im a contradiction. everything i say is lost in a bipolar rage. im everything you anticipate me to be and im nothing you expect I scream at mirrors till i go out of my mind. ill make you blind and ill take away your last breath. im nothing short of a ten ticket thrill ride. i walk the railroad ties like im walking the line of failure and success in life is nothing but a game and success is just how you play it out. you live you love you lose you learn. im the biggest mistake youll make yet the best investment youll make. i make myself fall so you can show me what its like. i fall like im the last star in the sky. im a million faces im the light you see in the moon. i don't give up on things easily. my sanity is nothing but a madness put to good use. i count the seconds till moments pass me by only to forget what to do. i control how fast we go. i know how to lose and i know how to win i know how to decieve and i know how to be pure. im misused and i make mistakes i live on lies that come out of your mouth so i can last 2 seconds on my knees because pleading for your forgivness is what im good at. i lose my breath when he speaks and i kill myself everytime i let another make me weak. the city lights are my guide in the night the midnight woods are the only place my footsteps feel right. im my own addiction. im the drug that feeds the frenzy. you wont let me go because im nothing you need and everything you cant control. I love to feel needed. My friends are my life. and i dont know what id do without them. Youll never ever replace them. I like talking on the phone. Alot. Ill keep you on it for hours, talking about useless stuff. I tend to sit in the window or on the stove when i talk on the phone. I sleep on the couch. Ive lost the only 2 people that meant anything to me in life. So becasue of that i tend to get too attached to people, and then i push them away, resulting in losing them. So usually, i dont talk to new people. Im probably way different than you think i am. So dont judge me. I like the winter better than the summer. But summer nights on blankets with bon fires sleeping beneath the stars is amazing. I lied I like all seasons. I cant make up my mind on anything. I drink too much. And I love the memories I make while doing it. Ive meet some amazing people, and ive been some amazing places. And i wouldnt trade anything in the world for it. I live in a town that I hate with a passion. There are barely no open spaces anymore and apparently no one gives a shit anymore, running over a goose on a daily basis is normal. My friends come before anything Because theyre the ones that will be there for me in all of my times of need. they are amazing and i wouldn't be alive without them. I have fallen in love just once.. and am still in it. I hate it. It can be the worst feleing ever and the best feeling at the same time. I don't knwo waht to do with myself on a regular basis. I overannalize everything. I have OCD. and I don't know myself yet. No one can figure me out and it bothers me to think that no one has really tried. I have secrates that only one person knows. But he doesn't know them all. I am a doormat that gets stepped on everyday. Therefore i have mud on my face. I need to love and be loved to survive.
You Belong in New York City
You're an energetic, ambitious woman.
And only NYC is fast enough for you.
Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career
Or simply take in all the city has to offer.
What City Do You Belong In?
