30 years old is here and well...I don't feel much different. Moved to Atlanta in November so I guess that is different but other than that I still have two arms, two legs, a head, and a tail...ohh wait..no tail...never mind. Life has opened up a whole new world for me at the 30. People take me a bit more serious(which makes messin with em that much more fun) and I have a whole new decade too look forward to. I have had a lot of peopel ask me if i was sad about no more 20's or even teens...My answer to that is HELL NO!!! If you had known me when I was younger knew that I struggled with a lot of things and I am much happier now that I have come to terms with a lot of that stuff and got my head on straight. I'm ready to be 40 and I don't wanna be younger so I just I'm just at the right place at the right time huh?
Though I haven't changed these in a while just wanted to share a little piece of me with the rest of the world...I hope these poems I wrote can mean as much to you as they do to me....commecnts questions and suggestions are always welcome...p's out and luv's ya allz
I am the bees, the flowers, and the trees,
I am an actor on stage with the world watching me,
I am the sky and the clouds up above,
I am hate, I am anger, I am courage, I am love.
From the cool grass fields to the hot desert sands,
From right across the way to far away lands,
From the highest peak to the bottomless blue,
From the ends of the galazy and all its neighbors too.
I am the wind that filled Columbus' Sails,
I am the fuel that feeds the fires of hell,
I am part of the places I've never been,
I am all that is good, I am all that is sin.
To the hallways that empty after that first summer day,
To the roses that wilt when winter comes their way,
To the planes in the air and the cars on the street,
To the people I know and the ones I'll never meet.
I am everything that comes in contact with me,
I am even a piece of things that will never be,
I am the hand thats shows loving and care,
I am the bomb that rains terror from the air.
Everything that has been or never was,
Makes up the things that one says and one does,
So until the day that existance gives its last cry,
You will kow the answer to "who am I?"
Scott Deluke 2004
Do you ever ask yourself who you are? I still try to figure that out all the time and this is what I have come up with. I'm made of flesh and bone and I make mistakes jsut like everyone else. The question I don't think should be, who am I?, It should be, What do I want to become? But don't choose anything stupid like a bowl or a duck...been there, tried that...doesn't look good on a resume...
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Scott Eugene Thomas Dublin Earle Deluke
Birthday: 11/19/1976
Birthplace: San Antonio, TX
Current Location: Nashville, Tn
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Height: short 5'8
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: scottish/irish
The Shoes You Wore Today: vans
Your Weakness: sunsets, fudge, snow, a great smile, and puppies
Your Fears: George Bush, not knowing, and Spam
Your Perfect Pizza: cheese and bacon
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get back in school and starting to earn my teaching certificate
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: stfu
Thoughts First Waking Up: depends on which side of the bed i get up on = )
Your Best Physical Feature: I guess that more for you to decide
Your Bedtime: whenever---though when teaching earlier than i would like
Your Most Missed Memory: uuuhhhh....hhhhmmmmm...wellll........
Pepsi or Coke: coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: niether
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: frapaccino = )
Do you Smoke: quit a year ago
Do you Swear: a bit
Do you Sing: i try
Do you Shower Daily: yup
Have you Been in Love: painfully yes
Do you want to go to College: have been and going back
Do you want to get Married: for sure
Do you belive in yourself: more so every day
Do you get Motion Sickness: only on tuesdays and thrusdays
Do you think you are Attractive: look wise im average but my personality makes up for it
Are you a Health Freak: nope....though i beliee in taking care of yourself ( to a point )
Do you get along with your Parents: finally I do.....thank god
Do you like Thunderstorms: who doesnt?
Do you play an Instrument: guitar( alittle) and used to be a DJ
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yup
In the past month have you Smoked: nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: i took the little purple pill = P
In the past month have you gone on a Date: depends on what you call a date
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: prob about once a week i head out to the concrete jungle to people watch
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no...but ive eaten a BAG of oreos
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: not this month and prob not next month...or the month after that...so on and so forth
In the past month have you been on Stage: im always on the stage of life
In the past month have you been Dumped: no...but my dog turned his tail up and me nad walked away
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: heh...do you have to be skinny to skinny dip?
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope
Ever been Drunk: too many times
Ever been called a Tease: is this a trick question? if not than yes
Ever been Beaten up: twice
Ever Shoplifted: yup
How do you want to Die: i dont...at least not yet
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a teacher
What country would you most like to Visit: Puru
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: all
Favourite Hair Color: all
Short or Long Hair: long
Height: 5'10 and under
Weight: depends on the persons build
Best Clothing Style: a style that fits the person
Number of Drugs I have taken: cant count that high-----but clean fora long time now
Number of CDs I own: 200+
Number of Piercings: 2
Number of Tattoos: 2
Number of things in my Past I Regret: how can you regret the things that make you...you?
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
Wash it All Away
Sometimes we try to hide our fears,
run from all our pain and tears,
in the hopes that all the passing years,
will wash it all away.
Sometimes we try to hide our lies,
we cover them from others eyes,
and only pray to keep our disguise,
as we wash it all away.
Sometimes we try to push away,
the things that haunt us day by day,
I just wish there was a better way,
to wash it all away.
If only deep within could they see,
all the thing inside of me,
so that i could again be free,
and wash it all away.
Scott Eugene Deluke
Copyright 2005 Scott Eugene Deluke
