Well, my name is Cindy. I've got stories to tell. I love people who think they got me all figured out; write a book about me, for sure I'll get back to you. Right now I'm trying to live life to the fullest. I've lost trust in everyone, even the closest. Music is my life, it keeps me together. I've realized what my mistakes were - I'm trying to fix them but it almost seems impossible. Right now I'm looking for someone to lean on, things are pretty bad. I've cut a lot of people out, trust me, I had my reasons. It's strange, I kinda miss them; I'll forgive, but I'll never forget. Thinking is what I do; rhetorical questions have confused me completely. Taking long walks makes me happier - gives me a chance to think some things through. Seeking the meaning of Love - I refuse to turn to the dictionary.. I'd rather gain my knowledge of love through experience, movies, and music. I miss those days when things were perfect.. I almost wish I cherished those moments now that I look back on it. "At first, when I see you cryyyy, yess it makes me smiiiile [8]" I love that track, regardless. &You could call my ungreatful, but then you wouldn't know me. I refuse to move forward.. why would I want another past? I don't believe in much, superstitions aren't my style. To some extent, I think everyone is a little bit fake - media made some people who they are. If there's one thing I learned it's to always be myself, as for anyone who doesn't like it.. there's the door. &Yes Erkel is my boyfriend, my one true love and nobody can change that ♥ =) cause he's soooo GOOOD, he wearss his pants above his waist ♥ ;) [8] . Well despite my negativity, I've been taught to always embrace the positive aspect of things. Sometimes you just gotta stop and take a look around for a while. If there's another thing I learned it's that not everyone is going to have the same mentality that reaches my standards - I guess that's life. It takes a while for reality to settle in, but whatever happens to cross my path.. I'm ready for it. I don't believe I've got the world all figured out yet, but I'm close. I've come to accept yesterday as the past and today as the present. I've realized that the future is much like the indefinite chapters of a book and I am its author.. only I could ultimately finish it, and uncover the reason for my existence. As for the rest of me, well all I can say is that I'm truely living past my imperfections, one day at a time.& you bring out the worst in me ,
