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Nicole [{Organic}].

I was just trying to find my footing based on where everyone else was standing...

About Me

My AIM screen name is cowsrock2474u
Lyrics of my life
"I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye." Kimya Dawson
"Inhailing thrills through twenty dollar bills." Postal Service
"I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you... I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down; I want to come too." Landon Pigg
"No one understands me quite like you do through all of the shadowy corners of me." Landon Pigg
"Our minds pressed and guarded: while our flesh disregarded the lack of space." Damien Rice
"Maybe I'm worth your time; maybe I'm not worth a thing. Maybe I'm just afraid, but this is how I feel when you are gone." Tysen
"What I am to you is not real What I am to you you do not need What I am to you is not what you mean to me You give me miles and miles of mountains And I'll ask for what I give to you Is just what i'm going through This is nothing new No no just another phase of finding what I really need Is what makes me bleed And like a new disease she's still too young to treat." Damien Rice
"You could make my head swerve. Used to know my every curve. And now we meet on a street, And I am blind. I can not find the heart I gave to you.Sometimes what we think we really want we don't. Sometimes what we think we want we really don't. Sometimes what we think we love we don't." Ingrid Michaelson
"Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts? Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts. So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess and to stop the muscle that makes us confess... We are so fragile and our cracking bones make noise; we are just breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys." Ingrid Michaelson

My Interests

The Puddle
By Nicole Eckrich
I’m drowning in a puddle;
I’m sinking into sand.
I’m refusing to shuttle
Myself to solid land.
So I paddle in torment;
I fight to stay afloat
While trying not to dement
Chance of finding a boat
Until the rescue ship comes,
I’ll sink into this sea.
Waves of emotion still hum,
“One day, you will be fee…”

I'd like to meet:

Ashlee Simpson, Miss America, My dad.
I love being driven in cars.
Not every shot will turn into a good photo.
Sometimes we miss the perfect photo op.
I look prettier in print.
I love the wind.
Sharks are my favorite animals.
Someday I want to the be poet laureate of the US
I wish I were blonde. I tried it once. Nothing beats the natural.
I cry when I get embarassed.

You know that time when the wind
whisks through your hair; the feeling is so cool and fresh on your face—it feels almost like a cleansing sting,
like when you clean a wound with peroxide
and you know your wounds are being disinfected because it burns—
it’s kind of like that. The wind chills your face, giving you this feeling of calm, but when it shimmies through your hair, leaving a scattered wasteland of tangle, you know what you felt wasn’t
in reality the same cleansing as the peroxide. The wind leaves behind a greasy residue in a tattered pile of leaves.
It leaves the hair dirty and disheveled.
But you only realize this when you step inside
from the cold and look into a mirror. You only become aware of the damage when you actually sense with your eyes, not merely your feelings.
Sometimes relationships are like standing in the wind. They feel so healthy, so natural and loving, when really, they are just tangling our hearts instead of our hair.
But of course love is much more captivating than wind,
and we don’t see it until it’s all over--
until the cleansing wind has stopped blowing, and we are left with knotted hair and knotted heart
The cleansing of the wind doesn’t last,
for it was never really there. And just like wind, nothing lasts forever,
and eventually you will see—you will see that you wanted to be cleansed so badly
that you allowed something damaging take over you when vulnerable, and then, then is when you need
the peroxide to disinfect the wound that you in your vulnerability has only made worse—that you have allowed to be windblown. And the peroxide will sting,
but that is the health in it. There is no alternative because without it comes infection.
And the sting will keep you safe.

Heroes:

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My Blog

Passion for Compassion

Within the past couple days I have been reflecting on a lot. I guess I am in the mood of reflection, but this has led me to realize a lot of things about myself regarding this year. The first semester...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Wed, 07 Mar 2007 02:41:00 PST

My mom

I love my mom. She sent me a Valentine's package and a birthday package today. There were like 5 wrapped presents in each. I haven't opened the birthday ones yet; 2 more days!But the Valentine's card ...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 02:24:00 PST

Poetry in motion

Pregnant Heart By Nicole Eckrich   Turn my mourning into dancing; Turn my tears and cries to laughing. Tired of sorrow, sunken sobs; Heavy heart, throwing throbs. Swollen eyes reflect a hear...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 08:21:00 PST

latest poems

Untitled For I'm the one who brought us here I ruined the life adored Now memories, merely a smear And I am just a whore       The smile I need   I miss your smile; I miss your lau...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Wed, 27 Sep 2006 11:53:00 PST

Some poems...

Untitled To give Him all, To give this up Would it be such a crime To keep these thoughts, To hold these pains, To cling to what is mine?   I want them here, For here they rest; They do not st...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Fri, 15 Sep 2006 09:30:00 PST

I'm in college!

So I'm at NNU and doing well. My first day of class was today. Pretty dull so far. I'm going to put up my schedule on here so you all can figure out when I'll be around to talk. Monday: 9:10-10:10 Ge...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Tue, 29 Aug 2006 01:11:00 PST

College!

So I'm headed off to NNU this morning. Pray for me! I am pretty excited/scared/.... everything else you can feel. I'm kind of down though throughout everything.. so if you want to leave me a nice mess...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Fri, 25 Aug 2006 09:08:00 PST

achievement!

Oh yes... You are looking at Stockford Village McDonalds' employee of the month... and I don't mean the guy with the hair haha.. ME!! Oh yes.. my many hours of slaving away were appreciated. They lov...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Fri, 18 Aug 2006 02:00:00 PST

Here's my life

Can I flee, escape from this And not appear as dead? Or will this sin undoubtedly Kill me in the end?
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Sat, 08 Jul 2006 01:00:00 PST

just some writings someone suggested I put up

Justin's song Dont let this love song fade away Dont lose the memories weve made Dont sit and cry me away You know if I could Id stay   I do love you Even though were through You know I am true C...
Posted by Nicole [{Organic}]. on Thu, 29 Jun 2006 11:40:00 PST