MY STORY
My name is Bristol Adell! I live in Austin, TX...where here, my life mainly constists of friends, Rockstar energy drinks, coffee, school, recovery and my honey! I am originally from Baytown, Texas! It's a small town, and I don't miss it at all! I left behind my best friend of 17 years now, down there! I miss her. I did my (what you could call) growing up in Las Vegas, Nevada! Fast lifestyle. I am a recovering addict, and I don't have friends that use or could jeapordize my recovery. I am currently dating a wonderful human being, Wesley. He's been great to me, and I am genuinly satisfied with our relationship! I love his heart! My friends are my world! I love each of them and are greatful for them daily! I am a very confusing individual, very different, but who isn't??? I sometimes don't know who I really am...but getting to know the real me has been an ongoing process throughout my life! I have a hard time trusting anyone, especially men. Over the years I have come to realize that issues from my childhood make males seem like soulless monsters. I want to believe that because that way I don't have to get to know, or like any of them! I have been in too many (not so happy relationships)!I don't handle anger, rejection, or confrontaion well! Because of the fear of rejection, I don't let myself get goofy and fun as much as I like around people I haven't known very long! I am a pretty happy person all around. I tend to hold grudges with abusive members of my past! Therefor it's hard for me to allow myself to open up to people...even girls, yes yes, can you believe it?!? I am judgemental with females, of course, what girl isn't! But I later regret not having spent time to really know someone before (analyzing)! On a lighter note, I am accepting certain things about myself that usually I would kill to be able to change....physically!!! I am me, what else can I do or be? I've been given what I've got for a reason! I am insecure, like most are, in my own way! And I come off as an angry, judgemental, hateful, bitch sometimes! But I am a nice person, I try to look at every person as an equal, usually at MY PACE! I am working on not giving so much power to what others think of me, because c'mon, who's perfect? Not you!!!! Not me!!!! I am a pretty genuine person, I have few enemies....I am just working on loving myself, and taking care of me first! No matter what! I tend to be know for being a doormat, and letting people (men) walk all over me. But am I not a human as well? I have feelings, and I am now learning that it's ok to say "no", and stand up for myself.
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