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Rated M for Mature Audiences Only… Listen up, if you are offended easily, or not an easy going, go with the flow type of person, then don’t add me – this is your warning… and you only get one warning.
Generally Speaking… If attitude is everything, then I have everything. I say what is on my mind… no sugar coating it – which sometimes isn’t the best thing either… but its me, so accept it. I’m not your typical chic… or at least I’d like to think I’m not typical but that’s for you to decide. I’d like to think that I’m like the girl next door… and we all know that the girl next door is the one the guys always want… Some days, I really wish I was that girl… a wise girl… ‘cause a wise girl kisses, but never falls… listens, but never forgets… and always leaves before she is left… ♥
Have you ever wanted someone to really look at you… a stranger who melts your soul with his stare… possibly reading your mind… a stranger who could possibly know your wants and needs… feel your hunger… makes your skin prickle with want… with a simple glance… a simple glance that ignites you completely.. so much so that you want to fall into his arms… then and there… to live in the moment… drunk with passion… captivated simply by desire?
I use to believe in such things as love… I only learned the truth… after getting hurt… after getting my heart shattered… people see me as this happy girl… this outgoing girl… but no one know the real me… the girl that was heartbroken… heartbroken long, long time ago… the girl that no longer feels the pain… the girl that doesn’t feel any happiness… the girl that doesn’t care about anyone or anyone’s feelings… the girl that is dead inside… from long, long ago… damn him for breaking my heart…
I am like a siren... we pass along the shore, riding these waves… the waves of the internet… and you come across my island… my myspace… I draw you in… you fight against it… get a glimpse of my beauty only to find the beauty you see is my mind speaking through my words... my blogs… my stories… it’s the sirens song… just as beautiful and just as deadly… you strain ever so closer to see me… being drawn into my world through this amazing technology… I find you crashed against a wall… you are shipwrecked against the rocks of frustration and desire… but somehow you always come back hoping that one day I will allow you to enter my world just a little bit more… and get just a little bit closer…
Did you ever do something and later ask yourself why? Not something that you regret, just something stupid, not thinking, just acting on instinct. I did. I do many times. I guess cause I don’t want to regret not doing something. Well, I did something stupid last night. I don’t know why I did it, now I wish I didn’t.
More importantly, I learned a lot tonight. I learned, I am strong, I can do anything and you know what – that is an important lesson for me – now, I just have to have more faith in myself knowing this is how I am all of the time, not just some of the time and sometimes I just need to be reminded of it.
Be sure to breath… because its not the number of breaths you take during your life, but rather the number of moments in your life that take your breath away…
Music Interests… The genre more often that not found in my CD changer is the 80’s glam metal hair bands, but that’s not to say I don’t listen to anything else ‘cause I do… I just seem to gravitate towards those 80’s bands… I’m not going to waste my time listing band’s names here because if you don’t know what I like, then we don’t listen to the same music… either that or you’re too young to be on my friend list… that’s the last thing I want – a friend who never heard of Motley Crue.
“One day you’ll walk into the tattoo shop of life and say: I’m back. I’m ready for my new tattoo, and her name is Rock-n-Roll. Now it’s time to make it permanent. You will have been through all the temporary 15 minutes of flash. You will come to realize that you’ve been being served fast food, music and disposable heroes for too long. You know what the man behind the counter will say? We knew you’d come back.†~ Motley Crue
Television Shows… Actually, I don’t want a lot of TV. Shit, I don’t even have cable yet… yes, I know what year it is, but I’m not the type of person to sit still and spend night after night watching TV. I have a few shows and I do watch them regularly, but that’s about it. My current addicted is to Prison Break. I think that’s ‘cause I’ve always had an attraction to bad boys.
What I read? Actually, I prefer to write… writing is an emotional outlet. Lately, I have been trying my hand at writing adult fiction. I post some of my writings in my blogs; however, most of my blogs I post are friends only because of the adult content. Like I mentioned above, be warned if you are offended easily… But this is myspace and I can do with it as I please… if you don’t like it, then don’t read the blogs and/or don’t be my friend…
A few of my shorter blogs…
Sometimes… information falls into our laps that we didn't want to know.. and sometimes we keep searching for the answers and when we get the answers we wish we didn't search for them.. the truth be told regardless if we wanted to know it.. sometimes we would be better off not knowing the truth… I know I would be…
unsure… passion… its in us… we live it… and we breath it.. we all have different levels of it.. someone brings it out in us.. we can bring it out ourselves with out them.. do we have this same level of passion with everyone we are with? I feel this passion in myself when I am with him.. he brings it out in me.. I know I have it when I’m not with him.. but he brings me to new levels that I want to explode with him every time I’m with him.. I like the person I want to be.. I want to be that girl.. that girl that he desires.. his princess.. but do I? Do I really know him? Or just the person he wants me to think he is? Do we ever really know a person? Or want to know the person.. I’m still not sure.. I go back and forth.. I guess I do just have to trust my own heart.. my own instincts.. but damn it! I wish I had a crystal ball sometimes!
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What else? What else is there? What more do you want to know about me? It’s not like I’m going to tell you the truth… by this I mean all my bad habits – those negatives about one’s self… so if you want to know about me, you will just have to ask… then can form your own opinion… your own judgment… I’m just me… a complex chic… I want it all… so just ask… besides, you have a 50% chance of me giving you an answer… not because I’m a snob but because I hate talking about myself. Not really my favorite topic of discussion…
Quotes worth being quoted...
The art of writing is the art of discovering what you believe ~ Gustave Flaubert
The greatest artist is a slave to his ideas ~ Christian Nestell Bovee
Love is something eternal, the aspect may change, but not the essence ~ Vincent Van Gogh
An integral part of any relationship is knowing that you could be killed in your sleep at any time ~ Trent Reznor
The difference between friendship and love is how much you can hurt each other ~ Ashleigh Brilliant
In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different ~ Coco Chanel
Thoughts to ponder…Be thankful for all you have – you probably have more then most… be greatful
What I want?I want to find someone who fulfills me sexually and emotionally. I want someone who will accept me unconditionally, no matter what my sexual desires.
Does this love exist? If so I want it… I want Love…
I want it to be inconvenient; I want to sacrifice my life for it. I want the kind of love that wakes me up at 3am. I want love that hurts, love that I have to work for, I want love that tests me. I want the kind of love that is hard to find, and hard to keep and never easy. I want the kind of love where you get hurt. I want love that makes me cry. I want to hold on even if it takes me through my worst nightmare.
But most of all, I want the kind of love that’s worth it.
Life… Live life with no regrets. Life comes with no guarantees. No time outs. No second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can. Spend all your money. Tell someone what they mean to you. Tell someone off. Speak out loud. Dance in the pouring rain. Hold someones hand. Comfort a friend. Fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late. Be a flirt. Smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love… and most of all, live in the moment ‘cause when you look back someday, know you have no regrets! and that my friend, will be what makes you smile…
Variety is the spice of life. If you don’t have it, your life is empty.
The people who don’t know what they want are the ones that suffer the most
Oh and just one more thing - I'm straight.. even tho i'm a proud owner of a vagina - i'm interested in guys.. just thought i'd put that out there..
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