and fedoras in sleepless little hamlets of barber shop poles and brick and mortar where the pharmacies are run by eccentric old characters who peddle root beer floats and the destiny of people rests on the shoulders of soft-spoken idealists who roar like lions for love and justice and decency.
What can I say? I'm an Old Hollywood kind of guy.

Television:


Alfred Hitchcock Presents, Amazing Stories, Batman: The Animated Series, Big O, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, The Colbert Report, The Daily Show, Dragnet, Get Smart, Green Acres, Gunsmoke, Fawlty Towers, Law & Order, Monk, Northern Exposure, The Office, The Prisoner, Monty Python's Flying Circus, Robot Chicken, Seinfeld, Star Trek: The Original Series

Books:


Vonnegut, Bradbury, Chabon, Kerouac, Tom Robbins, Shakespeare, Alan Moore, Grant Morrison, Neil Gaiman

Heroes:


Ray Bradbury, Joseph Campbell, Albert Einstein, Benjamin Franklin, John the Apostle, Jack Kerouac, Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr., William Shakespeare, King Solomon

My Blog

Into the New

I am fed up with the fogies, the nepotists, the hazers, the losers, the pretenders, the old men in rocking chairs who wax about how hard they had it.Watch the news. When you see that guy who commits t...
Posted by Patrick on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 07:12:00 PST

Goodbye, Bob. Your memory lives.

Robert John Mallin was 22 years old when his life was stolen by a murderer at 6AM on February 16th.I've heard it said that the day AFTER Valentine's Day is the statistical highpoint for breakups but i...
Posted by Patrick on Sat, 17 Feb 2007 11:55:00 PST

iTunes Movie Soundtrack of My Life?

Got this from my friend Rocco, over on Facebook. Figured I'd give it a try...1. Open your library (iTunes is the only way)2. Put it on shuffle.3. Press play.4. For every question, type the song that's...
Posted by Patrick on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 08:02:00 PST

Intelligence, Politics, Money, Religion and Dating

You Are 36% RepublicanYou're a bit Republican, and probably more conservative than you realize.If you're still voting Democrat, maybe it's time that you stop.How Republican Are You?You Are 36% Democra...
Posted by Patrick on Wed, 03 Jan 2007 08:35:00 PST

A personality quiz or two...

Your Five Factor Personality ProfileExtroversion:You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social...
Posted by Patrick on Wed, 03 Jan 2007 07:52:00 PST

The Year In Review

Well... It's been quite a year.I'm not sure how it compares to the last few previous years.. 2004 was a year of amazing progress and growth. It was the year I returned to Berry. I was never more activ...
Posted by Patrick on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 09:56:00 PST

Do you envy me? (Dating Quiz Reveals My Superiority)

Okay... Uneventful New Year precipitated by my erratic sleep cycle. So, naturally, I occupy myself online taking quizzes. Some people do research online. Some people look at porn. As far as I'm concer...
Posted by Patrick on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 02:33:00 PST