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camilla

forever is an illusion. life is now

About Me

My name is Camilla.I am an extremist. I am nothing, I am everything.I am no one and everyone in the world. i exist in a perpetual state of evolution, changing as rapidly as the moon.I believe that life is whatever you make it, and i want to make mine an adventure.I crave the bizarre, find comfort in strangeness,and thrive on obsession. To some I seem shy or boring or reserved, but there are many sides to me. I change at will, but sometimes it just happens. One day the air feels different, and the next day i am different too. i love to watch people, listen to them, understand them, though i spend much of my time alone.The world fascinates me, as do all of the unanswerable questions on life, death, and our very existence. All that is certain is uncertainty, all that is stable is false, all that seems perfect is flawed. I only know that i know nothing, and in that i know everything i need to know. All else is theory.Niether truth nor lie, it simply is. I fear nothing but myself, but then again, what really am i? i simply am. Until the day that i am not.
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--Info--
Name:: camilla
Nicknames:: none really
Birthplace:: beverly hospital
Current Location:: a lovely basement in Manchester by the sea
Hair Color:: blond at the moment
Eye Color:: green tea
Height:: 5'1
Weight:: something like 90 or 100
Tatoos?:: no
Piercings?:: a few
Overused Phrase:: they annoy the shit out of me
--Your--
Bedtime:: 8:30 unless i just dont sleep at all
Best Physical Feature:: eyes maybe
Most Embarassing Moment:: i rarely experience embarassment
Most Missed Memory:: the ignorant innocence of childhood
First Thought When You Wake Up:: PANIC but i dont know why
Weakness:: i have an addictive personality
Best Friends:: havent had one since preschool
Goal For The Year:: become someone else entierly
Greatest Fears:: myelf
--This Or That--
Pepsi or Coke...: boring
McDonalds or Burger King...: boring, how about japanese food?
Hot Tea or Ice Tea...: iced
Chocolate or Vanilla...: depends
Water or Milk...: agua
Coffee or Hot Chocolate...: COFEEEEEE
Hugs or Kisses...: both
Cats or Dogs...: well i have dogs
Summer or Winter...: summer!i despise winter with a passion
Scary Movies or Romantic Comedies...: depends on my mood
Love or Money...: love always
Green Grapes or Purple Grapes...: green apples
--Lover--
Perferred Eye Color:: dark
Perferred Hair Color:: dark
Short Hair or Long Hair...: not bald
Perferred Height:: taller than me
Perferred Weight:: not obese i guess
Looks or Personality...: personality definitly
Hot or Cute...: ive never gone for "cute"
Skinny...Muscular...or Fat...: skinny out of the three
--Favs--
Number:: 9
Food:: green apples, and zesty stuff
Type of Music:: lots
Candy:: unusual foriegn candy
Color:: sometimes green
Animal:: not sure
Drink:: soda water and anything highlycaffinated
Body Part on the Opposite Sex:: eyes
Movie:: many
Past Time:: wandering
--Have You Ever--
Drank?: yes
Smoked?: too much
Been Beaten Up?: not really
Bullied Someone?: no
Skinny Dipped?: love to
Played Spin The Bottle or 7 Minutes In Heaven?: no
Toliet Papered Someones House?: whats the point
Played Poker W/ Money?: yes
Gone Swimming In A White T-Shirt?: over a bathing suit
Been Tickled So Bad That You Cried?: i cry every time
Been Tickled So Bad That You Couldnt Talk?: every time
Like Someone And Not Tell Them How You Felt?: yes
Went Camping?: ug yes
Used The Restroom On A Tree?: wtf?
Had A Crush On Your Brother/Sister's Friend?: no
Had A Crush On Your Friend's Brother/Sister?: no
Walked In The Rain W/out An Umbrella?: always
Danced In The Rain?: it has been a while
Told A Joke And Nobody Thought It was Funny?: yes, and it was so akward that i couldnt stop laughing until i stopped breathing, turned red, and cried
Been On Stage?: little red riding hood
Worn Clothes Your Mom Didnt Approve Of?: i dont think she cares
Been To A Nude Beach?: really want to!
Cursed In Church?: i have never been in a church
Been Called A Whore/Slut For Kissing Someone?: no
Burnt Yourself?: on fried chicken
Been Dumped?: no
Dumped Someone?: no
Been In Love?: guess not
Been Hit On Someone To Old?: yes
Wanted To Be A Model?: no
Wanted To Be In The Olmpics?: no
Bought Lottery Tickets?: no
Made Out In A Car?: no
Cried During A Movie?: no
Wanted Something You Couldnt Have?: who hasnt
Made Love On The Beach?: no
Shoplifted?: when i was younger
Seen Someone Shoplift?: dont think so
Hung Up On Someone?: yes
Yelled At Your Pet?: no
Gotten Seasick?: YES
Tried To Strip When Drunk?: no
Bought A Thong Cuz The Casier Was Hot?: no
Stalked Someone?: perhaps
Had A Stalker?: many
Played A Prank On Someone And Scared Them?: yes
Been Embarrassed By Someone In Your Family?: yes
Felt Bad About Eating Meat?: sort of...chicken omlets, the butchered flesh of a mother animal, coated and fried in the fetal tissue of her unborn baby.
Protested?: its fun
Been To An Island?: yes
Ate Cuz You Had Nothing Better To Do?: doubt it, but mabe
Screamed In A Library?: yes
Made Out W/ A Stranger?: no
Made Out W/ Someone Who Wasnt Single?: no
Wished A Part Of You Was Different?: yes
Talked To A Complete Stranger?: best people to talk to
Been Sunburned So Bad You Blistered?: oh yea
Kicked A Guy In The Nuts?: no
Threw Up In School?: no
Recieved A Love Letter That Wasnt Signed?: yes
Wore Something You Hated?: no
Wore Something To Match Someone?: no
Been To A Luau?: no but it sounds fun
Cursed Infront Of Your Parents?: yes
Been On TV?: yes
Been Outta The Country?: yes
Been Honked At While Walking Down The Sidewalk?: too often, it scares me!
Won A Pool Game?: yes
Went To A Party Where You Were The Only Sober One?: no
Went To School/ Work Drunk?: no
Dieted?: no but once i didnt eat for two weeks
Had An Eating Disorder?: what would you call that
Cheated On Your Other?: no
Been Cheated On?: no
Been Paid To Date Someone?: no
Dated Someone That Was Paid or Dared To Date You?: no
Tanned Topless?: i dont tan period
Been Strip Searched?: partially
Been On A Plane?: yes
Been On A Cruise?: no
Been Pantsed In Public?: no
Thrown Your Shoe At Someone?: i think so
Broke Someone's Heart?: dont know
Sung In The Shower?: great acoustics
Bought Something Way To Expensive?: probably
Done Something Stupid And Laughed At Yourself?: definitly
Been Walked In On While You Were Dressing?: yes
Been Walked In On While Showering?: yes
Ran Out Of A Movie Theater Cuz You Got Scared?: Snow white when i was 4
Been Kicked Out Of A Mall/ Store?: no
Been Kicked Out Of A GoCart Place Cuz You Wrecked The Go Cart?: no
Been In Detention?: yes
Feel Off A Roof?: do you meen fell? yes
Pretended You Were Scared So You Could Cuddle W/ Someone?: no
Been In A Wreck?: no
Wrecked So You Wouldnt Hit An Animal?: no
Made Yourself Puck So You Wouldnt Have To Go To School?: seriously can you spell? the word is puke, and no
Threatened Someone W/ A Water Gun?: idk
Been Shot?: no
Had A Water Gun War?: yes
Been Arrested?: no, but i was taken to court
--Randoms--
Regret Something You Did In The Past?: not so much now
Country You Wanna Visit:: anywher warm
Way You Wanna Die:: in love
Like Thunderstorms?: absolutely
Get Along W/ Your Parents?: my mom
R U A Health Freak?: in some ways
U Think Ur Attractive?: in my own way
Do You Believe In Yourself?: yes i do
Wanna Get Married?: dosnt matter, as long as i find love
Wanna Go To College?: lately i have
Shower Daily?: yes
Want Kids?: maybe
When Do U Wanna Lose Your Virginity?: when i feel like it
Do U Hate Anyone?: not really, ok yes i do
Can You Unwrap A Starburst W/ Your Tongue?: probably
Do You Think You Can Sing?: i am phisically capable, yes.does it sound good?...not so sure
Can You Open You Eyes Underwater?: yep
Eat Whatever And Not Worry?: usually
Can You Whistle?: nooo
Can You Walk In High Heels?: i go barefoot
Do You Sleep W/ The Light On?: no
Do You Like Super Spicy Foods?: hell yes
Can You Multitask?: yes
Touch Your Nose W/ Your Tongue?: no
Can You Fit In Your Locker?: if i had a locker i could
Do You Spit?: no
Can You Taste The Difference Between Pepsi And Coke?: havent had either in a long time
If You Could Wish 4 Anything...What Would You Wish?: to change
What Kind Of Perfume Or Colone Do You Wear?: exotic stuff
What Kind Of Soap Do You Use?: dove
What's Your Favorite Scent?: rain and freshly cut grass
Would You Choose To Live Forever If You Could?: no, im too curious about death
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 60%
Stability |||||||||| 33%
Orderliness |||||||||| 36%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||| 63%
Interdependence |||||||||| 36%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 70%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Materialism |||||| 23%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50%
Conflict seeking |||||||||| 36%
Need to dominate |||||||||| 36%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 70%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Wealth || 10%
Dependency |||||||||||| 43%
Change averse |||||||||| 36%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 50%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||| 56%
Physical security |||||||||| 36%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Paranoia |||||||||| 36%
Vanity |||||||||||||||| 63%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Indie |||||||||||||||||| 76% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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My Interests

painting & drawing, music, watching people, being creative, taking pictures, coincidences, wondering,, making jewelery, the beach, green sunsets, things that make me rethink everything, change, people , making someone smile, trying something new, adventure, colors, the number 9, swirly designs, wierd ideas, imagination, having a good time, nice weather , shitty weather, peoples minds, being happy, clouds, singing, shouting, listening, being crazy, dreaming, daydreaming' experimental cooking, doodlyoodling(doodling), bowling, driving at night in the rain, jumping into water from high up, originality, butterflies, roaches, memories, getting scared, interesting earings, sleep, long dusty roads that go nowhere', contentness, freedom, the question why, nothing(seriously, think about it) fish skeletons

I'd like to meet:

someone who is a truely amazing person, someone whos just happy, someone genuinely insane,someone whos life i can change, someone who will change my life, someone who thinks like me, someone i will only see once, "tom" from myspace

Music:

BANDS/SINGERS:bob marley, the clash,joy division, led zeppelin, world reggae, nick cave, the english beat,cat stevens,pink floyde,sex pistols, the who, niel young, simon and garfunkel, talking heads, nick Drake, leonard cohen, no doubt, the beatles, putumayo albums, math the band, phish, sublime, u b 40,

Movies:

almost famous, mean creek, stand by me, matchstick men, dirty dancing, easy rider, big fish, charlie& the chocolate factory, silence of the lambs, napolian dynamite, edward scissorhands, donnie darko, white oleander, fried green tomatoes, LOTR, nurse betty, greese, the shining, toy story, the breakfast club,

Television:

yeah, i really dont like TV

Books:

a clockwork orange, the naked lunch,The road junkie, white oleander, a million little pieces, girl interrupted, running with scissors, lots of others i cant think...

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1.)i live in the moment 2.)doing art, walking, music, and hanging out with people i love are the guarenteed ways to put me in a good mood 3.)i love to listen to what people have to say, even if i...
Posted by camilla on Sun, 28 Aug 2005 04:16:00 PST