About Me
Complete mystery.
Call me Josh or call me Captain, call me whatever you feel like.
If I started with the basics and most important info, it might help.
I was born in Florida raised with a loving family and was quite happy even though I barely remember all of my childhood. I do remember moving a bunch of times. Mostly because my father was an Air Force Lieutenant. I think?
Well I moved to California 10 years ago to start a new life with my Mom and her new husband.
Things were good and we were all happy and living in Moreno Valley and such.
Fast Forward to August 9th 1999.
Arriving home to find my brother distressed and not telling me what was wrong I prodded around a little and found out he knew our mother was in the hospital and we weren’t worried, just wondering why she wasn’t home. Simple things for an 11 year old like myself.
Couple hours later, Step dad walks in the door accompanying my Grandfather, Uncle, Aunt, and I cant remember who else.
That part is not important.
They hugged us and told us the worst sentence I had ever been told in my 11 years of living.
“Your Mom has been in a car accidentâ€
It wasn’t hard for me to size up that situation.
Almost immediately stinging in my nasal cavity welled up and formed fresh tears that fell rhythmically to the sound of my screaming voice.
Something so unknown, something so unexpected.
My mother was dead.
Fatally wounded in a collision.
Broadsided by a gravel truck.
I would never hear her voice, or her words of wisdom (no pun int.)
I couldn’t look in her eyes and tell her that she was my rock, my soul, my everything.
Things changed.
I lived with my stepfather until sophomore year of high school, and then decided to leave.
I took my little brother and sister with me, and we stayed at my aunts.
Along comes another tragedy...
Living with my Aunt with all my brothers and my sister was great.
Month before X-mas.
My Aunt finds my Dad.
Wonders if we want to get back in contact.
Like most people we will always forgive our blood and give second chances.
We met him again.
It was Awesome.
He moved in shortly and spent X-mas with us.
My Aunt decided to move out and let my Dad take care of us.
(She has always had a habit of helping us and getting out as fast as she can)
I can’t tell you how amazing it was to live with my father. He was so full of wisdom (again, no pun int.)
And he knew so much and his philosophies were so touching and they shaped the very core of my own. He helped me realize many things about my own life and sparked an interest in helping people even more than I ever did. His guidance empowered me to be great, never stand down, fight for what I believe in, and have an unflinching loyalty to myself and my abilities.
Then corruption began.
Certain things and events would happen that led up to my Dad becoming a hypocritical bastard.
SIDENOTE: My father was a Minister, He was absolutely faithful to god, until he saw the corruption and hypocrisy in the system, he believed in god with absolute loyalty. After he saw everything he left and never looked back.
I’m not going to tell you the details, but I will tell you enough to be brave enough to ask.
I will tell you, but you have to want to know for sure.
Fast forward again,
Feb 1st 2006.
My 18th Birthday.
Such a significant event for everyone, not so for me.
My father was arrested from work with no reason as to why he was going to jail for the next year.
Little did he know, he was wiretapped 2 hours prior, by none other than his own daughter.
His confession on tape.
He was caught.
The charge?
Attempted child molestation, or
Lewd and Lascivious Acts with a child under 14
My Dad was in jail.
Who put him there?
The Wisdoms.
Josh. Jamie. Joey. Miah.
We stood for justice, we saw through his hypocrisy to reveal an inner secret he was trying to conceal under our own noses.
Since this very day, I have never let my guard down. Not for a second.
18.
No home.
No Father
No Mother
But that didn’t matter. I’m a survivor.
Our family banded together very tightly.
The four wisdoms starting a new family tree.
I was left out of the system. They knew I was 18 and didn’t want to waste tax dollars helping me, so they made no contact and gave no help or advice.
Didn’t matter.
Now to fast forward once more to the current day.
I will never forget my Mother and Father; they taught me both sides of the spectrum of life.
My mother taught me compassion, love, and to never fear death.
My father taught me to be tough, stand up for my opinion, trust my instincts, to keep the family close; then he taught me to hide a piece of myself away for only myself to see, only to let someone who I trust share my heart. He taught me the weaknesses in everyone. Because of his mistake I learned to analyze people and learn who they are before letting them in.
Never keep my guard down.
Those two important factors in my life don’t bring me down.
I’m cautious, when it comes to learning something new, I will study it, and then jump headfirst.
I won’t look back.
I have no religion to which I claim faith to.
I have my own ideal and morals to live up to.
My deepest passion is to understand everything, completely and thoroughly. I love a challenge because it makes the end result that much sweeter.
Before I say something, realize that it is well thought out and not randomly spoken.
Because of this, I don’t speak a whole lot.
I listen
I ask questions
I am genuinely interested in you as a person and I will always consider your point of view
I am not closed minded about anything.
I’m stubborn when I want to be, there is no real reason for it.
I learn very quickly and I never gloat about it. I would rather teach you how I learned something rather than show off my new skill.
There are many things you will never find out that I can do.
The only reason is because it takes certain moments when I feel like showing them.
I have many layers.
I hide in a catacomb of feelings and alternate personalities.
In truth, my personality is personally matched to fit yours, obviously with my own meshed inside.
This isn’t true if you are a close friend or a girl I am in love with.
Why?
How can I expect truth when I’m not being myself?
When I am myself around you, I am happy
I don’t enjoy hiding, but I live for the moments I am happy.
I’m very sentimental, expect me to keep small random items that have meaning to things we do.
This goes double time for relationships.
Speaking of relationships,
I am very passionate about my relationships.
I actually care about the feelings of my girl.
I’m extremely loyal, and it’s not odd at all for me to lose all interest in other girls and solely fall for one.
I will find you, and pick you out of a crowd easily; all I have to do is look for the shine in your eye.
Since I’m a Romantic, I will always be the giver and the one to shoulder your fall.
I will be with you forever, and no matter how much you hurt me, I will have your back.
You tell me something I don’t want to hear? I’ll surprise you with an answer you didn’t expect.
I want my relationship to be poetic and grand.
I want to shout out my love from the highest building.
I’m not afraid to fall in love anymore.
And honestly I am in love right now.
Flight free and happy.
Spontaneity. Passion. Willpower.
Primum Viveri Deinde Philosophari
(Leap Before You Look)
