~shawna~ profile picture

~shawna~

From your lips, to Gods ear...

About Me

IF YOU ARE A RACIST FUCK, I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU, DON'T MESSAGE ME, DON'T BOTHER TRYING TO ADD ME!!! I'M NOT INTERESTED IN YOUR LAME EXCUSES, YOUR LACK OF INTELLIGENCE, OR YOUR SMALL MIND. MY VERY OWN MONTAGE!!!! Written, filmed, and directed by Marc.... I am hopelessly addicted to photo booth pictures. I'm in love with the feeling I get when I'm doing something creative. I am weird and I don't give a fuck. I have a "thing" for green shoes. I like to share. I actually think I might like my job. I don't care what the hell you think of me. I cuss like a sailor but have a heart of gold. I need more tattoos!! I drink coffee by the gallon. I like spur of the moment good times. You may be able to fool some people but you're not fooling me. I am no one's baby. I like to watch porn. I'm over one night stands. I like when people know how to spell. I love punk rock with all my heart and soul. Live music is my church. I smoke a shitload of cigarettes. I like stickers. I don't act my age, nor do I really want to. I live for road trips. I don't regret a thing. I love my friends. I'm ghetto on the inside. I am NOT a neurotic mess. I should have been born a Mexican. I am crazy about argyle socks. I am a nerd. I like to play board games. I like to do things myself, if I need your help I'll ask for it. I don't like lima beans. I am quite fond of smart boys. Old typewriters fucking rule. I like to dance. I sing in my car. I smile through the tears. I am loyal to a fault. I am the one who will always be there for you, cuz once your in, it's por vida...

My Interests

Trying new things, hearing my name in the dark, 25 cent rings, forgiveness, playing Ms. Pacman, storytelling, appreciating all the little things that most people take for granted, a good, hard spanking, a thought provoking question or conversation, kindness, being easily entertained, the smell of rain, singing in my car, dying my hair, sunshine, people with conviction, strength of charactor, tasty food, quiet nights at home, a warm place to sleep, masturbation, self reliance, hugs from random strangers, intimacy, acting silly, the sound and smell of the ocean, sarcasm, long walks, fuzzy caterpillars, ranting lunatics, getting a tattoo, cuddling, the smell of sex, bare feet, pushing my limits, KISSING, dancing, kicking things, the stars on the night of a new moon, a childs curiousity, beautiful women, eye contact, trying new things, being naked outside, directness, comfortable boots, eyeliner, getting peirced, body heat, dogs, revelations, revolutions, thunder & lightning storms, kept promises, appreciation, city lights, compliments, looking young, sexy intelligent men, exploration, sucking on cheese, graffeti, shaving, a good book, board games, smooth skin, finding the beauty in someones faults, massages, atari games, compassion, memories, creativity, autumn in Minnesota, foreign languages, communication, discussion & debate, a solar (or lunar) eclipse, confidence, sorbet, butterflies, streetlights in the fog, driving, mix tapes (cds), getting letters in the mail, meeting new people, the Oregon vortex, contentment, the redwoods, memories of my both my grandpas, friends, a glass of water, clean sox, skin on skin, feeling loved, taking risks, spontinaity, blowing bubbles, climbing trees, having an orgasm, trust, Where the Wild Things Are, Dr. Suess, learning, dreams, getting all dressed up, using my tongue, thrift store shopping, fireflies, changing the oil in my car, painting, cooking, AND FUCKING LIVING!!!!!

I'd like to meet:

People who want to let me crash on their couch when I'm traveling, in exchange for the same... People that want to help with my photobooth project... Please???? OH! And anyone who wants a penpal... old school style!

Music:

To name a few... Dead Kennedys, Scattered Fall, the Last Chordz, the Pretenders, Punch the Clown, The Specials, the Accused, MDC, Ramones, Eskapo, Bad Religion, Front 242, Tori Amos, Dropkick Murphys, the Cure, Public Enemy, Oingo Boingo, Sick Of It All, Pixies, my friend LYLAH!!!, Muddy Waters, Bl'ast!, Black Flag, Here Kitty Kitty, Billie Holiday, Frontline Assembly, Bikini Kill, La Plebe, NOFX, The Pharsyde, Blood For Blood, Less Than Jake, Aquabats,TSOL, Sublime, Switchblade Riot, Rudi Peni, The Specials, Ska-P, Mad Caddies, Poison Idea, Depeche Mode, Los Dryheavers, PJ Harvey, Lou Reed, Rancid, Melt Banana, Le Tigre, Tilt, the Vandals, Rx Bandits, Minor Threat, Against Me!, Descendents, Swingin Utters, 800 Octane, Velvet Underground, Magnetic Fields, NWA, Five Iron Frenzy, Huzzah!, Bauhaus, Peter Murphy, Circle Jerks, Sisters of Mercy, Stellar Corpses, Revolting Cocks, Ministry, New Order, Snoop Dogg, Al Green, Moldy Peaches, Barry White, Liz Phair

Movies:

Amelie, Rivers Edge, Blue Velvet, Scarface, Broken English, Bully, Being John Malkovich, Vulgar, Zoolander, Invador Zim, Dodgeball, Pinero, Frida, The Hidden, Taxi Driver, Dead Alive, Harold and Maude, Earth Girls Are Easy, Down by Law, The United States of Leland, Princess Mononoke, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Roadside Prophets, Akira, Where the Buffalo Roam, The Hunger, The Lost Boys, Hedwig, It Happened One Night, Momento, Repoman, Secretary, Suburbia(the original), Desperate Living, Go Fish, My Own Private Idaho, Drugstore Cowboy, Carrie, City of Lost Children, Narc, Brazil, But I'm a Cheerleader, Swing Kids, Cowboy Bebop, El Mariachi, Desperado, Once upon a time in Mexico...**********SHAWNA'S MOVIE PICK FOR THE WEEK OF 6/22********** Close to my heart...

Television:

For the most part, I watch TV on DVD, it's my new obsession.

Books:

Anything by Tom Robbins (*fave*Jitterbug Perfume), Bukowski, Richard Bach, Noam Chomsky, John Fante, Thoreau, Burroughs, Kropotkin, Palahnuik, Cometbus, Ward Churchill, A. Huxley, Hunter S Thompson, independent ranters, and *The Story of O*...

Heroes:

We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are. I am not sick. I am broken. But I am happy as long as I can paint.

My Blog

you gotta be hard, you gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger...

My heart is in my throat.  I should probably lay off the caffeine, but I feel like it's almost my only vice anymore... that and cigarettes.  And I have a sneaking suspicion that those nasty ...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 12:28:00 PST

Im just looking for, a way to break through these walls and...

I'm just looking for, a place to call my home and has anybody out there, got a soul? I bit my lip so hard it bled.  There was blood everywhere.  Now it just feels like I got punched in ...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 11:16:00 PST

Soul, I hear you calling, oh baby please, give a little respect, to me...

I know that I'm an emotional person.  There is nothing I can do about that.  I'm still at a point where I don't like it much, but at least I've accepted that's just how it is for me.  P...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Tue, 17 Jun 2008 08:48:00 PST

Good times for a change, see the luck that I’ve had can make a good man turn bad...

So please please please let me, let me, let me, let me get what I want this time... The only I way I can even begin to describe this weekend is highly unusual.  It started out good enough. &...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 07:37:00 PST

If God has a master plan, that only he understands, I hope its your eyes hes seeing through

I won't deny that it's been a rough week.  There are a small handful of people that I've briefly discussed things with, but if I've been acting weird... there are reasons. I can't begin to imagin...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Wed, 04 Jun 2008 06:57:00 PST

Think it oh, oh, over...

Been stuck in my head. Cause and effect.  The repercussions of our actions.  Consequences, both seen and unseen.  Wishful thinking.  Anyway... just a couple of the things I've been...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Wed, 28 May 2008 02:28:00 PST

So maybe you were right, maybe Im not worth the fight...

I was all ready for the torture of going to the dentist today and my stupid appointment got cancelled.  My mouth hurts and I just wanna get it over with already.  Now I have to wait a whole ...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Wed, 14 May 2008 11:14:00 PST

When you cant save cash or conviction; youre broke and youre breaking...

I spent $15 on cherries yesterday, and let me tell you... It was well worth it!  They are delicious!  And I know it's kinda weird, but every morning when I eat my fruit for breakfast, I trip...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Thu, 08 May 2008 10:50:00 PST

And sometimes I think, Im the only one who feels like going nowheres like giving up...

I haven't written in so long I've forgotten how to start one of these.  I have a lot on my mind these days, mostly because I've been choosing not to share things with anyone lately.  It weig...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Fri, 25 Apr 2008 07:07:00 PST

So, so you think you can tell, Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain...

Well? There is so much more than meets the eye.  And I don’t even begin to tell you everything.  I wish things were different.  I wish my dad wasn’t sick.  I wish I cou...
Posted by ~shawna~ on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 10:54:00 PST