I am in the process of learning about my faults & the things I have done in the past to the people that I love. I am slowly finding out who I really am, and working towards being a better person, you really learn alot about yourself when you find out that you have basically been played for your whole entire life. I am learning to let things that have happened in the past go, and move on toward the future. I am focusing on healing my soul and my heart and taking care of my boys (that are here with me), my oldest son has decided to move out and explore life on his own, I just hope that he realizes that I will always be here for him and that I love him unconditionally. I am very grateful for my friends that have been here for me thru all of this and also my sister, she has been my biggest supporter thru this whole mess. At first I was lost and didn't want to move on, but I have come to realize that nothing will change what has happened is what it is. A love I thought could survive thru anything is gone, and is never coming back, but in the back of my mind and in my heart I knew that day would come and he would move on, I was hoping I was wrong but it turns out that my gut feelings were right. I hope the best for him in his new life and that he finds what & who he is searching for. As for me it doesn't matter if I have anyone else in my life, as long as I am able to support my boys and make sure they have what they need and I have them in my life, they are all that I need. There love is the only love I want at this time.
Pam wants you to check out a photo on MySpace in the me and brendon album
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