First off let me announce that I am deeply in love with my husband Rich more than anything on this world, and I wouldn't change my love for him for anything
The short of it:
I'm married. We I do hair and makeup and I love that more than cheese and I love cheese quite a bit. I'm the luckiest woman alive. End of story.
The Long Of It...
I’ve grown numb. the complexities and irony of life amuse me. the ignorance and hypocrisy that is human nature disgusts me. but there is no escaping the truth of what and who you are. coming to those terms in your own eyes can be one of the most difficult tasks one can ever face. I believe to be handling mine quite well. or maybe not. maybe it's all a facade. just a small hope barely gleaming on the sea of endless lies, truths, and complications that lies ahead of me. to make it to the other side assures happiness. or so we may assume as once crossed over, no one has ever returned. could it be that the other side is death? possibly true happiness? or could it be that the journey between the two was so perilous none would ever dare face it again?
I plan to defy the odds. give me your best shot. I will make it. I’ll survive twice over and make it back to tell the tale.
and when the fates mull over what it is that I have done, that a mere mortal has successfully defied their will, maybe they too will pause and wonder. is it possible the fates even have fates of their own? the idea that no one has any control over their own lives is deliciously disturbing in every sense. the irony of it all, that this life is meaningless without death, that no matter how hard you try the world seems to kick you in the balls harder each time you try to stand up but when you finally achieve your goals and dreams, greed takes control... it's all a beautifully balanced chaotic massacre of every religion. absolutely delightful.
and I will defeat you all.
my life has been changing. so fast, but for the better. i'm excited, to take the world by storm. one day at a time. i've found peace with myself for the first time in my life. i may not be the most beautiful woman in the world, but i am happy with who i am. i am happy with my strengths, i understand my weaknesses, and i know where i came from. i'm a fighter. always have been, never will change. perseverance.
i am fiercely loyal to my friends and my family. anyone who ever needs anything knows i am just a phonecall away. best person to have on your side, worst person to not, though i don't see any reason for senseless violence. but if you do something to disrespect or dishonor my friends/family, i will tear you apart.
artistic expression in every form is beautiful. i do amazing hairs as my art, and express myself through my modifications- 6 tattoos and 10 piercings. many more will be added eventually. music means the world to me, as i tend to express my moods in song, because i am a dork like that. i have gotten numerous requests to start singing in public again, but i don't think the world is ready for that yet, hahaha. I have friends all over the world, I wish I could see all of them all the time, but the world is such a wide place...
I do awesome hair. unfortunately, living in a small town, i don't get to do as much as i would like, but i am working on saving money to go to special FX makeup school, so i may broaden my horizons as a talented beauty industry professional.
I live hard. (I drive hard, my furniture gets worn down quick, my clothes are worn hard)
Yet I am still a lady.
Even though I can swear like a truck driver and drink like a sailor, I can do it with class. I don't need to meet anyone "special" on here, so if you try to make a move on me, I will hunt you down and remove your internal organs with a rusted spork. I don't need that. Friends are nice, but friends are all I want. So if your intentions are otherwise, I will send out my legions of zombie penguins to have your bowels removed and fed to you. Thank you, and have a nice day.