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nicole

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About Me

im a contradiction. everything i say is lost in a bipolar rage. im everything you anticipate me to be and im nothing you expect I scream at mirrors till i go out of my mind. ill make you blind and ill take away your last breath. im nothing short of a ten ticket thrill ride. i walk the railroad ties like im walking the line of failure and success in life is nothing but a game and success is just how you play it out. you live you love you lose you learn. im the biggest mistake youll make yet the best investment youll make. i make myself fall so you can show me what its like. i fall like im the last star in the sky. im a million faces im the light you see in the moon. i don't give up on things easily. my sanity is nothing but a madness put to good use. i count the seconds till moments pass me by only to forget what to do. i control how fast we go. i know how to lose and i know how to win i know how to decieve and i know how to be pure. im misused and i make mistakes i live on lies that come out of your mouth so i can last 2 seconds on my knees because pleading for your forgivness is what im good at. i lose my breath when he speaks and i kill myself everytime i let another make me weak. the city lights are my guide in the night the midnight woods are the only place my footsteps feel right. im my own addiction. im the drug that feeds the frenzy. you wont let me go because im nothing you need and everything you cant control. I love to feel needed. My friends are my life. and i dont know what id do without them. Youll never ever replace them. I like talking on the phone. Alot. Ill keep you on it for hours, talking about useless stuff. I tend to sit in the window or on the stove when i talk on the phone. I sleep on the couch. Ive lost the only 2 people that meant anything to me in life. So becasue of that i tend to get too attached to people, and then i push them away, resulting in losing them. So usually, i dont talk to new people. Im probably way different than you think i am. So dont judge me. I like the winter better than the summer. But summer nights on blankets with bon fires sleeping beneath the stars is amazing. I lied I like all seasons. I cant make up my mind on anything. I drink too much. And I love the memories I make while doing it. Ive meet some amazing people, and ive been some amazing places. And i wouldnt trade anything in the world for it. I live in a town that I hate with a passion. There are barely no open spaces anymore and apparently no one gives a shit anymore, running over a goose on a daily basis is normal. My friends come before anything Because theyre the ones that will be there for me in all of my times of need. they are amazing and i wouldn't be alive without them. I have fallen in love just once.. and am still in it. I hate it. It can be the worst feleing ever and the best feeling at the same time. I don't knwo waht to do with myself on a regular basis. I overannalize everything. I have OCD. and I don't know myself yet. No one can figure me out and it bothers me to think that no one has really tried. I have secrates that only one person knows. But he doesn't know them all. I am a doormat that gets stepped on everyday. Therefore i have mud on my face. I need to love and be loved to survive.
You Belong in New York City
You're an energetic, ambitious woman.
And only NYC is fast enough for you.
Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career
Or simply take in all the city has to offer. What City Do You Belong In?

My Interests

... just that brown haired, green eyed girl next door ... ACTIN' LIKE A KID ... dancin ... FAST CARS ... my baby (my '93 Camero) ... workin on cars ... BOUNCIN ON TRAMPOLINES ... fireworks ... post card and letters ... LAUGHIN IT UP ... ridin rollercoasters ... travelin ... LAYIN ON THE BEACH ... questioning ... PRAYING ... DAY DREAMING ... CUDDELING ... STAR GAZING ... swimming ... PINK ... Jan 15th ... FALLIN ALSLEEP IN HIS ARMS ... journaling ... LOSING TRACK OF TIME ... being online ... playing games ... WRITING POETRY ... READING ... camping ... hiking ... MEETING PEOPLE ... fishing ... JUST CHILLIN ... RIDING HORSES ... training horses ... showing horses ... SNUGGLIN BY THE FIREPLACE ... gum ... FLAVORED LIP GLOSS ... nature ... INSPARATION ... riding fourwheelers ... dirt bikes ... EMOTIONAL ... movies ... concerts ... AMBITIOUS ... volenteering (Special Olympics and such) ... HOPES AND DREAMS ... making movies ... cooking ... PLAYIN IN THE RAIN ... learning new things ... SINGING IN THE SHOWER ... ANIMALS (my babies Shelby, Kylie, and Gabriella) ... MUSIC ... FRIENDS ... playing pool ... fooseball ... ping pong ... BEING CRAZY ... RANDOMNESS ... surprises ... TAKIN TO MANY PICTURES ... HOCKEY ... making models ... STAYIN UP LATE AND SLEEPIN IN ... hello kitty ... the care bears ... LONG LATE NIGHT PHONE CALLS ... scrapbooking ... fixin stuff ... SLOW KISSES ...smelling clean laundry ... picking flowers ... SWINGING ... LONG WALKS ... playing softball ... WATCHING SUNSETS ... Christmas ... playing with kids ... GETTING LOST IN HIS EYES ... wondering ... watching storms ... LISTENING TO RAINDROPS ... trying my best ... EATING ICE CREAM ... warm hot chocolate ... SNOWBALL FIGHTS ... jumping in leaves ... bubbles baths ... HAVING LAZY SUMMER DAYS ... boating .... decorating... MAKING UNFORGETABLE MEMORIES ... buying shoes ... BUYING UNDERWEAR ... Old Navy ... VICTORIA'S SEACRETS ... flying ... learning about planes ... ALWAYS HOLDING SOMETHING, PILLOWS, BLANKETS, OR BOYS ... like being comfortable, no skirts for me please ... comfy couches ... LIGHTING MATCHES JUST TO WATCH EM BURN ... anything goes with me ...

I'd like to meet:

I just wanna meet people who are interested in some of the same stuff I am. Just want to chat and get to know them and have a good time. I also want to meet people who are passionate about some aspect of their life. Conversation is a good thing people. It's hard to have it mean something if their isn't passion about something behind what you are talking about. ............. And also someday I want to meet someone like this ... "A girl asked a boy is she was pretty and the boy said no. She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever and he said no. She asked him if he would cry if she turned around and walked away and again the boy said no. The girl had heard to much she had to leave. As she walked away he grabbed her and said, you are not pretty you are beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away ... I would die.

Music:

Music is a must in my life! I like Punk/ Rock /Metal /Emo music the best! Some of my fav. groups are ... 311 (Ryan) AC/DC, A.F.I., Alien Ant Farm, Alkaline Trio, All American Rejects, American Hi-Fi, Andrew W.K., A Perfect Circle, As I Lay Dying, The Ataris, Atreyu, Autopilot Off, Blessid Union of Souls, Blink-182, Bowling For Soup, Breaking Benjamin, Chevelle, Cold, Creed, Damageplan, Dashboard Confessional, Dead Poetic, Default, Deftones, Disturbed, Drowning Pool, Edgewater, Evanescence, Fallout Boy, Finch, Flogging Molly, From Autum to Ashes, Fuel, The Get Up Kids, Godsmack, Green Day, Hoobastank, Hot Action Cop, Ill Nino, Incubus, KoRn, Less Than Jake, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Lostprophets, Lynard Skynard, Matchbook Romance, Metallica, Monster Magnet, Mudvayne, MXPX, New Found Glory, Nickelback, Nine Days, Nine Inch Nails, O.A.R., The Offspring, Our Lady Peace, Overise, Papa Roach, Puddle of Mudd, Rage Against the Machine, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Saliva, Seether, Senses Fail, Sevendust, Simple Plan, Slipknot, Smile Empty Soul, Something Corperate, Sophmore Year, Sound Garden, Stabbing Westward, Staind, State Your Cause, Story of the Year, Switchfoot, Sublime, Sugarcult, Sum 41, Taking Back Sunday, Tantric, Tenacious D, Theft of Heart, Third Eye Blind, Thousand Foot Krutch, Three Days Grace, Three Doors Down, Thrice, Tool, Trapt, Undivided, The Used, Weezer, Yellowcard, Zebrahead... and soo many more... I can do the country scene too:Emmerson Drive, Keith Urban, Kenny Chesney, Rascal Flatts, Sara Evans, Toby Keith. I can also do the whole rap thing too sometimes:Nelly, Outcast, Usher

Movies:

The best movies in the world are the Lord of the Rings trilogy. But some other good ones are ... Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Pirates of the Carribean, Finding Nemo, Goldmember, Office Space, Big Daddy, Billy Madison, American Pie, Van Wilder, Varsity Blues, October Sky, The Green Mile, All Star Wars, I Am Sam, Gladiator, The Mummy, The Mummy Returns, The Scorpian King, The Sandlot, CKY, CKY2, CKY3, CKY4, Haggard, A League of Their Own, Zoolander, Braveheart, Indiana Jones series, Black Hawk Down, We Were Soldiers, Tears of the Sun, and anything scary.

Television:

Best TV shows are Family guy, Chappell Show, Pimp My Ride, Smallville, My Wife and Kids, Still Standing, King of Queens, Everybody Loves Raymond, Boy Meets World, The Simpsons, Viva la Bam, South Park, Wild Boys, Jackass, The Real World, and anything on Cartoon network!

Books:

Some of my favorite books are ... Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas, When the Wind Blows, The Great Gatsby, Of Mice and Men, Ender's Game, The Giver, War of the Worlds, The Golden Compass Trilogy, The Lord of The Rings Trilogy, The Cronicles if Narnia, A Bend in the Road, The Harry Potter Series, All Poetry but especially that of Emily Dickenson and Mya Angelou, and the all time best book anyone in the world could ever read, The Holy Bible.

Heroes:

My heros are ... Kevin for being such a crazy party boy, Ryan for just being plain insane!, Tyler because those faces are amazing, Bam Margera, Jody Shelley, and the kids who thought up Gehetto Jousting.

My Blog

the start of school ...

... so school starts on wednesday. i am on main campus completely now. let me just say i am a little scared. i don't know what to expect. there are so many people and campus is so huge. finding my bui...
Posted by nicole on Mon, 18 Sep 2006 12:00:00 PST

soul searching ...

soul searching ... yeah ... that's what i'll call it. cuz i guess that's waht it is. i guess i'm tired of all the shit in my life. tired of hiding who i am from people just to attempt to fit in. ...
Posted by nicole on Fri, 25 Aug 2006 11:27:00 PST

Ladies night ...

... so i got to work tonight and decide i am a looser because i have absolutly nothing to do after i get off and it is a friday night. talking to maria and megan at work made me realize that they...
Posted by nicole on Sat, 29 Apr 2006 12:23:00 PST

If I tagged yo uthen read this!

If I tagged you...read this! YOU HAVE BEEN "TAGGED"! RULES:  Once you've been tagged, you must write a blog about 5 of your weirdest and/or most embarrassing habits/quirks/facts.&n...
Posted by nicole on Fri, 28 Apr 2006 01:54:00 PST

Can you say nervous?!?!?!

... so what is up with everything in the world going on right now? so much school work it is not even funny. ... things to accomplish ... 1. Bio midterm tomorrow and I need mucho studying to be done. ...
Posted by nicole on Wed, 26 Apr 2006 10:17:00 PST

Damn it

I just wrote a blog and i go to post the dam nthing and it said server is too busy. Maybe this is y i never blogged before. But the general jist of the blog was that today has acctaully been a pretty...
Posted by nicole on Wed, 19 Apr 2006 04:10:00 PST

Blogging ugg

Blogging ... so yeah talking to Mo made me realize that maybe blogging could be helpful. But if you know me it isn't something I do well or often. So yeah. I guess I will try to start doing it. I cha...
Posted by nicole on Tue, 18 Apr 2006 04:39:00 PST

If your feeling down just remember this ...

""When you're looking at the stars, in the eternal blue, remember that each star out there is a reason why I love you! And when you think you're alone and when no one is there at all, I'll be right in...
Posted by nicole on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Stuff to ponder ...

It made me think and helped put some things in perspective so maybe it will for you as well ... ... we accept the love we think we deserve ... ... Kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly, and f...
Posted by nicole on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Some of my fav. quotes ...

I liked them so I thought you all may too ... "Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us, or we find it not." -Ralf Waldo Emmerson "Where thou art - tha...
Posted by nicole on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST