Spiritadrft

I am as it says a spirit a drift in a crazy and messed up world. Lost in confused and torn between the living and the dead. Yearning for the time I can hold my infant son Gavin again and run my hands through the furry companions whom have come and gone from my life. Tears of fear though for those I would leave behind, their sadness a tethered string that connects me to this "world of the living". My famous words would be "I always wanted to go before you!"I am a mother of an Angel in Heaven named Gavin Alan, a black kitty named Midnight, some chubby Fan Tail Goldfish and a few Hermit Crabs named Drifter, Illusion, Reality and Salah and Akaisa. I am a Daughter, a sister a niece and a proud Auntie of Felipe Jr., Max, Mari, Annie and B3. I am a Wife to Mohammed and a Cousin as well.My greatest joys in life are my family and I hold them close to my heart. We are a small group of folks but very close knit. Fatherless for many years Blood may be thicker than water but love is thicker than blood. Ward is whom I call in my heart my Father.My Mom is my heart and soul, my best friend and soul mate, I lived under her heart for 9 months she lives in my heart for always. She is the strongest, courageous, kindest, gentlest, unselfish person I know who raised us all on her own till we were teens.My brothers are the arms of my tree, whom I admire and respect for all they have done and are doing with their lives. My Baby brothers are all grown up! Felipe Sr., gave me Christina his wife my first real sister and the apples of my eye my nephews Felipe Jr., and Max. Damian brought me a new sister Kate whom I know we chilled together in another life. B.J. has given me Mari, Annie, and B3 whom I yearn to know. Carlos is my adventurous brother whose travels in the Air Force has sent him to Far off and Distant lands as well as all over the US, he has served his country well and honorable. I am very proud of him. And the Babiest of them all is Elvis, my little Worm who just this year has become a man of 18 and is currently attending his first year at UW Madison. Entering a journey of the unknown, I have faith in him that whatever the out come may be he did what I could of never of done.After 30 years my biological father and his family became a reality to me. I have another brother also named Johnny whom lives in Oklahoma!! What path this road may lead me down is still unknown but now at least I know I am a reality to my "father". With him he also brings a whole other family whom I am yet to meet that is besides my Uncle Greg. Some day I suppose until then I am just getting used to another, Dad.