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“The pain of leaving someone you grow to love is only the prelude to understanding me and the others”. Yeah, you got it right. I’ve been hurt, again, just like before. Well that’s how it goes; I have to live with it. Anyway, I know you wanna know me, that’s why you’re reading this (haha how dim-witted of me)… hhmmmm where do I start, I’m single but it doesn’t mean I don’t have a man with me. I believe that a relationship consists of two individual people with heart beating as one. So I’m single in my own right. Yeah I’m single, until FOREVER! I don’t wanna talk about the past, it’ll kill me. I just wanna live by the moment, take pleasure in life and see where it takes me. I don’t need to take the whole lot seriously, just go with the flow, break free, and then you’ll be in high spirits. There’s time for everything, god has plans for me. Well hey; I’ m better off without him. Alright change topic, shall we. About me, they say I’m crazy cool, funny, and fun-to-be-with type of person. I don’t like silence, not entirely but stillness kept me thinking about things I can’t grip. Sometimes when I feel the need to take the weight off my feet and just be unaided, I do savor silence. I always hang out with me friends, we go where on earth our feet takes us. We enjoy ghost hunting (in an abandoned hospital near Fontana, gosh creepy talaga), camping trips without anything (survival mode, the worst case scenario for me. No shower, can’t brush my teeth, aahhh I almost cried but it’s really fun. We set out looking for food in the jungle, we found banana, frog!!!, and bayawak!!! Yeah I ate some, it tastes great actually. You go Cowgirl !!!haha). We jam a lot, sound trip, we have a band, and I sometimes sing and play the rhythm (surprisingly I learned to play the guitar). We play different genres; dig up different influences, things like that. Going back to me, I looove cars, damn I could stay home for like a week just to save penny for my modifications (we’re not well-off, what they’re giving me is just not enough, I don’t wanna ask from them so I work for my own money, call it pride but its just me). I don’t know much about cars, this is what I have now: mazda B6 turbo engine swap, VR4 intercooler, 18x18.5” racing hart replicas, falken azenis 215/40/18 tires, tanabe medallion muffler, zex nitrous 50 shot, VDO boost gauge. What do you think?... I think its lame, haha have to work pa… I play volleyball (team captain of my high school varsity, just being bossy…haha), I do swim leisurely, I don’t work out much, I love to eat (fancy of not, if its good for consumption I’d eat it), I watch flicks with my free time, I’m a wide reader, I like taking pictures (yung sobrang kulet na pics, and saya kaya…), I do make fun of everything (I’m really clever they say, friends call me FOXY, compare me to the clever fox and the homophone of the first syllable, fuck-xy.haha). I prioritize my family, they are the most precious gift god has given me. We hear mass every Sunday; I should be up even though I’m tired of my night out. We wont be complete without our family, we should take care of them (haha drama ko). I’m gonna be a mom of my twins (fraternal twins, a boy and a girl) someday, yeah it’s my dream. I’ll be a full time housewife, get up early to serve breakfast to my husband and wait for his onset from work (how sweet is that?). Yeah I’m serious, though I don’t look like I am serious. I was supposed to be married with this guy, but it all falls down. Aahhhh never mind, memories linger forever…have to live with it, cherish it! I have no regrets in loving someone so deeply and ending up badly hurt. He just thought me things I never knew, so I’m thankful I met him. Some things are meant to just pass by us, teach us something that can make us a better stronger person. I’m still young, I’m gonna meet different people in different places, I’m gonna learn, I’m gonna grow… before I give up my ghost, I’ll look back in my life and see a contented and fulfilled happy person.
What do I think about love: Love is not the desire to lay with someone, but the need to sleep next to someone.
What do I think about sex: Do make love, don’t make out.
Do I smoke? Yes, beforeDo I drink? Yes, occasionally
How many boyfriends’ I’ve been through? 3 serious, I do fling but I don’t count ‘em
What do I like in a guy? An honest and straightforward god-fearing guy who knows what to do and say in any given situation.
What a guy must-have for him to catch my attention: A pair of deep set expressive eyes and a cute pointed nose, and he has to be clean-looking
Does height matters? Yes, it does. He has to be taller then me.
Does it matter if he has wheels or not? It doesn’t matter, we could use mine. But it’s better if he has his own, you know.
Marriage or Live-In: Live-In, I stopped believing in marriage. It’s a matter of trial and error I suppose.
What I think about a metro sexual guy? Its cool, it doesn’t mean if you’re a guy you can’t have your own vanity or something. They’re just self-conscious in a good way.
An ideal date: Nothing fancy, just in his/my pad then cook for ourselves. We’ll make it perfect for both of us.
Am I romantic? Yes, who doesn’t want romance? It’ll spice up the relationship, makes it more enticing.
My type of guy: Family related, can ride my mood swings, and has to be humorous. The type that can amuse anyone because of his wit, we’ll never get bored. Ooppss and he have to be makulit like me. (^0^)
A guy can attract me if: he carries himself well with a good air of confidence, domineering in a fine gentle way. And he should know how to communicate well with other people and can express himself well.
Will I ever fall in love again? I don’t know, maybe yes maybe know. I never know, but for sure it’ll be not like before. I’ll be careful this time, I have pretensions na.
My Greatest Fantasy: To spend a week in this island in Thailand (where the flick “The Beach” was filmed) with my future boyfriend of husband perhaps (haha advanced). We would explore the together and make love under the moonlit night. (haaayy its good to daydream a little).
Music I listen to: Reggae, Hip Hop, RnB, Alternative, Emo funk, Rap, Rock, Love songs. I listen to almost anything, that’s where we get the clash of music then we’ll get the hold of different influences.
To whom do I listen to: Dashboard Confessionals, IndioEye?, Sublime, Bob Marley, Nelly, Usher, Incubus, Bone Thugs and Harmony, Genuwine, Selwyn, Redhot Chilli Peppers, Goo Goo Dolls, Gwen Stefani, Eve, Cassie, Joe, Justin T., Pussycat Dolls, Sisqo, Kelis, Mariah Carey, J.Lo, Alicia Keys, Beyonce Knowles, B.E.P, Hoku, Tamia, Eminem, D’Sound, Dr. Dre, Fra Lippo Lippi, Dicta License, UrbanDub, ChicoSci, Kamikazee, Parokya ni Edgar, Sitti, Slapshock
Favorite Food: almost everything, I eat a lot, Japanese, Portuguese, and Mediterranean food. And some shisha after… haha.. kidding...
Drinks: Red Iced Tea, take5, Pocari Sweat, Sex on the Beach, Flavored Vodka, Wine, Light Coke, Soda, Milk, Tonic Clothes I wear: depends on the occasion, I prefer shorts, racer back, and a pair of Havaianas for a stroll in the mall. At home I wear lady boxers and sando. I like comfortable clothes, and I always should be neat looking (how vain is that, but hey it isn’t bad at all).
A must-have for me when I go out: my toothbrush and moisturizers. My purse and credits of course, then my kikay kit. My phone, ipod and sometimes my laptop when I have to review for my exams (by the way, I’m an .. student, I study through the net, cool but it’s kinda tough).
Clothes my man wears: again it depends on the occasion. But a cool comfortable cute shirt (not too fit, not so lousy either, just right), a nice pair of jeans, then a pair of sneakers or Dupe/Reef/Havaianas. Its good to look at a man who wears clothes effortlessly but still he looks good at it (just like Ashton Kutcher, my ex… haha in my dreams).
Friendship for me: Friendship is like the ocean - within its waves lies constancy, within its rhymes lays vitality, and within its depth lays truth.
My friends: well I’ve got friends of different kind and of different “trips”. It’s quite surprising I can merge with them; I don’t have to fine-tune to anyone or anything just to be conveyed. I’ll show them who I am and not what I am not, acknowledge me or not, well hey it’s just me. What you see is what you get. I’ve got two best friends, Kaia my sister, I taught her everything I know. She’s quite moody but she’s good. Though people misunderstood her oftentimes, she’s quite naughty bitchy girl (don’t get me wrong, that’s what they think about her which is so not true). Yeah I’m her older sister, so I do my best to liberate and protect her fro all those people who does nasty things to turn her down. Well too bad, I’m quite wicked than they are haha! And the other is Jeff, my seatmate, “cheating” mate, we share thoughts of almost everything that’s why we really jive. We’re always together (Kaia don’t be jelly ok? I love you both!), he’s the first guy I brought home and was mistaken my boyfriend (eww haha kidding, peace Jeff!). The funny thing is he’s flawed “gay” by other people, and I always tell him shaggy dog story that really pisses him off. I thought him how to kiss (not actual ok, just literal), imagine a “guy” who doesn’t know how to kiss… how embarrassing is that! How to unhook a gurl’s bra using just one hand, gosh it took as a lifetime (grabe!). He’s in UST right now, flirting with girls and studying is his so second priority. Tsk3 thanks to me… 0(^-^)0
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: ShEeNa Fukunaga
Birthday: JuNe 21, 1988
Birthplace: manila
Current Location: nagoya, japan
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Height: 5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed: right...
Your Heritage: japanese
The Shoes You Wore Today: high-heeled chucks, then change to Havaianas (ngek flipflops nga pala un...)
Your Weakness: love......???
Your Fears: rejection, being alone
Your Perfect Pizza: lots of cheese and toppings
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: find the one for me....
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: ah ok...
Thoughts First Waking Up: unanswered prayers
Your Best Physical Feature: butt??? haha... kidding! my eyes actually...
Your Bedtime: 1am
Your Most Missed Memory: the day i lived because of love
Pepsi or Coke: coke!!!!
MacDonalds or Burger King: MacDonalds
Single or Group Dates: Single......
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!!!
Cappuccino or Coffee: dont drink coffee (but i do go to starbucks...) haha
Do you Smoke: before
Do you Swear: yeah... sometimes but not often
Do you Sing: yeah
Do you Shower Daily: of course, who does not??
Have you Been in Love: yeah, so deep, cuts deep also....
Do you want to go to College: i'm in college... duh?!
Do you want to get Married:&..39;
Do you belive in yourself: yeah i do
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
Are you a Health Freak: not really
Do you get along with your Parents: yeah we're so close
Do you like Thunderstorms: no, but i do like the rain
Do you play an Instrument: yeah, guitar and drums
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yeah, when my man and i broke up
In the past month have you Smoked: deffinitely not
In the past month have you been on Drugs:
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no......
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: duH?? of course, where to buy my stuffs?...
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: yep
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: almost everyday
In the past month have you been on Stage: yeah, on a gig, i sang santeria, my version.... haha
In the past month have you been Dumped: you have no idea....
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope.....
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: if i can, i would have done it.. i mean stealing his heart...
Ever been Drunk: YES, 3 straight days of nonstop drinking, i feel numb that time coz of the fallout
Ever been called a Tease: oftentimes, but i dont tease intentionally
Ever been Beaten up: yeah, with this crazy chick coz of jealousy
Ever Shoplifted: NO
How do you want to Die: i wanna die peacefully, not because of illness... or by an accident...
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: i'm grown up now, i wanna be a mom of my twins
What country would you most like to Visit: Ibiza, Puerto Rico, Hawaii, Bahamas, Italy, Portugal, Palau
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Brown..... Gray perhaps...
Favourite Hair Color: any color as long as it fits you
Short or Long Hair: just right, not too long not too short
Height: should be taller than me
Weight: should be balance to your height
Best Clothing Style: anything your comfortable with and you can carry it well
Number of Drugs I have taken: i dont know....
Number of CDs I own: cant count 'em
Number of Piercings: 2 in my navel
Number of Tattoos: none... i'd go for henna
Number of things in my Past I Regret: none... i do things on my own will, why do it if i'll regret it...
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Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
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Your Love Is... Seductive
During Lovemaking You Act... Like a cat, longing to be pet
Your Partner Is... Your support
Your Partner Has Said That You... Are their bitch
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote. "I love thee wild with desire"
WHAT I BELIEVE IN
"Only those things are beautiful which are inspired by madness and written by reason." ..Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what love means. ..Presence is more than just being there. ..Put all excuses aside and remember this: YOU are capable. ..You can't put a price tag on love, but you can on all its accessories. ..Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. ..I have said nothing because there is nothing I can say that would describe how I feel as perfectly as you deserve it. ..I never knew how to worship until I knew how to love. ..I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times, in life after life, in age after age forever. ..The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you. ..Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing. ..No man is truly married until he understands every word his wife is NOT saying. ..If particular care and attention is not paid to the ladies, we are determined to foment a rebellion, and will not hold ourselves bound by any laws in which we have no voice or representation. ..Whatever women do they must do twice as well as men to be thought half as good. Luckily, this is not difficult. ..People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. ..Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you help them to become what they are capable of being. ..Him that I love, I wish to be free -- even from me. ..Freedom is not merely the opportunity to do as one pleases; neither is it merely the opportunity to choose between set alternatives. Freedom is, first of all, the chance to formulate the available choices, to argue over them -- and then, the opportunity to choose. ..You can only protect your liberties in this world by protecting the other man's freedom. You can only be free if I am free. ..To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.
One cannot give what he does not possess. Too give love you must possess love.
One cannot teach what he does not understand. To teach love, you must comprehend love.
One cannot know what he does not study. To study love, you must live in love.
One cannot appreciate what he does not recognize. To recognize love you must be receptive to love.
One cannot have doubt about that which he wishes to trust. To trust love you must be convinced of love.
One cannot admit what he does not yield to. To yield to love you must be vulnerable to love.
One cannot live what he does not dedicate himself to. To dedicate yourself to love you must be forever growing in love.