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The toxic waste by-product of God's creation

Insecureness tears at bliss. I hate me for this weakness .

About Me

Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now, Thus much let me avow- You are not wrong, who deem That my days have been a dream; Yet if hope has flown away In a night, or in a day, In a vision, or in none, Is it therefore the less gone? All that we see or seem Is but a dream within a dream.I stand amid the roar Of a surf-tormented shore, And I hold within my hand Grains of the golden sand- How few! yet how they creep Through my fingers to the deep, While I weep- while I weep! O God! can I not grasp Them with a tighter clasp? O God! can I not save One from the pitiless wave? Is all that we see or seem But a dream within a dream? --Edgar Allen Poe"lauren you are a parasite. you feed off others for some self worth. I think that you just say your fat,ugly etc. just so you can get the oppisite response. you do alot of nice things but are they ever genuine nice or are they just gestures you do so you dont feel selfish. if you truly wanted to kill yourself you would of been dead 4 times over by now. if you want pity you've got pity cause im glad im not you"..
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Lauren (Yeah, I hate my name too!)
Birthday: March 15th
Birthplace: Georgia
Current Location: New Jersey
Eye Color: Yellow
Hair Color: Black
Height: 5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Leftie
Your Heritage: Oh I'm a Mutt.
The Shoes You Wore Today: My awesome green and black skull shoes.
Your Weakness: Bret Utter.
Your Fears: Being alone all my life.
Your Perfect Pizza: Plain just like me.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Lose Weight
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: I want to kill myself.
Thoughts First Waking Up: "Hey Look at that hideous thing in the mirror."
Your Best Physical Feature: If only I had one.
Your Bedtime: I have no life so whenever it will ensure me a 9 hour sleep.
Your Most Missed Memory: Childish Ignorance.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: Burger king but they're both pretty gross.
Single or Group Dates: Single. Groups are too impersonal.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino
Do you Smoke: Sometimes
Do you Swear: Go die you fucking whore. I was talking to myself again, don't worry.
Do you Sing: When I feel like it. But I must warn you. I sound like a dying chicken when I do.
Do you Shower Daily: Yes
Have you Been in Love: Yes
Do you want to go to College: Yes
Do you want to get Married: Teehee I'm engaged to the most amazing future husband a woman could have.
Do you belive in yourself: Not in the slightest.
Do you get Motion Sickness: No
Do you think you are Attractive: I think I'm the most hideous pig creature in any room I walk into.
Are you a Health Freak: Sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents: My parents wish I actually succeeded in killing myself.
Do you like Thunderstorms: I love the rain. I find it very romantic. ^_^
Do you play an Instrument: Like I have any talent what so ever. Pff.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes
In the past month have you Smoked: No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Yes ^_^
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: No
In the past month have you been on Stage: No
In the past month have you been Dumped: No.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: ...maybe...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: ...maybe...
Ever been Drunk: Yes
Ever been called a Tease: No
Ever been Beaten up: Only by siblings. But I'm hoping to change that. Who wants to beat the crap out of me?
Ever Shoplifted: Doesn't that go along with the question above?
How do you want to Die: I would go to a cemetary and find a tall tree. I would tie a rope to it and make a noose. Then I would sit up on a branch with the noose around my neck and overdose on sleeping pills. Once the sleeping pills kicked in I would fall from the tree and be chocked to death.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Happy
What country would you most like to Visit: Germeny
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Sexy Brown
Favourite Hair Color: Black
Short or Long Hair: It's not really what you look like that matters to me.
Height: I don't care. hopefully not that much shorter than me.
Weight: I don't care.
Best Clothing Style: Sexy
Number of Drugs I have taken: Hopefully lots
Number of CDs I own: As many as you want.
Number of Piercings: Piercings are sexy!
Number of Tattoos: As many as you want.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Everyone regrets somthing of their past.
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Your power is: The ability to breathe
under water


Explanation: When swimming, you don't
need to get up and take a new fresh breath
since you take in oxygen from the water. This
allows you to stay in the water as much as
you'd like. In good purposes it can save
drowning victims. In evil purposes it can help
you drag down a person to the depths and have
them drowned. This power helps you escape the
world, if even for a bit, since you have grown
to despise it so much.
You have been a beaten dreamer with aspirations
crushed. Now you try to control your hopes
because you don't want to get hurt again. You
feel there is no hope for you in the future and
have no real goals. But unlike the Controller
of Time you do still feel, even if it's mostly
negative emotions. You have few friends, if
any, and feel you are unable to speak about
your troubles. And unlike the Transformer, you
don't feel happiness nowadays. All seems to be
filled despair whereever you go and you are
bitter becaue the world has failed you. It
didn't turn out the way you wanted it too and
you feel betrayed. It is also likely the
feeling of betrayal comes from past
relationships where you were left alone in the
end.
Negative aspects: Since you are highly
depressed and not letting out your emotions
properly there is a possibility for cutting, to
let the emotions out. Also, if the feeling of
despair grows to strong you might consider
taking your life.


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My Interests

Bret Utter is my reason for breathing. 10.13.06

I'd like to meet:

The Antichrist, Superman

"Lauren looks like the love child of everything that scared the shit out of me when I was ten."

Music:

Zombie Killers Mast…I’m surprised to find the dead are walking around. Hell must be full. Their back in action. Hunting for brains. They seek some satisfaction. We must not fear what we do not get. Like acid rain or laser jets. But good advice. Seek guns and or hammer. Lots of wood and silky pajamas. Shoot them in the brains if you want to live. Shoot them in the brains. Even the little kids. If you want to survive them eating your flesh. I suggest you shoot them in the brains, you zombie killers. You zombie killers. Not a space. Like Buffy their can only be one. You must gather a little strange. Shooting them is quite fun. Take note. They don’t run well. They’d rather be at their home land of hell. The bloody ones shoot at birth. The smell alone a’int worth the hurt. No drama here straight up survival. The dammed, their back. It can be back survival. Shoot them in the brains if you want to live. Shoot them in the brains. Even the little kids. If you want to survive them eating your flesh. I suggest you shoot them in the brains, you zombie killers. You zombie killers. Stuck together strangers forever. United by the killers of the streets. Bloody and vicious. Our minds delicious but never enough to eat. Bullets by the hundreds. We aim for the heart. But if you dock a shot right to the smarts You watch zombie heads explode. Shock pop lock and load. Shoot us in the brains.

Movies:

Edward Scissorhands, Donnie Darko, Fight Club, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, The Crow, The Nightmare Before Christmas, and Dogma

Television:

Invader Zim, ER, Gilmore Girls, Family Guy, South Park, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Sea Lab 2021, Smallville

Books:

No Exit, Requiem for a Dream, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, Everything Can Be Beaten, Dante's Inferno, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Fight Club, Watership Down, Breakfast of Champians, Alice in Wonder Land

Heroes:

Bret Utter, the sexiest man beast alive. I love you my sexykins. Never stop being the beautiful, unique, breathtaking guy that you are. I fall inlove with you all over again when I wake up in the morning and see you next to me. how have you been feeling lately? (it took me 4 ever to make this the best anime pics i could find)
your Secretive. When something happens to you either good or bad you keep it to your self because you dont want your friends to make a big deal out of it. And you like having things to your self.
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Your soul was born in Space.Your soul was born in the Darkness of Space. You are pessimistic, cold and distant and Darkness is your element. You're a little like Blood, but you don't just naturally hate. Something really bad has happened and instead of getting seriously depressed like Ice, you got filled with anger. You're telling yourself that you want to be alone, but the truth is that you don't really know what you want yet. Maybe loneliness isn't the right way? You try to focus on yourself and dont want to give attention to anything or anyone. You want people to think that you're a horrible person so they might stay away from you. Isn't this just a way of running away from your problems and fears? Take control of your own life again! You can't hide forever. People can be nice you know.
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Your soul was born in the Shadows.Your soul was born in the shadows of the moon at night. You're all mystery and enigma and your element is the Moon. No one really knows who you are, but they might think they know you. You only tell people fragments of who you are and never show your true personality. That doesn't have to mean that youre being someone you're not though. You're always yourself and you never do something just because someone else does. Some might think you're a little cold or dull, but you're just hiding your true self for some reason. Maybe only a couple of selected people have ever seen the true you. You are loyal to these people and it will take time if anyone else wants to gain your trust. You let people think that they know you and that you trust them. But sooner or later they will realize that they never really knew you. Be careful. Someday you might need someone who knows what you need. Trust people. You prefer silence and tranquillity. You're calm and collected and a nice person most of the time.
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Your the dying/bleeding angel! You have been betrayed and now you are lying in a pool of your own blood, begging for someone to save you. You hate life and everything in it. You've had so many people lie to you and your sick of it. You have no friends, nor do you want any, for your afraid the same thing will happen again. You love to walk around at night alone any you love to be alone. Favorite color: Black and red. Flower: A black rose Your sweets: Anything is fine with you. Animal: A bat. Your number: 9 Element: Shadow-- I made that up for her since I made the Scared/lonely angel have dark. Shadow is worse than dark, much worse.
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You are Riff-Raff!
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    Constantly listening to music. Everyone does it so this fact just reiterates for me just how much like everyone els I am. I'm not entirely sure why they do it, but for me it's a way...
Posted by The toxic waste by-product of God's creation on Fri, 17 Mar 2006 09:38:00 PST