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Ashley

About Me

i spent my formative years sailing foreign shores until i met a girl that i really cared about. we settled down - bought a house together, a car, got married & had some pets - the whole bit..... but our love drifted away until things fell apart. subsequently, following long periods of factotum, 'beating my brains' with debauchery and hard-living, some procrastination & much solitude i began working in residential care and occasionally enrolled on a college course here & there; studying mostly philosophy and film theory. eventually though, after graduating with a 1st class honours english degree i returned to the field of social care and i presently manage a home for adults with learning disabilities. i'm now back in college, undertaking a post-grad course in care management. I'm single and i live with my lovely daughter Frances and our dog Woody in llanelli. In summary then, life to date has been a series of progressions and transgressions in equal measure - for every achievement there has been a set back. Regards friends, to paraphrase the great tom waits, i've smoked most of 'em right down to the filter! these days i mostly make do with acquaintances. However, there remain a handful of special people in my life & at 36 i have hopefully learned many lessons from this journey that is life's mystery. i have dispelled my more self-destructive characteristics and finally, it seems, after taming the beast within i have begun to self-develop.....

My Interests

Poetry(the romantics, french symbolists, the beats, ts eliot, ee cummings...), gigs/festivals, swansea bay in the moonlight, the ice-cream man, film scores of bernard herrmann, a bit of iggy stooge, film noir, theme-time radio hour with BOB DYLAN; gothic novels, reading magazines: the new yorker, rolling stone; newspapers: international herald tribune, morning star & the guardian (esp. friday's film & music supplement - laura barton's a beautiful writer with great taste!)arsenal f.c. & the joy of cesc, coffee & cigarettes, derek & clive, woody allen films, aberystwyth promenade in summertime, detective fiction, edward hopper paintings, a night at the opera...

I'd like to meet:

well i don't want just a girl to fool around with - and i don't want just a girl to ball - what i want is a girl that i care about - or i, want nothing at all.... (someone that I care about - j. richman)

Music:

I like all kinds of music from Anton Karas to Townes Van Zandt but here's some artists that have added splashes of colour to my life... bob dylan, the modern lovers, the fall, velvet underground, REM, tom waits, victoria williams...

Movies:

lots of films from Amelie to Zelig... But my favourite's include: taxi driver & vertigo. alfred hitchcock is the master filmmaker...

Television:

the sopranos, twin peaks, match of the day, the simpsons, curb your enthusiasm, alan partridge, later with jools holland & newsnight review...

Books:

too many to list... writers i like spending most time with include paul auster, dostoevsky, albert camus, raymond chandler & charles bukowski. Here's some books that i always enjoy returning to: jd salinger - catcher in the rye, f scott fitzgerald - the great gatsby, joseph conrad - heart of darkness, raymond carver - where i'm calling from...

Heroes:

well, first off - my daughter is magic.... there's a song by skip james that best describes how i feel about her - it's called "she's all in the world to me". I also admire the genius of jonathan richman... i respect his moral integrity, spiritual purity & his romanticism "It's the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance"! ....there is also, of course - my local hero....christopher rees

My Blog

some more poems...

God, she's beautiful. To be free, despite the Age  Because of all my yesterdays, I procrastinate in lonely indecision. An inbetween space  standing on the edge of darkness, searching cobweb...
Posted by Ashley on Thu, 13 Sep 2007 01:31:00 PST

new poem

A Melancholy Love   In the park, before dark - The Tribune headline proclaimed "Le Beaujolais nouveau est arrive!" Under the trees we'd walked and talked, Autumn leaves trampled underfoo...
Posted by Ashley on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 05:10:00 PST

Read a story...

Thoughts that bring Sadness to the Young.   Ryan's daughter was not yet one year old and already he was banished from the marital home to the dwelling place of his parents. Not for the first tim...
Posted by Ashley on Thu, 13 Sep 2007 12:01:00 PST