Jimmy

Well, what's there to say about such a complicated person that I have become. The old me or the previous "Jimmy" was a cool cat!!!! haha Down for whatevas and always ready to party!!!! I was a simple dude that was care free, always able to control my stress, and be able to work thru most situations, I was confident and trust worthy to be known as a good friend, laid back, easy going, and just real easy to get along with. I was responsible and dependable , but these past 4 years or so, has really took a toll on me though, physically and mentally; mostly MENTAL. I guess you can say like Pac, "That im addicted to the darkside way of life" Now, i'm pretty much at square 1 again. This is my last and final chapter that im gonna battle myself back to how I mentioned above. Lose or win? Well if I lose it just means that I turned into a insane dude, but if i win, I'm just back to that loyal friend.... I ask myself everyday tho "Can you do it?".... I'm exhausted with my racing thoughts and tired of all my excuses that stops me from being the good person that I truly am. I've let down alot of peeps, friends and family, but most importantly myself. The crazy side of me kinna took over for a minute but like my big homie would say, " it's time to snatch up that Jimmy and throw him in the closet" cuz I know im better than that. Yea, I got older and wiser, but the problem is I forget to put forth my knowledge and learn from my mistakes. Everything that I learn through out life seems to get weaker and weaker, but it's finally time to stop being alittle Pikachu, and get my ass back to the dude I was. Don't get me wrong now, from what I've been blabbin about might make alot of you say that this dude is "nuts". Well, I didn't write this to portray myself in such a negative way. I am writing this to give myself confidence. So I can say a couple months from now "I told you so" and to pat and dust my shoulder off. Im just tired of thinkin and just wanna start doin... Ya feel me? Actions speak a whole lot louder than words.... Thanks again to the ones that have genuinely tried to help me thru my problems and to the ones that gave up...... I really can't blame you, but I'm going to prove you all wrong. To the ones that read this and say "what is he talkin about?" Don't trip, I just did a little too much partying.... but the ones that do know me "I'll BE BACK" ok ok I can't front tho... I just wanna be able to kick it again without trippin.. Just let me be half the dude I was before and I'll be satisfied.. To all the girls reading this "NO I AINT KRAZY" just a bit weak minded at times.... hehhe Enough of thissad sh** tho, LATES!!!!