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About Me

i work at a coffee shop //////and play in an experimental/post-rock/noise band////// i travel with my boyfriend (my laptop) to the edge of the earth and also enjoy sitting at parks and watching the ducks. working on plays and writing screenplays. making films . directing. breaking into other dimensions. blinking on and off. ignoring writing tenses. wishing there would be someone to sit in the back of my car with , while listening to godspeed you black emperor! . just close your eyes. screwing the hell out of sentence structures/grammar rules and being proud of it. flipping to random pages and pointing out random sayings. safety pins + blood backstage during a play. sewing my hands together. streams and screams. i wanna marry a lighthouse keeper. waiting for the moon with green tea in one hand. meandering through my empty neighborhood while falling on the ground to get a pretty picture. being in a crowd , but all alone , watching, wondering , seeing it as a whole and always with my headphones on. visions visions. always having visions. wishing i could do it all. technology + art + music + writing .falling with a camera in one hand and a vision in the other. missing the ambition. soon to come , i'll serve you coffee and sleep on the green couch , while getting paid minimum wage. loud loud the music. japanese culture beating in my head. j- rock /j-core , anime . yes yes. in love with it all. wishing i could do it all. being alone , all alone. swinging swinging on the swing set. uspside down , moving past the sky. beat beat beat . [cymbals always crashing ] Piles and miles of spirals and never a smile. pounding heads and throwing down the medicine. mindfull purirty. always. finding my own addictions. free of all substances. always. wishing. looking for something to believe in. meditation? crackling thunder. layers upon layers and loving the cold. not believing . i can not see it . living my life . never feeling love. but why? die one day. [here comes the instrumental breakdown.] i can not do it all. we all die. cello cellos . experimenting with every noun , making models , testing it all. lucid dreaming . wishing and wishing. here comes the vision. i am just part of it all and so are you. atoms atoms atoms. screams over screams. pulsating brains with drills to stop the pain . sticks beating down ,blam blam, here comes the sound. where there is no beauty , we must create it. healthy foods plunder and yelling at hunters. protesting war and knowing it will never end. hopeless. i have so much to say , but don't ever want to say it with words. hating the language and all the parameters , but loving the rain. how far and how many words till this won't let me go any further? palaniuck's writing style conquers my brain. king of this hell.with no love. being hated. feeling hate. societies model in the mind. never being understood. madness? running away , always running away from something , which means i'm also running to something.flash flash. falling down . music. music. music. x control.where is the love? scratch out dependent.
straight as the edge which sliced this little "x"."And since I am dead, I can take off my head
To recite Shakespearean quotations
No animal nor man can scream like I can
With the fury of my recitations "
AIM- pointATtheKids04

My Interests

filmmaking , straight edge-ism , anime , acting , screenplay /playwriting ,coffee,photography , video games, drawing ,scarves, digital imaging , panera bread , green tea , web design, graphic design , journal pirating, animation ,manga, theather, vegetarian-ism , psychology,sewing/clothing design ,aimless driving, j-rock & j-core , dungeons & dragons, computer art , oil pastels , buddhism , dada , jones soda , cartoons, black & white , dead flowers, meditation , potato soup in a bread bowl , activism , layers of clothes, perching in chairs , and running my own business [bander snatch buttons]

Music:

deerhoof , against me! , godspeed you black emperor! , the pillows , the seatbelts , earlimart , rites of spring , explosions in the sky , xbxrx ,polysics , do make say think , aliene ma'riage ,the seconds , nin ,sigur rÃ³s, bjÃ¶rk, a silver mt zion , mÃºm ,sunny day real estate, radiohead , xiu xiu , melt banana, mates of state ,tortoise ,get hustle , 7 year rabbit cycle ,milemarker , cursive , bright eyes , the faint, markovnikov process , lightning bolt , the pixies, middlefinger , yo la tengo ,my bloody monologues ,elliott smith ,muse ,baroque , pedro the lion, from autumn to ashes , modest mouse , death cab for cutie ,darkest hour , the dismemberment plan ,semiautomatic ,godzik pink , psycho le cemu ,middlefinger ,the velvet teen ,the beta band , 90 day men , the dillenger escape plan, a static lullaby , the beatles , appseed cast , blonde redhead, cat power, chomsky, coheed and cambira, danny elfman , david bowie, desaparecidos , dmitri shostakovich , driftless pony club , the flaming lips, spoon , glassjaw , recover, the impossibles, mad caddies , massive attack , mogwai , mr.bungle , mewithoutyou , okkervil river , ozma , further seems forever ,the octopus project , tricky , weezer ,minor threat , ludwig van beethoven , ethan durelle, elliot , finch , seldom , the june spirit , saetia , discordance axis ,pavement , pete yorn , phantom planet , portishead , pretty girls make graves , brian eno , the velvet under ground , the crystal method ,the smiths , joy division , rufus wainwright , hum ,the good life , slowreader , smashing pumpkins ,sea and cake , the local wise men , panoply academy glee club , the new pornographers ,ugly casanova, the special , sparklehorse , the casket lottery , northstar , orchid , all american rejects , afi , azalea, interpol , pinehurst kids , placebo ,unkle , niko ,the anniversary , the guilla teens , the living end , the shins , pram , the birthday party ,locust , the kinks, rolling stones , six by seven ,the unseen , the cure , the walkmen, rasputina , the postal service , witchy poo , young people , pierrot ,the seconds, the white stripes , the hives ,tosca tango orchestra , replikants , grandaddy , pink and brown, yeah yeah yeahs , the advantage band , the new year , m83 ,tub ring , jack off jill , hella , triceratops , aliza marie ,alexisonfire, 386dx , the pillbugs ,circle takes square , daughters , for all the drifters , the early november , rumah sakit , the black heart procession ,boards of canada , minibosses, saosin , the number 12 looks like you , hood , twilight garden , june of 44

//a band with mandolins//

Movies:

reqiuem for a dream , fight club, a clockwork orange, pi ,dancer in the dark , waking life , rushmore, donnie darko , titus ,lost highway, Pi, gummo ,magnolia ,2001 a space odyssey,cecil b. demented ,silence of the lambs, brazil , muholland drive , city of the lost children , the usual suspects, rocky horror picture show , full metal jacket , nightmare before christmas , zardoz ,eraserhead ,the shining , the anniversary party , igby goes down , eyes wide shut , ravenous ,fargo ,la confidential , office space, airplane , y tu mama tambien , being john malkovich , snatch , seven ,magic space traveler , amelie , the royal tenenbaums ,[anime], cowboy bebop ,serial experiments lain ,FLCL, noir , hellsing, vampire hunter d , akira, soul taker, boogiepop phantom, key the metal idol, kikaider

Books:

battle royale , survivor, choke , invisible monsters, fight club , breakfast of champions , requiem for a dream , a clockwork orange , unholy ghost , slaughterhouse 5 , american psycho , mindhunter , sothl , hannibal , red dragon , gullivers travels, catcher in the rye , crash...