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About Me

I try to make realizations but I always forget them and have to relive the same day over and over and over and over until I finally learn that realizing the truth is for church mice.

My Interests

Exploring, playing in fields, throwing water baloons, running, listening to music, reading, math, butterflies.

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who thinks they know what they're talking about.

Music:

Nick Drake, Stereolab, Nina Simone, Aquatones, Buddy Holly, Specials, Postal Service, Cat Power, PJ Harvey, Soundgarden, fiona Apple, Otis Redding, Modest Mouse, Beethoven, Self Help Records, The . . . . , Spenser, Ben Harper, No Doubt, Brittany Spears, Alice Cooper, butt sounds.

Movies:

Aeon Flux, Star Trek, The Last Unicorn, Point of No Return, I love the Huckabees, Anger Management, 10000 Cigarettes and Coffee, 100 Cigarettes, One dollar

Television:

Young and the Restless.

Books:

Hey man. All I'm saying is $..@ you if you want to stick me with your thing. Oh, Lots of books. I like reading. right now I'm reading All about Love by Bell hooks

Heroes:

People that can throw very far and hit things on target.

My Blog

Not my own.

I feel farther from myself and yet still here and reasonably content with how my life is going. I've reached one of many platues. So used to being thrust into emotional despair and wanting...
Posted by caos convex on Tue, 28 Aug 2007 04:34:00 PST

When did I become so psycho online blog therapist?

I think that I'm manic depressive. I'm pretty sure I am because I find myself being completely obsessed with things that really have nothing to do with anything and give me no personal or ...
Posted by caos convex on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 03:18:00 PST

I don't even exist anymore.

Waiting for something. Anything. Nothing. That's it. That's all there was? Still having attachment issues. That's all. Nothing to be concerned about. go...
Posted by caos convex on Fri, 15 Jun 2007 09:18:00 PST

Not getting caught up in anything too serious.

A story. There once was a man in a girl. He loved ripping her apart. The thought of holding her heart in his hands excited them both and this was there game. They would go toge...
Posted by caos convex on Thu, 14 Jun 2007 11:47:00 PST

Last Night at the Strip Club

I led us to Erotic City. It's this "ghetto" strip club on Truman Road and the 435 next to the shit plant. It was about 12:30 and my cousin, Dusty and I were all fininshed trying our luck o...
Posted by caos convex on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 01:01:00 PST

For everyone who wants to know.

My life is small to you but it's big to me.When I'm inside myself I feel overwhelmed. That's how deep I am.Like jumping into myself but there's no splash.Just an empty hole, always falling.Never landi...
Posted by caos convex on Thu, 07 Jun 2007 08:11:00 PST

Today is foreme.

I've spent enough time doing things for someone else or because of someone else. Now I need to worry about myself for a little while. Be self loving for the first time in 5 years. I ...
Posted by caos convex on Mon, 21 May 2007 08:36:00 PST

1030 and my right hand's numb

Sitting on my hands for too long because findgeting became too compulsive. My right hand is numb and I can't feel my brain anymore. Wanting to go completely insane tonight but am too tired...
Posted by caos convex on Fri, 18 May 2007 08:46:00 PST

too fast

Sometimes in a conversation, my brain wants to move so fast to the next idea that it can't remember the idea that it started with in the first place. Was the idea not important? Did I miss...
Posted by caos convex on Sat, 05 May 2007 10:23:00 PST

alright

So. I just want to do this stupid fucking blog thing to complain and to let you all know that I'm complaining. This is something that I've recently noticed, I love to do. S...
Posted by caos convex on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 11:12:00 PST