Heres the long version last week we were laying in bed and im like lets play truth and he laughed and said I must have gave him truth serum...It was all in good fun...I was just asking him stupid sexual questions like would you do this or would you do that and I asked him if he would ever fuck a guy..He said hell no at first then he said ok I fucked around with my best friend...I immidiatly thought he was lying so I kept asking him if he was just tricking me and he said no and he explained that him and his best friend were bored and they decided to suck each others cock and put there dicks between each others legs...He told me that it was very dramatic and the guy wanted to end things and I guess chase didnt want too do that so chase was going to tell everyone but he didnt...I asked him if he was really going to tell everyone and he said he doubts it, he said it was just threats...Of course I was shocked because this is way too soap opera for real life and I asked so many questions but he told me that there was nothing else to tell....then he started getting paranoid and he kept telling me i was looking at him different and that I was ashamed of him and that wasnt true...I didnt love him any less...but still it was a hard thing to handle...Everything was good for a few days in fact we had discussed how this had brought us even closer and how its so nice that we both know everything about each other, we even moved our wedding day up sooner...We were really happy....Things were pretty much perfect. I guess now thinking about it it was just the calm before the storm...The truth was I was thinking about it so much, I felt betrayed but thought at least he was honest with me...I brought it up again saturday morning, he got really angry and told me to never mention it again because he didnt want to talk about it anymore...and I kept pushing and pushing and I asked him if he was sleeping with other men if he was in love with the guy...I started freaking out telling him what if I marry him and he decides he really does love men and where does that leave me...I told him I would be so humiliated....I asked him how could he expect me to give my future to someone that wasnt even sure they wanted a future with a woman...Maybe I overreacted but its how I felt at the time...Anyhow he broke down and he was crying and screaming at me and I was crying and screaming at him and he was threatning me and he left... He called me Wednesday night we fought at first he told me if i tell he would have nothing to lose and I would lose everything too...So we argued with each other and then I asked him how could he be so cold and wasnt this affecting him at all....He broke down and he said this was hurting him as much as it was hurting me but he just doesnt like to show his emotions...He was the chase I knew again and we told each other we loved each other and he said that everything would be ok...he told me he had been thinking about the baby a lot, and that he wished he had done things differently...He told me he was sorry for the way he treated me when I was pregnant and that he blamed himself partly for me having a miscarriage...The miscarriage wasnt his fault...He could have done things differently...But so could I...It was such a hard time for us when I was pregnant...I really wanted to have the child, He really wanted me to have an abortion...We would fight over and over again about it...He told me a few times he would kill himself if I had the baby...I told him I could not have an abortion because I didnt feel it was the right thing for me to do...He told me he loved me and wanted to marry me but that he could not become a father because he thought he would be a lousy father...I was scared that he would kill himself because he had threatened to kill himself so I did scedule an abortion but I never went...Anyhow me and him lived in dream land...Sometimes he would talk about the baby and what to name it and sometimes he would not talk about it at all without getting angry...anywayz I ended up having a miscarriage...It affected us both a lot...We fought hard, I was upset about losing the baby and he wanted me to just get over it I didnt understand how he could be so cold.......so I left him...But we got back together...He told me him acting cold was his way of dealing with losing the baby...The fact is if we would have never got back together none of this would have ever happened... His friend that he slept with called me and said I dont know whats wrong with Chase but you need to be careful, He told me Chase is out of his mind and needs help...I hope he does get the help he needs. At the end of the day people are going to believe what they want to believe.....either im just crazy or hey im actually telling the truth...I honestly dont know if Chase is Gay or if he is Bisexual...What I do know is that he is confused....Im confused...You start to question what is wrong with you when you find out something like that about the man you love...We were engaged..we almost had a child...He was my best friend and to find out that 8 months you spent investing into a relationship turned out to be nothing but lies is very hard...The thing is when our relationship was good it was good and when it was bad it was so bad...there was never an in between..... I admit im not perfect. I take blame for this mess too and I wish so many things could be different...I wish that I would have handled his secret better...I wish he could handle this better....I wish he would have never told me at all...