About Me
I am everything you least expect.
If you didn't know me then, you will never know me now.
I dare you to try to get close.
Just be prepared for one hell of a trip.
"Paranoid and comatose for so many years, today I
sustain the battle scars of Alloy Nation: head-banger's
syndrome - a herniated disk in my neck; basal cell
carcinoma from body surfing under the black-hole sun.
I've lost my tweeters too - a 10 percent hearing loss
in my right ear from recreational gunshot. Knee
injuries from dancing in my leopard print skin spikes,
TMJ (temporomandibular jaw) from the involuntary teeth
grinding of childhood ampthetamine addiction, and IBS
(irritable bowel syndrome) from bourbon on an empty
stomach. I armed myself against the terror of everyday
life with an arsenal of knives, guns, and advanced
degrees. And still I needed more.
Strung out, hunting down redemption, I felt like shit
for most of my life.
And then I had to start all over again. Running on
empty, looking for a fix and a kiss, I did what I had
to do, filling the hole, filling the hole.
Carl Jung said the greatest fear human beings have is
of unconditional self-acceptance. That we might
actually come to know ourselves in the context of an
alienating, other-directed, consumerist society seems
daunting. How do we figure out who we are? For most of
my life, music was the only way to connect that wouldnt
eventually kill me. Living Colour guitarist Vernon Reid
once remarked, "people just say to be yourself. But if
you really do that, it's the most threatening,
subversive thing you can do." That's a sociological
statement, a fact. Finding the courage to be yourself
is a critical social act. Stand tall, do or die.
Usually it hurts."
Übergehen Sie Realität.
Don't Hold Back.
Live. Dont Exsist.
