life.
words of wisdom.
♣ imogen heap.
♣ rasputina.
♣ pendulum.
♣ slipknot.
♣ nightwish.
♣ cradle of filth.
♣ iron and wine.
♣ chicane.
♣ kittie.
♣ missy higgins.
♣ paul oakenfold.
♣ system of a down.
♣ rammstein.
♣ incubus.
♣ 30 seconds to mars.
♣ AFI.
♣ akira yamaoka.
♣ alicia keys.
♣ apocalyptica.
♣ beethoven.
♣ the bled.
♣ blondie.
♣ wumpscut.
♣ rihanna.
♣ brand new.
♣ christina aguilera.
♣ luciana.
♣ lily allen.
♣ combichrist.
♣ HIM.
♣ deftones.
♣ diary of dreams.
♣ disturbed.
♣ dresden dolls.
♣ emiliana torrini.
♣ howard shore.
♣ evanescence.
♣ explosions in the sky.
♣ the fray.
♣ massive attack.
♣ jose gonzalez.
♣ kelly clarkson.
♣ korn.
♣ linkin park.
♣ marilyn manson.
♣ missy elliot.
♣ moby.
♣ motorcycle.
♣ mcr.
♣ muse.
♣ nine inch nails.
♣ a perfect circle.
♣ philip glass.
♣ placebo.
♣ the prodigy.
♣ sigur ros.
♣ stone sour.
♣ switchblade symphony.
♣ tatu.
♣ tori amos.
♣ wicked wisdom.
Oh what's that sorry? Me and Imogen Heap? Sorry, jealousy? :) ♥
♣ donnie darko.
"Life is one long insane trip. Some people just have better directions."
♣ ugly betty.
♣ the news.
♣ documentaries.
♣ QI.
♣ have I got news for you.
♣ nevermind the buzzcocks.
♣ the bell jar.
♣ the cement garden.
♣ the moth diaries.
♣ lord of the flies.
♣ the lovely bones.
♣ finding alibrandi.
♣ regeneration.
♣ birdsong.
"Find a way to return to the ones who made me, cover your eyes and we'll die together."
many, many people.
♣ my friends
♣ my family
♣ anyone who has helped me through at any given time
♣ my head of 6th form who has done so much for me this year. If it wasn't for her there is no way I'd even be being able to think about University.
There are so many people that I love and respect that I feel have done something for me in my life or look up to and admire for their bravery and brilliance, and I really need to thank those people but never know quite who, how and when. Darlings, thank you for everything you've all done for me. You are amazing people and you mean the world to me. ♥
But there are a couple of people in particular I have to thank.
Firstly, Gaultier. We have this crazy understanding and he is always there to pick me up with charm.
And...
erin.
you're the reason i get through life.
I've only properly known her for a matter of months, but my friend Erin is the closest person to the definition of angel I have ever met. I can't translate in words how much she means to me. I don't want any kind of reciprocation, she just needs to see how special she is. She is beautiful inside and out, I've never met anyone with a nicer manner, personality, nature and persona... and to top it off, not only is she the most intelligent person I know (best grades in the school, kthnx prove my point!), but she could be a model, she's so bloody stunning. She has the most beautiful blue eyes that make you want to melt and the most gorgeous long luscious hair, along with a perfect damn figure. And chuck in every other physical perfection you want. You don't meet people like that often, because for someone that perfect - physically and mentally - to actually exist is a rarity you can't comprehend. But luckily for me, I met her, and she is the most supportive darling you can imagine, I love her to pieces and really wish I could repay her one day for all the things she's done for me. I'm pretty positive she's saved my life on an endless number of occasions, and has always been there as a shoulder to cry on (literally, though a small one), to offer help and advice and beautiful eloquence. I wish I could do the same, though I rarely feel strong or good enough to do so. I never want to see or hear of her hurting, and she deserves only the best in this life. The thought of leaving her to go to Uni tears me apart. I do realise this makes me sound like a hugely butch lesbian. And if I was one, I definitely would be the butch one, considering how tiny she is, the flippin perfect skinny woman. When I give her my "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH" hugs, I feel like a giant lump of a lesbian who's molesting her and going to crush her. But despite how much that quite clearly lowers my self esteem (lol), I can't hold it against her because annoyingly she's too brilliant and lovely. We share so many interests and feelings (and the very same inappropriate idolisation of Ms Benger ^_^) and it's hard to believe that we're so similar when I worship the ground she walks on but I feel like I'm not worth a penny. But all I wanted to say, really, was darling, thank you SO much for everything, you are my rock, though obviously not literally because you're too beautiful. I don't think I've ever cared about anyone so much, ever. I am here for you whenever you need me, not that I'd be any help, but you deserve the world and more and I will do anything to help you get it. You are perfect, an angel, and I adore you. Me being at Uni is never going to change how much you mean to me, how much I owe to you, or how much I love you. ♥♥♥
*squidge*