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THE GOBLET OF LIFEDevoid of words Dissolved in a dream The goblet of life is only touched In a wake My throat filled with poison My body and flesh disintegrated My soul drunk empty Wounded in the realms of yearning Burned and scorched Too hot - all past YearningAbandoned and discarded Seed painted in the mire Now as I feel I am a person and also wish to speak I will knee at the foot of the mountain Bless the sea with words Which wind has called me Which clown had derided me I do not need the name I will not call out Neither will I ever hear the answerThe dream has led me And I will follow it into the glowing fire... ~~~ Hold Me ~~~awoken from sleepless daydreams I am longings victim awoken from childish trust my wounds dehinscelife burns from my soul the longing bravely fullfills its dutyHold me- my life- hold meAs long as time still moves the needles still turn so long I will do my rounds but lifes sweet lust has left melife burns from my soul the longing bravely fullfills its dutyHold me- my life- hold me" GIMME SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN " I lost my concentration No idols to lean on I'm runnin', runnin', runnin' There's no place I could go And while the daylights fades Dreamland waves with oblivionGimmie somethin' to believe in Gimmie someone I can trustCome on - look me in the eyes Don't seek refuge in disguise Lead me to the rainbow - That stretches across reality Spike-launched into paradise Makes the floor taste harder later onGimmie somethin' to believe in Gimmie someone I can trust Tell me where salvation flows And fears are overcome I hear voices in the silence Drawing images of some better world They were willing but not able To listen and to penetrateGimmie somethin' to believe in Gimmie someone I can trustIs there sense to get up in the morning Like one million others do The infinity of time and space Drags me into a deep no-where Where's my dear foundation now I crave aim and power to go onGimmie somethin' to believe in Gimmie someone I can trust SapphireJust - as you are Show yourself to me - when you burn When you lose yourself to me Hold on to my glance!Just - as you are Let us flee and slip away from the world Let yourself breathe and pull away Look at me - and follow me!Just - as you are Let us flee - Let yourself breathe Hold on - and follow me!Just - as I do Flood me - waste yourself Hold me tight - I'm following you Just - as I do to you Conquer me - empty yourself Hold on - and follow me!I trusted myself And yet I did not believe myself The current that surrounded me And brought me here Drains away deep into the groundI find no peace Curse my endless - Idle, unadultered search For the aim that much too distant And yet to my feet appears to me Lost, I stand in the mirror Burned out, I recognise my Idle, unfulfilled void Like a wolf - as if I were searching for something That would be worth findingHere - I take it all As you take me - into the day Here we are strangers - And burned out In the morning light - that will destroy usHold on to my glance!
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~~~ " Stolsez Herz " ~~~To feel in order to percieve My senses - My soul My conscience - And my heart At the abyss of my life At the end of my self Frail deep inside - And weak to the worldIs it bad? And what is good? Is it ailing? And what does living mean? No! It is only honest - human And cursed - it is only the truthIn the eye of vulgarity - Of everyone Simply reprehensible - transparent But it is deeper, stronger and much more That is man Only looking for strength For the lie - blind delusion And superficialityWhere are those people who promised me their love? Where are my parents who produced me? Where are my friends who stood by me? Did everybody forget me? Did they abandon me? Did they leave me behind? Can't anybody remember me? Can't anybody help me?~*~He has flown from the rays of the sun Fled into the night with blazing wings Look over the sea of the cliffs Expounding back to the stars Succumbing to the radiance on the very first day And finally laid me on the sand...~*~~~~ Juan Carlos ~~~Why the fuck does beauty hurt? Why the fuck does beauty lead to pain? In both ways it ends in pain Anyway - give me your beauty now Anyway - blow my veins Curse me and riddle me The road to pain is paved by beauty...PROMISSED LANDNow it seems To appear to us Now we touch the ground Arriving in this promised land Where future meets the pastRed flags and tainted dreams Little pale ladies in dolly white sheets Pagan words and rose coloured drinks Mechanical steam underneath If to choose we rather take two The chances are too lessIf we turn to see And once we pick a smile Our lifetime has achived to touch a human heartFor once we turn to see By chance we pick a smile One word - One touch of hand One single reason whyLast Exit: Life And now I am a stranger Who has parted from his loved ones And far away And so I am passed away The last exit that barely reveals itself On this brigge that can barely carry myselfLast exit: life From the winter of my soul Only one small step is all it takes And I'm walking on new pathsAnd if I dare to speak They neither hear - nor understand And so I remain silent And If I dare to laugh The joy fades away completely undivided Because they do not feel for me

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We Two Stand At The End (AM ENDE STCHEN WIR ZWEI) No compromises, No silent tears, No kisses which taste Guides me to you, No repetitions, No deceit, no painfull touch from the past, Only the hope of a second chance. Thats all what's left for us, A second chance for you And me, a second chance for us. You dont have to say anything now. Don't have to love me. I have hope for us. Because at the end we two stand. Music drifts from far away to me. Strange. I don't recognise you anymore. Your love stays holy for me. Your life has fled. A goodbye without end. A crusade in your heart. A love without borders. A warmth without light. So you are lieing cold and motionless. And you still warm my heart. My hope shall guide me through the days without you. And love shall carry me when Pain and hope break.

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On my spirit's gallery I heard the music of my soul I saw the hole in my heart And drank the tears of my pain I stood in my life's shadows Waiting for my appearance On the street of solitude Inside the walls of my fear

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And though I have the gift of prophecy And undertand all mysteries, And have not love, I am nothing. These words remain silent My mouth will not give them life So they come creeping back to me To tear my heart to shredsBut I would not forgot this pain For it is all I have left of her... By the day we've laughted and played By the night we just seat there crying We never realized how wonderful it was Later I wanted beauty But soon I realized.

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