Janet

MY ABORTION AND THE EFFECTS ON MY LIFE
When I was fourteen I had my first real boyfriend. We dated for almost a year before we had sex. I had'nt even gotten my period yet, but guess what? I got my period then I did'nt get it again.I worked at the public library so had access to any book I wanted. I started to read books on pregnancy just to find out I had most of the symtoms. I was scared and excited at the same time. After telling my boyfriend I decided to see a doctor he did a pregnancy test and yes I was pregnant, he then asked me if I was going to tell my Mother and I said yes. Well I never really communicated much with my Mother she pretty much never showed her feelings or talked to us about personal stuff, she never even talked to me about my period good thing they had them movies in school.I was having a really hard time to get up the nerve to tell my Mother so I went to my school counsellor, which was a big mistake. He threatend me, either tell your Mother within twenty four hours or were telling her. This was the beginning of me not trusting people.I went home and told my sister and she sat down with me and my Mother and she ended up telling her. She hardly said a word and if she did I did'nt remember it. Then it was off to my boyfriends house he told his parents and oh boy they were mad, they stared throwing things and said I was never allowed in their house again.Now that the scary part (so I thought was over) I was really excited I told all of my friends at school. I was in love with my baby, I was finally going to have someone to love me and for me to love back.About a week went by and I came home from school one day only to find my Mother and Grandmother in the car waiting for me they did'nt say anything except get in. I remember crying and crying so at some point she must have told me she was taking me to get an abortion. I wanted to open the door and jump out! When we got to the clinic we went into the reception area then the nurse called my name and I went in. They put me up on the table and started the procedure. I cryed the whole time.I had gone to church I knew abortion was not the right thing to do. Besides that they were killing the baby I loved so much. I was 13 weeks pregnant and it was one week before my fifthteenth birthday. My Mother's excuse was that she did'nt want to get close to the baby and have me move away cause then she would be hurt. What about me? I was'nt hurt? It was the worse thing that to this day had ever happened to me.I went back to school a couple of days later and after knowing I had an abortion my friends were no longer my friends. My boyfriend had cheated on me and there was this boy in my science class that sat behind me saying MaMa MaMa. I could'nt take it!Three months went by and it was summer vacation. I packed up some clothes and ran away. I hitchhiked 31 states and had sex with numerous men. I met a couple of guys that were really abusive and had been raped several times or more I lost count.Then I was finally eighteen. I went back to my Mother's house, which now was in a different state. I got in many abusive relation ships which turned to marriages. I was drinking and smoking pot very heavily, except when I was pregnant with my next five children. I was married with my first born but it only lasted a little over a year. Then I had a baby out of wedlock. I then married again and had another baby. I was six months pregnant when I left. A week before my Mothers husband (which happened to be her first cousin asked me if I would have sex with me. My Mother said she forgave him because everytime she asked him about it he cryed. I had nobody to turn to. I asked my first husband to borrow me two hundred dollars and I moved two hundred miles away to Billings Montana. Where I ran into my third husband I had known him from years ago, he used to date a friend of mine, I never cared for him but I knew I could'nt do it on my own so we started living together.Well my divorce was finally finalized and I got married for the third time. This marriage produced two more children and thirteen years of a disfunctional marriage and family.I did'nt know how to love, I only felt pain and distrust. I did'nt love myself how could I love anyone else. As my children grew I did'nt know how to show them love either. It was a long nightmare. I had had four children in five years and I felt and still feel I was a terrible Mother. It all stemmed back to my abortion when I loved so much and I was forced to kill my baby. I feel if I would of had that baby I would have been a good Mother. My heart would'nt if been been ripped apart. The abortion taught me hate, anger, worthlessness, not to trust. I would'nt of been raped numerous times and would have had a much easier life. And not had a broken heart and would of been able to love and trust, and feel good about myself.I am now forty six with the emotional maturity of a fifteen year old. I just recently forgave my Mother and myself with the help of the Lord Jesus. It still hurts I still miss my baby but I know one day I will meet him in heaven. I am working to better my relationship with my children, but I'm on my fifth marriage and am still having trouble in that area. I am currently depressed which is the state I have been in since the abortion.Please pray for me God Bless You!Janet E. BruyetteOn The Wings Of FaithSpread your wings of faith and fly Don’t let opportunities past you by Rise above your impossibilities Soar over your adversities Don’t let doubt scheme It destroys your hope and dreams Doubt is your worst enemy It brings fear and agony Doubt closes but faith opens the door So fly on the wings of faith and explore You can’t see the wind but it blows That’s the way faith flows Without faith you can not please God So fly on the wings of faith and rise above the odds
GOD'S HANDS
by Anne R. C. Neale
I see Him in the morning as the golden sun starts to rise, I see Him in the white clouds drifting in the light blue sky, I see him in the sparkling dew drops resting on the grass. I see Him move the leaves on the trees, gently and not too fast,I see Him as the birds fly from tree to tree to tree, I see Him as the wind blows the rain drops upon me, I see His creations surrounding me in many different ways, I see what God's hands have created and I give Him thanks as I pray
A Creed To Live ByDon't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important.Only you know what is best for you. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless.Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us to each other. Don't be afraid to encounter risks.It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave. Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give love. The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings. Don't dismiss your dreams.To be without dreams is to be without hope; to be without hope is to be without purpose. Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you're going. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.
PRO-LIFE
Abortion is the killing of a Human Being.Would you consider abortion in the following 4 situations?1. There's a preacher and wife who are very, very, poor. They already have 14 kids. Now she finds out she's pregnant with 15th. They're living in tremendous poverty. Considering their poverty the excessive world population, would you consider recommending she get an abortion?2. The father is sick with sniffles, the mother has TB. They have 4 children. 1st is blind, 2nd is dead, 3rd is deaf, 4th has TB. She finds she's pregnant again. Given the extreme situation, would you consider recommending abortion?3. A white man raped a 13 year old black girl and she got pregnant. If you were her parents, would you consider recommending abortion?4. A teenage girl is pregnant. She's not married. Her fiance is not the father of the baby, and he's very upset. Would you consider recommending abortion?In the first case, you have just killed John Wesley. One of the great evangelists in the 19th century.In the second case, you have killed Beethoven.In the third case, you have killed Ethel Waters, the great black gospel singer.And most of all...........If you said yes to the fourth case, you have just declared the murder of Jesus Christ !!There are many resources out there to help you when you feel like you are in a situation you can't handle. Please remember these four people, and those unborn who have yet to help make this world a better place! Share this with your friends Think of ways that you can help to make people appreciate all life!
All though you cannot see me or hear my tiny voice,I know that you can feel me, so let me have a "choice" My life is but a heartbeat, all to lose and more to gain, I may be just a fetus, but I can still feel pain "I'm innocent and helpless, I haven't even learned To cry, there's nothing that's more precious, why do I deserve to die?" "Show me the chance to be, It's the least that you can give, Why do you have to kill me? Please just let me live
Jesus, I plead Your blood over my sins and the sins of my nation. God, end abortion and send revival to America!
Lord Hear the cry of each woman who mourns the loss of her child to abortion. Forgive her sin, restore her to your grace, and still the terror of her heart with a peace beyond all understanding. Through the intercession of the Blessed Virgin Mary, Mother of all tenderness and our Mother, strengthen her faith in you. Give her the consolation to believe that her child is now living in the Lord. We ask this through Christ our Lord, who conquered sin and death, and who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God,
for ever and ever. Amen
PSALMS 51:1
1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy loving kindness according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions and my sin is ever before me.