I wanna run away with the horror circus

I have the worst people skills ever i cant talk to people but i am making an effort. If music is on when im in a car you have a snowballs chance in hell of my full attention. Even though i some times seem like im not paying attention im paying more than you think. I think about things to much and worry alot. I remember when i went backpacking at one point i had convinced myself the guy in the room oppisit was going to come through the door and use my own camping kife (with a built in fork why they put it on the same thing i will never know) and kill me where i slept. I always daydream and most of the time its about changing some thing in a situation and how it would have effected it. This often bums me out and have just made a mental note to stop doing it. I have a vivid imagination and often wake up from nightmares to write down quick notes about what i just saw. Sounds crazy but thats how frankenstein was written.I sometimes will argue till im blue in the face about the fact that something i have dremt has really happened so if i do this you'll have to excuse me. I really am convinced its happened and when you deny any knowledge about it i stat to debate weather im losing my mind.