Back In The Day (Wednesday)

Photography, writing, racing, dreaming, loving, pool, darts, sports minus golf and tennis, philosophy, mythology, psychology (careful i try to psycho analyze almost everybody and everything), music, music, music, playing guitar, deep conversation, staring at walls while i think, picking my nose, drinking, driving, sometimes at the same time, bmx dirt jumping and building jumps, watching cars from the over pass while i write...i dunno a lot ....

She said "don't, don't let it go to your head Boys like you are a dime a dozen, Boys like you are a dime a dozen" She said "you're a touch overrated, you're a lush and I hate it but these grass stains on my knees they won't mean a thing"And all I (all I) Need to know (need to know) Is that I'm something you'll be missing (is that I'm something that you're missing) (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that far (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that...I'd never lie to you Unless I had to I'll do what I got to Unless I had to I'll do what I got to, the truth is you could slit my throat And with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirtAnd all I (all I) Need to know (need to know) Is that I'm something you'll be missing (is that I'm something that you're missing) (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that far (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that...Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions This'll be last chance you get to drop my name Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions This'll be last chance you get to drop my nameIf I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this)Maybe I should hate you for this (If only you knew half as much as you pretend to) Maybe I should hate you for this (If only you knew half as much as you pretend to)

Go on just say it, You need me like a bad habit, One that leaves you defenseless, dependent, and alone. Go on just say it (Are you afraid to), You need me like a bad habit (Say what you want to, tell me you want to), One that leaves you defenseless, dependent, and alone. (Are you afraid to say what you want to, tell me you want to).I hold my tongue use it to assess, The damage from way back when it mattered, But nothing seems important anymore, We’re just protecting ourselves from our self, And I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down), I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down), I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back…), I don’t think I’ll ever come back…Are you ashamed to say what you want to tell me you want to. Are you ashamed to say what you want to tell me you want to. (Come on just say it) Are you ashamed to (Come on just say it) say what you want to tell me you want to. (Come on just say it) Are you ashamed to (Come on just say it) say what you want to tell me you want to.I’m making the difference, It just seems pointless, With all the obvious lines all out of focus. Why can’t you just be happy, Why can’t you just be happy. And I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down), I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down), I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back…), I don’t think I’ll ever come back...(Just come back, just come back...) Go on just say it, (just come back...) Come on just say it, (just come back...) Well I’ll just say it, (just come back...) I’ll just say it, (just come back...) I need you defenseless, dependent and alone. (Just come back, just come back, just come back...) She says live up to your first impression, Well my best side was your worst invention, Can't you live without the attention? Can't you live without the attention? (Just come back, just come back, just come back...) She says live up to your first impression, Well my best side was your worst invention, Can't you live without the attention? Can't you live without the attention?She says live up to your first impression (Come on, just say it), Well my best side was your worst invention (Come on, just say it), Why can't you live without the attention (I need you defenseless, dependent), Why can't you live without the attention (alone). She says live up to your first impression (I just say it), Well my best side was your worst invention (I just say it), Why can't you live without the attention (I need you defenseless, dependent), Why can't you live without the attention (Alone), Why can't you live (Defenseless, dependent), Why can't you live (Defenseless, dependent), Why can't you live…without…live…without (Defenseless, dependent, defenseless, dependent), Why can't you live (Defenseless, dependent), Why can't you live (Defenseless, dependent), Why can't you live…without…live…without (Defenseless, dependent, defenseless, dependent).

we're gonna die like this you know miserable and old really gotta hand it to you really gotta hand it to you are you positive absolutely sure well just get dressed, don't do this just get dressed, don't do thisspend the night lit listening to miles davis you said it makes you want to fall in love or be smart enough to keep your distance you can't decide, you can't decidewe're gonna die like this you know miserable and old really gotta hand it to you really gotta hand it to you (well just so you know) are you positive (when we get home) absolutely sure (we're through) well just get dressed, don't do this (we're through) just get dressed, don't do thisit's a long way back south (to where i belong) well you've been there once or twice (and you still don't like it) i say you just never gave it a chance (well give me a chance, give me a chance) besides did you ever stop to think that we could keep this up living like theives (but you can't decide) you can't decide (no you can't decide) well you can't decidewe're gonna die like this you know (we're gonna die like this) miserable and old (miserable and old) really gotta hand it to you (miserable and old) really gotta hand it to you (well just so you know) are you positive (when we get home) absolutely sure (we're through) well just get dressed, don't do this (we're through) just get dressed, don't do thisare you positive, absolutely sure are you positivewe're gonna die like this you know miserable and old really gotta hand it to you really gotta hand it to youwell just so you know (we're gonna die like this you know) when we get home (miserable and old) we're through (really gotta hand it to you) we're through (really gotta hand it to you)just so you know (are you positive) when we get home (aboslutely sure) we're through (just get dressed don't do this) we're through (just get dressed don't do this)well just so you know (we're gonna die like this you know) when we get home (miserable and old) we're through (we'regonna die like this, miserable and old) we're through (miserable and old) well just so you know (we're gonna die like this you know) when we get home (miserable and old) we're through (we're gonna die like this, miserable and old) we're through

Passed out in our school clothes so we'd wake up in our Sunday's best I never asked for your opinion, I just got it and I get it You move slow like daytime drama And I'm boring like his songs So while I'm taking you for granted We'll be humming alongWell cross my heart and hope to... I'm lying just to keep you here So reckless (so reckless), so, So thoughtless (so thoughtless) So careless, I could care lessWell cross my heart and hope to... I'm lying just to keep you here (So reckless) Well she's so heartless, And I could care lessSo paint your face up something elegant And this town maybe a darker shade of red Cause a long night means a fist fight Against your pillow and my pearly whites I want to hear you scream you like me better on my knees So let us pray (we don't believe in second chances) So let us prayDon't you ask me Don't you move (anywhere)Cross my heart and hope to I'm lying just to keep you here So reckless (so reckless), so, So thoughtless (so thoughtless) So careless, I could care lessWell Cross my heart and hope to I'm lying just to keep you here (So reckless) Well she's so heartless And I could care lessWell cross my heart and hope to I'm lying just to keep you here I'll keep you here, I'll keep you hereOne of us never did it but we're taking it all. (Well cross my heart and hope to) And tell me why you never promised that you wanted it all. (I'm lying just to keep you here) And her eyes never batted when she said it It's a long night, open, know it...This glass house is burning down (open all night, know it...) You light the match, I'll stick around (open all night, know it...) I'll give you everything you want (open all night, know it...) And wish the worst of what I was (open all night, know it...)This glass house is burning down (open all night, know it...) You light the match, I'll stick around (open all night, know it...) I'll give you everything you want (open all night, know it...) And wish the worst of what I was (open all night, know it...)Tonight won't make a difference Tonight won't make a difference Tonight won't make a difference Well tonight won't make a difference Well tonight won't make a difference Tonight won't make a difference Tonight won't make a difference Well tonight won't make a difference

All our secrets they are tailored trouble Draped loose now around your hips Your spotless instincts are valid We coexist Got 26 days to work with (got 26 days) We got 26 days to work with (it moves, it moves, it moves) We'll see what all gets doneI'm an addict for dramatics I confuse the two for love "You can't tell me that you don't beg..."Liar (liar) If we're keeping score We're all choir boys at best (Intrusive and arrogant) Liar (liar) If we're keeping score We're all choir boys at best (Intrusive and arrogant)Got 26 days to work with (got 26 days) Then back on that island That you swear by Still barely can't afford It's still a question of How long will this hold? Is it any different now that we are Don't you go there not here, not now (it moves, it moves, it moves) Not here, not nowI'm an addict for dramatics I confuse the two for love You can tell me don't begLiar (liar) If we're keeping score We're all choir boys at best (Intrusive and arrogant) Liar (liar) If we're keeping score Were all choir boys at best (Intrusive and arrogant)We're all choir boys at bestLiar (liar) If we're keeping score We're all choir boys at best (Intrusive and arrogant) Liar (liar) If we're keeping score We're all choir boys at best (Intrusive and arrogant) Liar (liar) Liar (liar) It takes one to know one

Well, i'll wait till you listen I wont say a word to follow your instincts just never worked for me you're silent but strong, (yeah, I'm playing that card) and you're noticing nothing againNow I'm lying on the table with everything you said keep that in mind the way that it felt when the most I could do was to just blame myself(Feel it out for once and feel nothing like everyone else) when the most I could do was to just blame myself and I know you know, everything I know you didn't mean it I know you didn't mean itI know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didn't mean it (start it all over) I know you didn't mean it (remember more then youd like to forget)So, we're talking forever and you almost feel better but, betters no excuse for tonight you see, it's never bad enough to just leave or give up but, its never good enough to feel rightNow I'm lying on the table with everything you said it will all catch up eventually well, it caught up and honestly the weight of my decisions were impossible to hold but they were never yours they were never yoursWell I, know you know, everything I know you didn't mean it I know you didn't mean itI know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didn't mean it (start it all over) I know you didn't mean it (remember more then youd like to forget)Drop everything, start it all over remember more then youd like to forget [x2]Would you like to forget would you like to forget drop everything, start it all over well, drop everything start it all over (would you like to forget) drop everything start it all over start it all...Well I, know you know, everything I know you didn't mean it I know you didn't mean itI know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didn't mean it (start it all over) I know you didn't mean it (remember more then youd like to forget)I know you know I know you know...you know, you know, you know...

Hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that you'll see. All by myself, I'm alone in such poor company. The deeper I think, the deeper I seem to sink, I can't stop the insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. I broke myself, shattered, tied a bow around every piece. You'll love the eyes. Have they always shown so vacantly? The more I show the less you'll want to know. I can't stop the insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. Now I'm on display. I am becoming. Hurt myself today. It's all for you. Do you like what I'm becoming? Cut myself today. It's all for you. I part the night, flashing, approaching as I watch you flee. Pushed through your panes. Seems I've landed quite uncomfortably. But as I pass through souls of broken glass I can't stop the insects that are feeding. Pull the needles from beneath my skin.

The first degree was a riot You were making sure My lesson's learned I'm not ashamed but I'm trying I've come to expect the standards you have set... Tell me just how dangerous is second best You've settled for less and I'm sure you'll settle againThere's no stopping me I'm gutting you out (Does this make you feel safe) There's no stopping this... The closer I look is just the further that you get Already stubborn skin thickens In a valiant attempt to understand So understand. There's no stopping me I'm gutting you out (Does this make you feel safe) There's no stopping this I'm gutting you out (Does this make you feel safe) I got tired (got tired) of waiting When(of waiting) When the guilt subsides the night begins... I know it's not what you deserve. The night begins. Came as a gift from a good friend That dissaproves But understands That you represent And actively encourage All of my worst habbits They all are proof That we're both capable of the most terrible things "Don't test me" There's no stopping this I'm gutting you out (Does this make you feel safe) There's no stopping this... I'm gutting you out(does this make you feel safe) i got tired(got tired).. Of waiting When..(of waiting) the guilt subsides go up against I know its not what you deserve i got tired(got tired).. Of waiting When..(of waiting) the guilt subsides go up against I know its not what you deserve

See all those people on the ground Wasting time I try to hold it all inside But just for tonight The top of the world Sitting here wishing The things I've become That something is missing Maybe I... But what do I knowAnd now it seems that I have found Nothing at all I want to hear your voice out loud Slow it down, slow it down Without it all I'm choking on nothing It's clear in my head And I'm screaming for something Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all On my own

Your defenses were on high Your walls built deep inside Yeah I'm a selfish bastard But at least I'm not alone My intentions never change What I wanted stays the same And I know what I should do it's time to set myself on fire Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Is this the only evidence that proves it A photograph of you and I Your reflection I've erased Like a thousand burned out yesterdays Believe me when I say goodbye forever Is for good Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Is this the only evidence that proves it A photograph of you and I Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Is this the only evidence that proves it A photograph of you and I (A photograph of you and I) Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Is this the only evidence that proves it A photograph of you and I A photograph of you and I A photograph of you and I... in love..