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woah steph, pink layout !! *comments*
wassup? the name's steph. :D
don't be too taken aback with my layout. i have a wide range of likings, & it includes cotton candy looking stuff & hello kitty. it also includes theology & psychology & the renaissance era. so please, don't think i'm some immature prick. if you wish to think so though, go ahead !! :DDD
it's your own loss, not mine.
so !! now that you went "okay, she's not retarded or anything, i might be able to communicate with her", i can introduce myself properly. XD
actually, i won't really introduce myself. if you wanna know basics, i guess you can ask, i'm really nice so don't be shy about it or anything. i think i'm going to share a story with you. the story of how i have the ability to get rid of any bad memory.
once upon a time... nah just kidding. XD
i'll start by saying my memory is rather cool; it allows me to remember exclusively GOOD things, & forget bad ones. that's what i want to tell you about. this is 100% true too. you know, people say we always remember the bad things because they're the ones that have had the biggest impact on us. well, when i was 3, i had a best friend, which i kept throughout elementary. we were like sisters. she was really easy to influence though, so when we got in fifth grade, it happened; the rebel bitches lured her into their oh-so-cool circle of friends & taught her the art of fucking up your life as well as other people's. she progressively grew away from me, & that was the first heartbreaking thing that had ever happened to me. it hurt me like fucking hell, & at that moment i chose to build myself a wall, which still stands tall today. i chose to completely ignore anything likely to hurt me & to turn it all to my advantage. i didn't even remember doing THAT, since it was bad & i forgot. my mom told me about that two weeks ago, i shit you not. that's why i can tell you now. me & my mom were talking about how i never remember anything shitty & how i always take everything positively, & i was sorta wondering if i had always been that way. my mom told me that story, & the stories of most shitty things that have happened to me, because she remembers it all. & you know what? i don't remember a damn thing. not even a single bit. don't think that means you can shit on me & then come back to me a couple days later thinking i forgot everything. that's not how it works at all. it takes a while for me to really forget, & i get really fucking distant after... disturbing events. i gave the cold shoulder to my best friend for two years after such a thing. i am just now starting to get our friendship back on track. ahah. i don't hold grudges though. i just keep my distance. i have to know you really well to even consider taking it to that point with you though, so don't worry about it or anything. i'm not distant at all, i'm friendly as hell. the world's a big circle of friends to me. so unless you're plain mean, we're friends !! :]
i don't want to make it look like i'm some distant kid suffering from the ghosts of her past. i have no past, really. only one that's good, one that i can base myself on to grow & evolve. i have nothing sad to dwell upon, which probably makes me the less depressed or remorseful person you'll ever meet. things that take me down are stupid ones like cleaning up or doing homework, & that really has no meaning in my life. XD so really, i know nothing about sadness, pain, regrets, deperession & second chances. most pain i've been through is probably getting my ears pierced, so you get the picture.
also, feel free to hate on me if you yourself are going through really hard times. i know people have a tendecy to do that. i really don't mind, i'll forget about you as fast as i learned about your existence. & i really have no compassion for anyone unless they're people i really care for, & i can count them on my fingers. so good luck on getting my sympathy. i can't offer what i don't know. i'm sorry. suffering is very... abstract in my mind. i know it's hard to understand, but i don't ask so much of you. just... respect me & the way i am? if you give me respect, i'll give it right back. i might not concretely know the meaning of all that suffering terminology, but i am kind hearted & only wish the best to people. i try my best to be tolerent & to get under people's skin, but i'm still young, i'm still learning.
give me a chance, will you? :]
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zackyv & syn gates. web design. guitar. graphism. photography. macs. astrophysics. geophysics. coffee. sharpies. vampires. vodka. anne rice books. lenore !! the legend of zelda. darkwave industrial. classical. crucifixes. the 4 horsemen. leather. velvet. fancy glasses. renaissance. dentyne ice wild winter LIQUID CENTRE !! mint chocoate :O.avenged sevenfold !! deftones. papa roach. zeromancer. third realm. muse. bright eyes [eh, i know XD]. tool. mr bungle. eminem. between the buried & me. bloodsimple. that mandy moore song cause it makes me bawl rofl. marilyn manson. apulanta. stuff written by charlie clouser. dream theater. jack's mannequin [don't shoot]. justin timberlake !! im bringin' sexay back.queen of the damned. the matrix. star wars. the sum of all fears. the fifth element. the core. saw. brokeback mountain. kingdom of heaven. constantine. the nativity story [stfu, joseph is actually sexy & theology fascinates me XD]. fucking frat party at the pancake festival !! yeaaaa. the papa roach live & muderous DVD. POKEMON.anne rice's vampire chronicles. the mayfair witches trilogy. dark lover/lover eternal/lover awakened. blood & gold. the vampire armand. pandora. merrick. the violin. the blood canticle. the blackwood farm. anything amélie nothomb.
pretty much anything vampireish & sexy. preferably if the men stand 6'2 feet & come in all leather with dark shades & long hair. :DDDDD