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About Me

all i need.

There's a lot more to my life than this. I love my boyfriend. The people that matter know who they are.

My Interests

spring. elvis presley. laughing. shai hulud. manners. smiling.

"What I need is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction." - Chuck Palahniuk

I'd like to meet:

I'VE ALREADY MET HIM. Elvis.

Music:

"I believe the key to happiness is: someone to love, something to do, and something to look forward to." Elvis Presley

Television:

discovery health channel. House.

Books:

dean koontz.

Heroes:

my father and mother. i adore them both more than i think they know. they gave up so much so at a young age so that i could just be here. i have put them thru hell and they have been there for me even when one would think a parent couldn't possibly be. they have shown nothing but unconditional love. i wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them, really. my father is an amazing man and he has worked hard for everything he has and he deserves all the good in the world. i don't think he knows how much i look up to him. my mother is such a strong woman, i don't know how she does it. she deserves more than i think i could possibly ever offer her in a lifetime.

ryan,he has been with me thru a lot. and has had his own trials and tribulations along the way as well, but he has never left my side. he is such a strong person. he has got a good head on his shoulders. his determination and motivation really help me to keep my head in the game. he means more to me than anything and i love him with all my heart. he's the peanut butter to my jelly.

My Blog

stand still, look pretty.

it's 1 am. i tried sleep, i was just laying there, thinking. thinking is a terrible thing to do when one cannot fall asleep. i read in womans day (yes, that's right, womans day, it was at work so i r...
Posted by youareridiculous on Sun, 01 Apr 2007 10:41:00 PST

nein, schrei.

ich habe wirklich mein gemüt heute abend verloren. es war schrecklich. ich will nie wie das wieder fühlen. nein wie dies. ich fühle noch es. ich wünsche sie, dass er verstanden hat. die liebe ist wirk...
Posted by youareridiculous on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 11:17:00 PST

numb.

fingers.toes.nose.numb. this weather is far too cold anymore. oh sweet springtime. hurry your ass up.   more. i want more from myself that's what i need. this is not what i am. i am focused and l...
Posted by youareridiculous on Sun, 25 Feb 2007 10:27:00 PST

=)

"Love is the ultimate outlaw. It just won't adhere to any rules. The most any of us can do is to sign on as its accomplice. Instead of vowing to honor and obey, maybe we should swear to aid and abet. ...
Posted by youareridiculous on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 06:07:00 PST

life.

it just seems so hectic anymore. i'm such a scatterbrain. my mind needs a vacation. i just want to get evrything straight so i stop ruining shit. i'm sick of not knowing. and fighting. all of it. this...
Posted by youareridiculous on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 04:54:00 PST

eulogy

I MISSSSSS YOU SO GOD DAMN MUCH RYAN.     i want my teddybear here right now. =[           I see your eyes in my mindbut the moment fades slips awayand when I wake I...
Posted by youareridiculous on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 09:57:00 PST

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

rahhhhhhh. i miss my boyfriend bigtime.     and it sucks. i love him with everything i have god dammit. everything.     Dream of me... we can live how we want now... this world ha...
Posted by youareridiculous on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 10:31:00 PST

life.

so things are looking up. boyfriend is amazing. love. family. friends. the whole 9 yards. i have regained it.  i haven't felt like my life was progressing. i've just been going in this circle of...
Posted by youareridiculous on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 10:05:00 PST

amazing.

amazing. right now that's how i feel. even if it is 4:49 in the morning and i have work tomorrow. i feel productive. just this past thursday i got another job. i was thinking two jobs would kill...
Posted by youareridiculous on Tue, 06 Jun 2006 02:08:00 PST

No surrender. No defeat.

i'm tired. i'm tired. i need a break from life. it needs to be paused. i need to catch up. i need to review everything. i don't need certain people in my life. yet, i cannot let them go. i'm tired of ...
Posted by youareridiculous on Mon, 01 May 2006 10:26:00 PST