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† princess paranoia †

If you ever burn your face off, put a wet napkin on it and smoke weed through the hole.

About Me

QUOTE OF THE WEEK
R.I.P Freddy Iyotte
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My name is Amarissa
Alot of people know me as Darkstar
I'm a Juggalette
and I am not your average cookie.
I figured out in the second grade that my first name backwards is ass-i-rama... it was a little disheartening.
I love dane cook, my friends, MUSIC, my family, and this boy:
My mind likes to run away with itself, so I'm always pretty "out of it." Alot of people assume (ass-u-me..get it?) that this means I've got nothing to say, usually it means I've got to much going on in there. Thanks to that I am NOT a good conversationalist. I get nervous easily and end up fading into the background. My friends are the world to me and I hate to see them fight or worry. I try to be there for them as much as they can but I always worry that they don't know how much I care. I see an unhealthy amount of subliminal messages in the world around me, and my thoughts are too rude for my own good half the time (another reason that I get lost in my head.) I'm in a relationship with the most wonderful boy to ever come into my life. I like to know that I can trust him, because I've been betrayed by too many people in my life. He makes me feel like we're the only people in the world when we're together.
I love living in the now, I have problems touching face with the past and I try not to worry about the future.
I believe in PLUR and all that the rave community stands for. I am a raver at heart though I rarely attend parties anymore. I don't like when people put ravers down, and I hate shady people in every comminuty. Music is my Heartbeat and it is everywhere.
I like to sit in the dark by myself.
I love my darling Mary Jane and Sarah loves your mom.
Sometimes it seems like I'm never going to GROW UP.
I love you.
Disclaimer: I am psychotic, but if you put up with it, you'll have a really good friend. I am not to be held responsible for broken hearts, confusion, nausea, headaches, etc.
Whats happened to freedom?
Discression has fallen
right out of reason.
Mankinds curiosity has
destroyed the power
of philosophy.
We need to keep our minds
overflowing with
thoughts of unity.
Remember that love
is all you need to keep
the strength of true
Humanity growing.
Though offers only questions, never answers, Always the same inquiry at hand. Same thought patterns, different matters. Always coming to the same conclusion, that maybe life is just an illusion to mask you from purity or could it be that thats just me, and that I fell in ecstacy? So will you choose to pay the toll and go deeper into the rabbit hole?
Will I ever learn to live without doubt?
love escapes me
If you don't know me, don't talk shit..
and remember kids...
NEVER go ass to mouth
p.s. I want your drugs. NOW
You Are a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich
You life your life in a free form, artistic style.
You are incredibly creative and at times, quite messy.
Deep down, you are a kid at heart. And you aren't afraid to express it.
Your best friend: The Grilled Cheese Sandwich
Your mortal enemy: The Club Sandwich What Kind of Sandwich Are You?
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

My Interests

"Destroy all that is evil,
so all that is good may forge"

I plan for many more tattoos, yet unfortunantly funding is an issue for now. If you love me you will get me gift certificates. :P

theres another one I want, but I'm not sure about it, and when I get it noone will know, and noone will see it. haha

so somewhere sometime someone did a study on the mental/emotional effects of Crystal Methamphetamines and Opiates.

No I don't know the details but it basically says that from the time you become a user [of most chemical drugs] even if its only a few occations, you lose the ability to progress emotionally.

Meaning, if you do it when you're 14, you have the emotional perception of a 14 year old, forever. [or whatever other age]

Also, according to doctor drew [the love line] one is not emotionally stable enough to know what they want in life and to actually know "love" until they've reached the mental/emotional level of the average 23 year old.

Suppose both of these are totally correct.

Then remember that those Narcotics are an ingredient in Ecstacy, as well as certain medications distributed by hospitals across the world.

Is it possible that we are creating our own misery? Are we creating a world of underdeveloped, emotionally unstable, and chemically dependant people?

Look at the world we live in, you tell me.

DISCLAIMER: I'm not a straight edge, this is just something to ponder.

I'd like to meet:

AntiMatter Me
Chuck Norris (I wonder if we're related) -my dad's last name is Norris-
Jerry Garcia
Galileo
Steve Irwin
Lisa Frank
The guy that invented the tampon
A pope that's never sinned

Me from the future, or like, one of my past lives.

Oh yea..

Music:

is infinite

Movies:

SNATCH
Boondock Saints
Jawbreaker
Party Monster
Fantastic Planet
Land Before Time
Wizard of Oz
Marie Antionette
Kids ....

Television:

Scrubs
Comedy Central Presents

Books:

Wizards First Rule
Zoya
Enchanters End Game
many more

Heroes:

CAPTAIN PLANET
BLOCKADE BOY
(It must be hard being an openly gay superhero)
CHUCK NORRIS
AMELIA (my cousin)
cause shes so rad
FRIENDS
(the deal is, I don't have the time or energy to put all my friends up here, so if I leave you out and you actually notice this here little list then please don't bitch)
AJ
This is the man that I want to marry..don't ask me why lol
JU~JU and GIOVANNI
thas right thas my ma, I love this bitch no matter what the fuck. and there goes my baby boy with her, pre school watch out for that lil one
KITTIE (my wifey)
dj sandwich is the shit bitch
CUZIN
this chick gets me, alot more than people that I've known for years. She doesn't judge me wrongly, and shes alot more like me than people understand. MCL cuzin
DRAKEN
no matter all the buddy nonsense we put eachother through this fool will always be my brother. I loved this fool when I didn't know how to, and he's lucky I let him have the orange cannon :P
JO-Z BEAR
This girl helps so many people in ways that they'll probably never realise, shes one of the most kind and caring people you will ever meet and I'm lucky to have her as a friend
MAGGIE PATTY
Pretty much, I love this bitch, shes my twin, in a wierd disfunctional kinda way.
KITTY CAT
"Does it drag you along by the
tongue at the top of your lungs?
Are you drunk?
Have you been drinking?
Do you below the overpass
go with a fifth in your fist
reminiscing the kiss of a love
that just didn't love as much as you did?"
HOBBIT
this is someone that I barely truely know, but I know my life would be different had I never met him. He means the world to me.
KEVIN
"O great ink fish,
swimming through black ink.
Why must you swim in ink?
In every fish's life,
a fish must stop and think...
why the ink?!?!
"

My Blog

My Galaxy

That shimmer in her eyes,Like a sun in a galaxy none has ever seen.A deeper look shows you that every thought a new planet,Every Dream a new Moon.A World of wonder behind those eyes,And yet slowly,Gen...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 01:48:00 PST

Darkness Falls

Darkness falls,And every shadow seemsTo stain each wall,In this room,That seems a cell.This is my hell. -me
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 01:45:00 PST

Take a Look in the Mirror

You look in a mirror,And see your hurt beauty.I come stand beside you,a flickering reflection you see.You question,You wonder,A tear spots my eye.You turn and you face me,With a questioning frown.I re...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 01:40:00 PST

my shadow

I'm depressed. The only reason that I can give to it is that I'm away from my friends and that I'm sober (to a point) I need someone to get me drunk, someone to kick it with, somewhere to go. someones...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 01:55:00 PST

100 bout me

Its really 89 cause someone deleted a few 001. real name ? Amarissa002. nickname ? DarkStar003. single or taken ? Single004. zodiac sign ? Gemini005. male or female ? female006. elementary ? Vill...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 11:50:00 PST

hey look a new blog

ahhh lifes wierd
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Mon, 07 May 2007 01:55:00 PST

Its a beautiful day in the neighborhood

so living in Lodi is, um, about as much as I could have expected. Theres alot of trees and birds, and I live five feet off of a lake, so yea its pretty. But there is NOTHING to do. There is nobody her...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 10:30:00 PST

fitting

It kills me to noe u hate me to noe you Love another It pains me to noe that i wasnt perfect enough for you It hurts to noe that i can no longer be ur Friend to noe that she touchs wat I've touched ...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 11:04:00 PST

fucking Valentine's Day

valentines days coming up :) would you makeout with me? [] Yea duhh [] Yes [] No [] Maybe Am I attractive? [] Heck no [] gorgeus [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay [] Ugly! Do you think I'm a virgin? [] Yes [] N...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 08:42:00 PST

drip drip drop..

..my brain is gonna pop!so, I'm still not over skarekrow.Its pretty pathetic really...The problem is I really don't want anybody besides him.I've loved him since the day I met him, and for some reason...
Posted by † princess paranoia † on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 12:04:00 PST