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I will wait for you, she said, endlessly...

About Me

My intensity will probably melt your weak countenance and/or your face.
"Sooner or later in life everyone discovers that perfect happiness is unrealizable, but there are few who pause to consider the antithesis: that perfect unhappiness is equally unattainable. The obstacles preventing the realization of both these extreme states are of the same nature: they derive from our human condition which is opposed to everything infinite. Our ever-insufficient knowledge of the future opposes it; and this is called, in the one instance, hope, and in the other, uncertainty of the following day. The certainty of death opposes it: for it places a limit on every joy, but also on every grief. The inevitable material cares oppose it: for as they poison every lasting happiness, they equally assiduously distract us from our misfortunes and make our consciousness of them intermittent and hence supportable." Primo Levi - Survival in Auschwitz
"Only great pain is, as the teacher of great suspicion, the ultimate liberator of the spirit... It is only great pain, that slow, protracted pain which takes its time and in which we are as it were burned with green wood, that compels us philosophers to descend into our ultimate depths and to put from us all trust, all that is good hearted, palliated, gentle, average, wherein perhaps our humanity previously reposed. I doubt whether such pain "improves" - but I do know it deepens us." Nietzsche - The Gay Science
"Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering...an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy ( ) we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off." Tyler Durden - Fight Club
"It is impossible to convey the life sensation of any given epoch of one's existence- that which makes its truth, its meaning- its subtle and penetrating essence. We live, as we dream...alone." Marlow - Heart of Darkness
"Everybody hug someone different than you. Old people hug a young person. Straight people, hug someone you think might be gay. White people hug a black person... OK, there aren't a lot of black people, so we're going to have to share the black people." Trotter - Upright Citizens Brigade MyGen Profile Generator

My Interests

Passion. Hunting/Gathering. Face Melting Guitar Solos. Cool Beverages. Kickin' It Live. Looming Storm Clouds. Cymbal Crashing Moments of Victory. Laughing Til I Leak.

I'd like to meet:

Girls with Tattoo Sleeves, Doctor Emmett Brown, and veterans of Normandy. Oh and Dane Cook.

Music:

Metal (including thrash, doom, death, black, folk, progressive, symphonic, gothic, and/or power varieties ), Classical (the beautifully tragic, metal at its infancy), Film Scores, Underground Hip Hop, Hardcore Punk. Metallica, Opeth, Grieg, Depeche Mode, Boysetsfire, Thomas Newman, August Burns Red, Killswitch Engage and Nat King Cole.

Movies:

300. Saving Private Ryan. Schinder's List. V for Vendetta. Return of the King. Life is Beautiful. The Shawshank Redemption. The Green Mile. The Passion of the Christ.

Books:

Ender's Game. Fight Club. Little Pilgrim's Progress. A Song of Ice and Fire (the first literary achievement which brought me to tears, let it be said). The Toy Collector. The Book of Mormon. Anything Nibley. Readers are Leaders.

My Blog

Turning From Sickening Presence

If emotion was fire, and I once blazed in your presence, I'd now explode and leave you in black charred remnant.   But do I decide your fate? Tempting a God whose creation is great? Emptyin...
Posted by X - Factor on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 01:51:00 PST

The Screaming Does it Justice

With a Thousand Words to Say but One:And to reflect is to regret throwing it all away, and apathy my one waystreet, it took so much from me. Separated by this divide I createdthrough my fears, and in ...
Posted by X - Factor on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 01:15:00 PST

...bitter oblivion

another one lost, and I know she won't call.but that won't stop my head from spinning.how many times can I offer up this broken heart? am I not bleeding with all the aching?a whirlwind of faces and a ...
Posted by X - Factor on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 07:40:00 PST

Jen-ocide

You did not break meonly a partfunny that it workseven brokenhow do i miss though i hate so muchmaybe this burning isn't animosityit's possible it's what i'd hopedand it scared Youinto cold distanceit...
Posted by X - Factor on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 07:37:00 PST

The Concept of Good: A Brief Foray

In frequent debates from the beginning of time, man has considered the question, 'what is good?'  Often used as a means to selfishly benefit an individual or group, the answer would be beneficial...
Posted by X - Factor on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 01:48:00 PST

Call to Arms

This is for every guy who thinks most girls are patronizing, dogmatic, manipulative little children on ego trips. And won't take it any more.-I hearby refuse to cater to a girl who constantly insults ...
Posted by X - Factor on Fri, 27 Jan 2006 12:04:00 PST