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until I understand or go blind.

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About Me

You can find me at a punk show or a movie. I have almost no discretion when it comes to my sense of humor; I love to make people laugh. I write- poems/ stories, whatever. I hate being alone but I have a problem relating to people alot. Im extremely shy sometimes, extremely outgoing others. I love to laugh but I can cry too, especially at a sad movie. I want to get the hell out of this area and move to some big city. Right now I'm going to Kankakee Community College and Im goinmg to try to transfer to Columbia College in Chicago and live on campus there. I will major in Creative Writing/ English and Philosophy. Im the romantic type, I wanna fall in love and get married eventually, have kids, etc... I'm a fool for the ladies. I worked at Best Buy for 3 years as an Assistant Supervisor on the sales floor. Now I work at Best Buy in the home theatre department, I love it cuz Im a big nerd.
I HATE:
Reality TV
Horror/Clown/Cannabis rap (puke)
rap in general for the most part
closed-minded people
house techno music
asparagus
black olives
people who listen to loud music in public with their headphones around their neck
pauley shore
ignorant people
political zealots
angry self-contradicting young punk/goth kids
narcissistic people
capri pants
Carlos Mencia
I think with my heart, and not with my mind most of the time. I tend to 'feel' my way through situations, and it gets me hurt alot. And I don't look at life logically in most cases, I look at it poetically. I look for depth everywhere in my life.
"Our worst fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God; your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people premission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Nelson Mandela
I am not religious but I have Faith that there is a God and I follow my beliefs with strict moral values.
It is not what religion we follow, because we are all just flying different airlines to get to the same destination. And God's customs officers accept all different passports.

My Interests

Writing, Movies, Internet, Friends, Chicago Art Institute. Concerts, Poetry, Art. Philosophy. Love, Beauty, Truth, The Human Soul. That human connection..

I'd like to meet:

A good friend. Friends don't give up on the friendship because they're too 'busy'. Friends don't give up on you because they can't deal with your faults. Friendship isn't born out of 'convenience' and it isn't something that comes and goes. I would rearrange my life for a friend, keep all promises, never stand them up, never pick a hobby over them. my friends are my passion and love in life. I listen until no end, I seek help for them if they ask for it, and I love them. I believe in devotion and above all, sincerity. I am looking for someone who feels the same. -------------------- and also: A beautiful girl that I can connect with.. And Dave Groehl. And Charles Kaufmann.
And these guys:
Juliya "

Music:

In no particular order... Alkaline Trio, Bayside, Punchline, Anberlin, Jack Johnson, Dustin Kensrue, Umphrey's McGee, The Raconteurs, John Mayer, The Rapture, Under the Influence of Giants, The Dandy Warhols, The New Pornographers, Atreyu, Gorillaz, System of A Down, No Doubt, Blink 182, Plain White T's, Jet, Head Automatica, Wolfmother, BoysetsFire, Showbread, New Found Glory, The Sounds, The Hush Sound, Hellogoodbye, Panic! At the Disco, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Thrice, Mae, Dog Fashion Disco, Shiny Toy Guns, Mute Math, Senses Fail, Heavens, Deftones, Green Day, Weezer, Rise Against, Avenged Sevenfold, Foo Fighters, Say Anything, Bayside, Papa Roach, Ted Leo and The Pharmacists, Anti-Flag, Catch 22, Streetlight Manifesto, Postal Service, Death Cab For Cutie, Saves The Day, Coldplay, Bad Religion, My Chemical Romance, Jimmy Eat World, 311, Rancid, Thursday, Emery, Led Zeppelin, Slipknot, Something Corporate, AFI, Taking Back Sunday, Offspring, Save Ferris, Go Betty Go, Tsunami Bomb, Sleater Kinney, Eisley, Blink 182, Soundgarden, Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Stone Temple Pilots, R.A.T.M, Coheed and Cambria, Queens of the Stone Age, A Perfect Circle, Tool, Alice In Chains, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Bouncing Souls, Minor Threat, White Stripes, Radiohead, NIN, Neutral Milk Hotel, NoFX, Dropkick Murphys, Flogging Molly, Jack Johnson, Fall Out Boy, The Get up Kids, Relient K, Copeland, The Ataris, Boys Night Out, Hot Hot Heat, 30 Seconds to Mars, John Mayer, Alexisonfire, Silverstein, Incubus, Smashing Pumpkins, Armor For Sleep, Fiona Apple, Straylight Run, Brendan Benson, The Format, Amber Pacific, Greeley Estates, Against Me!, Iron & Wine, The Decemberists, Matt Skiba, Letter Kills, Funeral For a Friend, Sigur Ros, The Arcade Fire, The Killers, Karma With a K, Crimson Addict, Crystal Gamez, Myk Martello, Bughouse, The Pone Tonys, Triumph and Parade, The Pinnacle... and SOO much more!

Movies:

Fight Club, Donnie Darko, 300, Planes, Trains, and Automobiles, Dumb and Dumber, Monty Python, Tommy Boy, Napoleon Dynamite, Anything Quentin Tarentino- Pulp Fiction, Kill Bill, etc.. Comic book flicks- Batman Begins, X-Men, Spiderman, Blade, and more... Anything Charles Kaufmann- Adaptation, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Being John Malkovich, etc... Anything M. Night Shyamalan (except Stuart Little 2)- Sixth Sense, Signs, Unbreakable, The Village. Anything Wes Anderson- Rushmore, The Royal Tenenbaums, The Life Aquatic. Office Space, Garden State, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Boondock Saints, Life as a House, American Beauty, FLCL, Neon Genesis: Evangelion, Pi, SLC Punk, Those 80's brat pack flicks- Breakfast Club, etc..., I even like quite a few chick flicks- The Notebook, Say Anything, Serendipity, etc..., and many many more...

Television:


AOTS

Family Guy

Dexter

Conan O' Brian

The Simpsons

Heroes

The Daily Show

Colbert Report

The Office

Chuck

Scrubs

Books:

Im an avid reader... Neil Gaiman is my favorite. Ive read all the Palahniuk novels. Ive read everything by Stephen King and The Darktower Series was the pinnacle of his collection. But my favorite King books are The Talisman and Needful Things. Ive read most all of Dean Koontz- some are total crap but some are awesome. My favorite by Koontz is prolly "Life Expectancy". and I love reading Kurt Vonnegut novels. Steve Martin (the comedian/actor) is also an excellent novelist- "The Pleasure of My Company". Bret Easton Ellis- American Psycho, check it out. Yann Martel- The Life of Pi, The Catcher In The Rye, Graphic Novels like 'Watchmen' (and all the other Alan Moore books), 30 days of Night, 300 (and other Frank Miller books), Johnny The Homicidal Maniac, and alot more...

Heroes:


M. Night Shyamalan

both these dudes

My Blog

the portrait of the sad king

a tangle of thornsscratch as i crawl through the stormthey claw at my insides i took what wasn't mineand it felt so devinethat i had to leave her where she stood she tasted so goodthe only pleasure i ...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 07:11:00 PST

Tonight, tonight, we're gonna get it right.

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Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 09:24:00 PST

here I am, rock you like a hurricane

DISCLAIMERso as to protect the guilty, all names will be changed and any copyright infringement regardless of monetary gain will be prosecuted to the full extent of the law. also, all stunts are perfo...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 01:16:00 PST

Discomfort

Discomfort   When every rejectionbecomes an infliction Opening me upbecoming this worsening infection You can see my tainted bloodAs it streams to my heart You can see my self-lovecrumbling- fall...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 09:21:00 PST

Eyes: amber, like October fire- an update

It was cold tonight   and I noticed that the leaves are turning Gold/ yellow not pink and tye-dye like last year   when I was on that constant LSD trip   just kidding   so Fall is...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Tue, 19 Sep 2006 08:38:00 PST

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Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Sun, 17 Sep 2006 01:11:00 PST

Jack Bauer

Ok, I know these are't new, but they are funny and I've just recently revisited them and wanted to share.1. If everyone on "24" followed Jack Bauer's instructions, it would be called "12". 2. If Jack ...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 11:47:00 PST

Spring

it is my inner Spirit    which sings   CAN you hear it? It brings-   news   of answers found   and clues (soft little sounds)   of birds chirping and plants-   ...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Thu, 31 Aug 2006 10:22:00 PST

Poems

When I hold my life beneath the canvas that I paint on, I will not trace the dark When I write the poem that defines me, I will not end it with a question mark. When I sing the song of my love, I wi...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Fri, 11 Aug 2006 07:49:00 PST

celebrity look-a-like

I submitted my pic to the facial recognition software at http://www.myheritage.com and it said I am a 70% match with Alyssa Milano.   If I looked like her I would touch myself all the time... oh ...
Posted by until I understand or go blind. on Sun, 09 Jul 2006 05:51:00 PST