GETTING TO KNOW ANOINTANCE:
SIT BACK RELAX BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY BE BLESSED BY MY WORDS!WHERE DO I BEGIN? WOW, FIRST LET ME SAY IT'S A PRIVILEGE TO EVEN BE HERE SO THANK GOD I'M STILL HERE WITH A PURPOSE TO SERVE! GOD HAS GRACED ME WITH SO MANY GIFTS AND WHAT BETTER WAY TO USE THEM THAN IN HIS KINGDOM.IN LIFE YOU TRY TO FIND YOUR PURPOSE..WHAT AM I CALLED FOR? WHAT DOES GOD WANT FROM ME? WELL. I LEARNED THAT "GOD" WANTS ME TO TELL MY STORY! GOD WANTS ME TO HEAL OTHERS THROUGH MY OWN PAINS AND SUFFERINGS SO HERE I AM ALLOWING YOU TO VIEW PARTS OF MY LIFE THAT MANY PEOPLE KNOW NOTHING ABOUT...
I GREW UP IN CHURCH. ALL I KNEW WAS CHURCH.ONCE I TRULY UNDERSTOOD WHAT GOD WAS REALLY ABOUT I WAS SAVED AT THE AGE OF 12. DEALING WITH THE THINGS I'VE BEEN THROUGH I HAD TO KNOW GOD. I HAD TO DEPEND ON HIM!!! I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOOOOO MUCH IN MY LIFE THAT MY ONLY PEACE OF MIND IS IN "HIM". I CAN GIVE YOU TESTIMONY AFTER TESTIMONY ABOUT HOW GREAT HE IS BUT YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND IT UNTIL YOU EXPERIENCE IT FOR YOURSELF. I GREW UP IN AN ABUSIVE HOME WATCHING MY OWN FLESH AND BLOOD PUT BRUISES ON AND MAKE DEATH THREATS TO THE ONE WHO BIRTHED ME INTO THIS WORLD. MY FIRST SEXUAL EXPERIENCE WAS AT THE AGE OF 4 BY A MALE COUSIN AND IT CONTINUED ON THROUGH ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. I NEVER TOLD MY MOM ABOUT IT UNTIL THE AGE OF 26...HMM I'M 27 NOW! I WAS EVEN RAPED BY SOMEONE I WAS ONCE IN LOVE WITH WHILE THE BABY I HAD JUST BIRTHED NOT EVEN A MONTH BEFORE WAS LAYING PRESENT THE WHOLE TIME. THROUGH THAT EXPERIENCE A CHILD WAS CREATED. A CHILD THAT I MYSELF REGRETTABLY TOOK THE LIFE OF BECAUSE I COULDN'T HANDLE THE MEMORY THAT WAS ATTACHED TO HIM OR THE FACT THAT I WOULD HAVE TO FACE TELLING ANYBODY WHAT HAD HAPPENED.
AT SOME POINT I STOPPED TRYING TO PLEASE GOD AND STARTED TRYING TO PLEASE OTHERS.IT'S SO MUCH EASIER TO LIVE IN THE WORLD THAN IN CHRIST. OR SO I THOUGHT, BUT EVENTUALLY I HAD TO MAKE MY WAY BACK BECAUSE GOD HAD BEEN CALLING ME BACK TO MY PURPOSE FOR TOO LONG. HE WAS COVERING ME FROM SO MANY THINGS AND I STILL WAS DENYING HIM. ALL I CARED ABOUT WAS ME AND NOTHING ELSE MATTERED IF I DIDN'T GET WHAT I WANTED FIRST! GOD HAS A WAY OF "OPENING" YOUR EYES RIGHT ON UP ABOUT WHO REALLY CARES ABOUT YOU AND WHO REALLY HAS YOUR BACK. IN THE MIDST OF MY MESS HE WAS STILL WORKING IT OUT FOR HIS WILL AND HERE I AM ACCEPTING THE CALLING HE HAS ON MY LIFE!
AS MANY GIFTS THAT I AM BLESSED WITH I THANK HIM THE MOST FOR MY GIFT OF PROPHETIC DANCE.IF YOU'RE A DANCER, OR IN ANY OTHER FORM OF MINISTRY YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS WHEN YOU JUST HAVE TO GET THERE AND LET ALL THOSE ATTACKS OF THE ENEMY SHINE THROUGH YOU THROUGH THAT GIFT. WHEN I DANCE NOTHING ELSE MATTERS BUT ME AND THAT CONNECTION BETWEEN GOD AND THE HOLY SPIRIT. IT'S LIKE FIRE AND I JUST GOTTA DANCE UNTIL THAT PAIN IS GONE, UNTIL EVERYTHING IS UP OUT OF MY WAY SO I CAN BLESS HIS NAME! I PRAY THAT GOD JUST CONTINUES TO CRAFT MY GIFTS SO I CAN CONTINUOUSLY BE A BLESSING TO THOSE AROUND ME SAVED AND UNSAVED! WELL CAN THE CHURCH SAY AMEN! ON THAT NOTE CONSIDER YOURSELF FORMALLY INTRODUCED TO...~ANOINTANCE~ : )
~SUROUNDED BY HIS ANGELS~
I REMEMBER IN 2000 WHEN I ALMOST DIED. IT WAS A SCARY THING BUT AT THE SAME TIME I HAD GIVEN UP AND TOLD GOD REPEATEDLY TO JUST LET ME DIE. I HAD A FEVER OF 105. I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN I COULDN'T WALK, OR EVEN SIT UP IN THE BED. MY BODY WAS BURNING UP SO BAD AND I HAD CHILLS ALONG WITH A POUNDING HEADACHE. EVERY TIME I NEEDED TO USE THE BATHROOM OR TO TAKE A BATH MY MOM HAD TO SIT ME ON A BIG BLANKET AND DRAG ME TO THE BATHROOM. AT THAT TIME I WEIGHED MORE THAN SHE DID. ALTHOUGH I WAS STILL SMALL 128lbs AT THE TIME.
ANYWAY,THIS WENT ON FOR A WEEK. EVERYDAY SHE WOULD ASK DID I WANT TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL I SAID NO. IF YOU HAVE SICKLE CELL OR KNOW SOMEONE WHO HAS IT YOU KNOW WHY WE DON'T LIKE HOSPITALS. THERE ARE SOME REAL INSENSITIVE DOCTORS AND NURSES THERE. IT'S AWFUL! FINALLY, MY MOM CALLED MY DOCTOR AND HE TOLD HER TO BRING ME INTO HIS OFFICE. THAT WAS A TASK GETTING ME INTO THE CAR. LIKE I SAID MY BODY WAS PRACTICALLY PARALYZED WITH WEAKNESS. MY EYES WERE SO JAUNDICE(YELLOWING OF THE WHITE PART OF THE EYES) MY SKIN HAD NO COLOR. AND I WAS FRAIL FROM NOT EATING AND DRINKING. LITERALLY, I LOOKED LIKE THE WALKING DEAD.
THE NIGHT BEFORE GOING TO THE DOCTOR I REMEMBER SEEING MYSELF LIFT FROM OUT OF MY BODY AND LOOK DOWN AT MY LIFELESS BODY LYING IN PAIN AND BURNING UP. I JUST KEPT CRYING AND ASKING GOD TO JUST PLEASE LET ME DIE. I CANT TAKE NO MORE JUST LET ME DIE GOD. HE KEPT TELLING ME NO. IT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME AT THE TIME.
SO, I GET TO THE DOCTOR AND THEY GOT A WHEELCHAIR AND WHEELED ME IN THE OFFICE. AS SOON AS HE SAW ME HE WAS LIKE OH MY GOD WHY DID YOU WAIT SO LONG MRS. JACKSON? (REFERRING TO MY MOTHER)ALL SHE COULD SAY IS SHE DIDN'T WANT TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL. HE RUSHED ME OVER TO THE HOSPITAL SO FAST. MY HEMOGLOBIN(BLOOD OXYGEN LEVEL) WAS SO LOW, IT WAS A 6. THAT'S IS BAD BECAUSE A HEALTHY PERSON ON RUNS ABOUT A 12. MINE IS USUALLY A 9 SINCE I HAVE SICKLE CELL. I ENDED UP HAVING A BLOOD TRANSFUSION. WHICH I DIDN'T WANT BUT WHEN THEY SAID MY MOM COULD DONATE THE BLOOD THEN I WENT AHEAD WITH IT. USUALLY THEY WONT DO THAT BECAUSE SHE CARRIES SICKLE TRAIT. I WASN'T GOING TO TRUST A STRANGER'S BLOOD. I FELT SAFER WITH MY MOM'S.
I WAS IN THE DYING PROCESS AND I KNEW IT BEFORE I EVER WENT TO THE DOCTOR OR THE HOSPITAL. MY ORGANS SHOULD HAVE BEEN SHUTTING DOWN BY THEN. BUT GOD HAD A BIGGER PLAN FOR ME. HE LET ME GET JUST CLOSE ENOUGH TO TASTE DEATH. JUST TO PROVE THAT HE IS GOD. THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I WAS "ADMITTED" INTO THE HOSPITAL FOR SICKLE CELL UNTIL 2006!!! THERE IS NOBODY LIKE MY GOD AND THAT'S WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. BECAUSE HE IS THE SAME TODAY, TOMORROW AND EVERYDAY. SO, TELL ME WHO IS LIKE OUR GOD??? NOBODY!!!
ABOUT THE GROUP I'M A PART OF ALSO:AS WELL AS MINISTERING AS A SOLO DANCER I HAVE A CHRISTIAN GROUP THAT MY SPIRITUAL SIS AND I STARTED. IT CONSISTS OF PROPHETIC DANCE, SINGING, MIME, AND A LITTLE ACTING HERE AND THERE. TRUST ME WE STAY ON FIRE FOR THE LORD AND EVERY TIME WE MINISTER AT NO CHARGE OF COURSE, WE DON'T CHARGE FOR THE LORD'S GIFT!
WE HAVE AN AWESOME TESTIMONY. WHEN WE STARTED THIS GROUP ALL THREE OF THE MAIN MEMBERS INCLUDING MYSELF HAD BEEN VICTIMS OF SEXUAL ABUSE AS A CHILD AND EVEN SOME INTO ADULTHOOD. WE HAVE ALL COME FROM BACKGROUNDS WHERE ARE FATHERS WERE REALLY NOT IN OUR LIVES IN A WAY THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN. WE HAVE COME FROM A POINT WHERE MEN HAD DID SO MUCH WRONG TO US WE HAD LITTLE RESPECT FOR THEM AND SURELY NO TRUST IN THEM. WE HAVE CAME FROM PLACES WHERE PEOPLE IN THE CHURCH WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MOLDING US AND HELPING US GROW YET INSTEAD THEY WERE FEEDING ON OUR WEAKNESSES AND SECRETLY TEARING US DOWN. I WILL TELL YOU ONE THING WHEN GOD SAYS, "TOUCH NOT MY ANOINTED!" HE MEANS BUSINESS!
HOWEVER, THAT'S THE POINT THAT OUR GOD NEVER FAILS US THAT'S WHY OUR TRUST IS NOT IN MAN. MAN CANNOT DO ANYTHING BUT FAIL YOU BECAUSE HE IS NOT EQUIPPED WITH PERFECTION THE WAY GOD IS. PEOPLE HAVE HIDDEN AGENDAS BEHIND THEIR ACTIONS SOMETIMES. REGARDLESS OF THE STRUGGLES IN OUR PERSONAL LIVES AND WITHIN OUR GROUP WE STILL TRIUMPHED OVER IT TO GIVE GOD THE GLORY. FOR THIS WE ARE GRATEFUL AND THE WORSHIP IS FOREVER EXTENDED TO THE MOST HIGH...