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About Me

How do we describe our life with out sounding stupid? You see i believe that we can not control how people perceive us only how we appear to people. It is like either they will find something in you they like or they will not care about you because of something they see with in you. As of now i am who i am, issues and all. I look for the good in real people which is hard to do because many people clam to be real, yet hesitate to admit that them selves have issues of some sort. I put my self out there you can like it or you hate it. I have gone thru a lot in life for only being 24 many tears shed for the life lessons I have gained. Now that i see the road aheadâ€¦ my biggest step awaiting me is to leap yet again to a blind faith of everything being ok. We can never really know if the decisions we make are the right ones until they are to late to take back. I have been for the last 8 months living my life on hold thinking i had some pennants to pay for a situation that i had no control of. People change for the good and worse. I can honestly say i have changed for the better. I have loved someone so true, so selfless, so hard that it caused physical pain to myself. With all that going on it caused me to lose sight of joy in life. Everyday seems still to be one day closer to the end. Closer to a ending chapter that we call life. I now try to regain some hold on life to not just be here awaiting my dash. Not just here to take space and fill moments for others. Yet to live life for my moments for my memories. Someone who truly loves you takes you for who you are and all things you have issues and all. Yet if they run to protect them self let them. One lesson I wish to pass on to the world Is we are all worth something. We all have a strong suit that we can win any hand life gives. I lost mineâ€¦.. Yet I will regain it. I will never lose for I am the strong willed.Ajay 1983-2008 A.J. 2008-???? (Life takes change to grow and learn. Let it happen and regain your worth to your self.)

My Interests

My interests are very few... I love to work out run mainly. I feel as if running will free my soul of any problems that might be blocking my thoughts. I love to coach my kids...

I'd like to meet:

I would love to meet people that are not shady that do not have hidden agendas. I am over people always trying to start bullshit with in your world. As if to tell you i like you only because i can cause you unbelievable pain.Many days start the same. In fact all of them do. It is the actions that we take in our first breaths that will lead our day to the outcome of becoming one to love or hate. One to say thank you God for today or Ask why God...Why today.If you read this far along. I would love to meet you. Maybe you might have some insightful ideas about life that others have yet come to realization's about. Please share and feel free to comment on what ever you feel that you might find on my page. Others may have read something in their journey's I am all yearsView All Friends | View Blog | Add Comment

Music:

Maria MenaMatt WertzRyan TedderElliot YaminMatt WhiteSara Bareilles

Movies:

The Note Book, The Last Holiday, Fantastic Four, Superman, The wedding Planner....

Television:

I live for Project RunWay, So You Think You Can Dance, and Heros..... Just to name a few

Books:

Books from:Gary Chapam TenZin Gyatso Zygmunt Bauman Ralph Ellis Luigi Pirandello

Heroes:

My borther. He has gone through so much in his short time in life. Yet looks to everyday with a fresh start. How i wish i could have learned that lesson soon.

My Blog

The hundred year old tree

The things i have seen with in my years bring me such joy, Yet so many times i cry alone. Hundreds of memories with in my rings yet not one to look forward to with in this new life. &nb...
Posted by A.J. on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 12:32:00 PST

pain and love

Today like most days was one to forget. I am sure many of you thought i would say remember. Yeah that is how the saying goes but with me nothing is like it seems. I have come to find that people are j...
Posted by A.J. on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 08:16:00 PST

FORMER

I sit there watching lives run on. With no stopping not missing a beat. Yet i hold mine on pause. Paused for a life lost that was not lived as gods plan. Someone once told me if you wish to hear God l...
Posted by A.J. on Tue, 08 Jan 2008 12:31:00 PST

1-2008

What is a new year when you have a life that was lived within a year of pain and fear. Pain for a lost love. Pain for a memory never able to be relived the same way again. Pain for the thought of your...
Posted by A.J. on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 11:30:00 PST

short story

Once upon a time long ago. A young man moved to a new place. Moved by fear and sadness. He found him self in a place where he knew no one. Not one soul. We will not get in to the small things. Just kn...
Posted by A.J. on Sat, 22 Dec 2007 08:19:00 PST

The Eye of mind

I question the intention of heaven on the relativeness to make end of what has transpired. I look not on the past nor the future only lost in the present. The journey is what brings us happiness not ...
Posted by A.J. on Fri, 21 Dec 2007 10:22:00 PST

The start of the end

Today like other days has come and gone. Same shit as every other day. I dont really have anything to say i just know my life is starting for the first time. To led me to the end. I hope no one in the...
Posted by A.J. on Sat, 06 Oct 2007 08:23:00 PST

life in retro

We look at our lives in a daily way at times. Yet i cant help but think that we should look at our lives in days past. What we have learned from those day. What we took from that day. Even if that day...
Posted by A.J. on Sat, 29 Sep 2007 07:38:00 PST

MINE ALL MINE

Mine all mine. What a perfect title for a song. The words the way the rhythm goes. As if it was truth speaking words that could be heard. I feel so much pain still many ask as to why it has not subsid...
Posted by A.J. on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 10:30:00 PST

Wow

I come back with such hope such strength all to be knocked down again by the life i live here in this city. Maybe it is time i just move and see what else i need to do. But we talked about that alread...
Posted by A.J. on Sun, 23 Sep 2007 08:48:00 PST