my name is ipan..

i'm having one of the hardest, dest, dest part in my life to say... its weird y i feel dis way... i try my best to deny them, but it comes again... without any warning... arghhh.. sad!!! stress!!! burden!!! confuse!!! now... my emotion is not in a stable condition... from a very good mood, can suddenly change to a really bad condition... hurm... it's all bcoz of... hard stupid!!! insane!!! dats wat i feel... i hope dat sumone could understand my feeling... but i tink no one will know... its weird... again its 'bout sensitivity... even myself sumtimes dun understand dis... y shud i treat myself like dis? i dunno y, its just me... irfan... hard 2 pleased... unique??? no, i m ordinary... just dat... i " love " myself n the the word " love " too much... m afraid to let myself hurt... n the ppl dat i love hurt