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Johnny Martyr

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About Me

MARTYR Complex
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
In popular psychology, a person who has a MARTYR Complex desires the feeling of being a MARTYR for its own sake, seeking out suffering or persecution because it feeds a psychological need. [edit] Exaggerated desire for self-sacrifice
In an interpersonal relationship, a person with a " MARTYR Complex" may willfully suffer in the name of love or duty. Sometimes the suffering may be a result of putting up with abuse or neglect; in other cases the suffering is self-inflicted. It is sometimes regarded as a form of masochism.
There are two kinds of this MARTYR Complex.
1.) A person may consider himself worthless, feeling that his sole purpose in life is to serve the other; he finds pride in doing so. This is associated with an inferiority complex.
2.) A person may feel undervalued and taken for granted because he gives so much and puts up with so much in return; this is often associated with a superiority complex. A person in this situation seeks other people to feel pity for him, saying things like "I gave her everything, and she ruined my life." While posing as altruists, such people are in fact self-centered and manipulative. Their behavior is a kind of passive-aggressive behavior.
A MARTYR Complex can often accompany codependence, such as in a relationship in which each person feels validated by putting up with the other. [edit] Self-victimization
A MARTYR Complex can also be a tendency to feel that one is being singled out for persecution. It is often characterized by the belief that one's persecution is the result of exceptional integrity.
OR, complexes aside--a MARTYR is simply "a person who is put to death or endures great suffering on behalf of any belief, principle, or cause"

My Interests

seeing silent movies with live scores • Zombie Movies • Upside-Down Kisses • Sappo Hill Soap • instant noodles • fake meat • cute girls with acne-scarred faces and nice bodies • vintage kitchen appliances • black-cherry sodas • red-headed vegetarian chicks • electric fans from the 1920's • toe separators • stealing signs • exploring abandoned buildings • Patchouli • Smiling at Strangers • Strangers Smiling at Me • Germany • Peeing On Things • Root Beer and Bacon Cheese Burgers • Air-Cooled Volkswagens • Antique Furniture • Classic Cameras • Roomba • Film • Video • Theatre • Cute/Beautiful/Interesting/Tough/Opinionated Women • Nature • Computer Sociology • Steel Toe Boots • Manual Labour • Being 'Lazy' • Reading • Thrift Stores • Bad Dancing • Talking Fast For Hours • Rubbing Alcohol • Pears Soap • Helping People • Tight Hugs • Writing • Myself • Noticing and Pointing out things that other people don't Notice or Point out • Thinking • Being Alone • Old Radios • Breaking Things • Repairing Things • Photography • Photojournalism • Documentary Film • Experimental Film • Environmentalism • Fucking Alexanti-corporate • anti-war • accidental touching of people i don't usually touch • Backscratches & Blowjobs • habits • biting my fingernails • art galleries • idealism • primitivism • Luddite • love • brutal honesty • gentle honesty • questions of morality • drinking but not getting drunk • being outside • watching tv • breaking tv's • multi-tool • vice-grips • organic food • natural ingredients • scratching inside of my ears • painting my nails • making out hard but not having sex • driving sans socks & shoes • minimalism • redundancy • repetitiveness • multi-syllabic words and compound sentences • kids • imported beer • Roadtrips • looking out windows • Getting Myself into rEdiculous Social Situations • watching people in public places •remembering distant people and happenings but forgetting recent ones • time travel • cutting people off verbally in excitement • fast talking • Putting My Feet On Things • organization • doing nothing • Dreaming • People Randomly Calling & Especially Stopping By • screaming • trying to be peaceful & compassionate • being useful clever & charming

I'd like to meet:

my profile used to say "Everyone" here but now i'm reconsidering that concept. i would still like to meet everyone but first, and more urgently, i'd like to meet people who i am not afraid to be myself around and tell the truth to. i'd like to meet people who have some sort of insightful and compassionate advice for me both to apply to myself and to pass onto others. i hope that i'll be able to do something similar for them. i'd like to meet people who dream, live and love big. and after i meet these people, and we talk, maybe they'll influence me to go on and do the same and vice versa.

Music:

Gwen Stefani • Bright Eyes • Sarah McLaughlin • Tori Amos • Oasis • the Smashing Pumpkins • Ani DiFranco • Fountains of Wayne • The Tragically Hip • MORRISSEY • THE CURE • Elliott Smith • Sonic Youth • The Faint • Depeche Mode • Joy Division • Belle and Sebastion • NEW ORDER • Peter Murphy • Trust Obey • Siouxsie and the Banshees • the Smiths • David Bowie • Pitch Shifter • Republica • Pink Floyd • Tom Petty • MY BLOODY VALENTINE • the Clash • the Sex Pistols • Stabbing Westward • My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult • Sky Blue Baby • the Supremes • R.E.M. • Simon and Garfunkel • Sheryl Crow • MAZZY STAR • Miles Davis • Bauhaus • This Mortal Coil • the Spice Girls • Billie Holiday • Gin Blossoms • Candlebox • Hanzel Und Gretyl • Jewel • Stars • Broken Social Scene • The Flaming Lips

Movies:

Juno • Reign over Me • War of the Worlds • Self Examination Through the Mechanical Eye • Tout Va Bien • Disturbing Behavior • Children of Men • Die Blechtrommel • Diarios de Motocicleta • I heart Huckabees • Crazy Beautiful • The Science of Sleep • Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind • The China Syndrome • Some Kind of Wonderful • The Last House on the Left • East of Eden • the Door in the floor • the squid and the whale • Fail-Safe • Gia • Girl, Interrupted • Hope Floats • Step Mom • Swing Kids • THX 1138 • Garden State • Crash • Baby Cue • You Me and Everyone We Know • Being John Malkovich • the Man with the Movie Camera • As Good as it Gets • Lost Highway • Night of the Living Dead • Ghost World • Headcleaner • La Jetti • the 400 Blows • Amelie • Edward Scissorhands • Carnal Knowledge • Taxi Driver • Pretty In Pink • Songs From the 13th Floor • Se7en • 12 Monkies • Lost in Translation • Dancer in the Dark • Breaking the Waves • David Holzman's Diary • What Dreams May Come • Koyannisquatsi • Metropolis • the Golem • Love Actually • Open Your Eyes • Vanilla Sky • Sid and Nancy • Midnight Cowboy • the Filth and the Fury • I Am Cuba • Something's Gotta Give • The Celebration • One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest • The Way of the Gun • Erin Brockovich • 28 Days Later • Run Lola Run • Elephant

Television:

The Girls Next Door • Flipping Out • Bob Ross • House • Pinks • Extreme 4x4 • Six Feet Under • Law and Order SVU • My So-Called Life • The Maxx • Quantum Leap • Count Duckula • Dangermouse • first seasons of Monk • X-Files • Dobie Gillis • Dennis the Menace • Mystery Science Theatre 3000 • The Daily Show • The Cobert Report • the Simple Life • Sex and the City • Mythbusters

Books:

I Am Legend by Matheson • The Virtue of Selfishness by Rand • Girl Interrupted by Kassen • The Power of Now by Tolle • Imaginary Landscape by Thompson • Catcher in the Rye by Salinger • Howl by Ginsberg • Scatterd Poems by Kerouac • Jonathan Livingston Seagull by Bach • Picnic Lightning by Collins • Frankenstein by Shelley • Ariel by Plath • One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Kesey • Technopoly by Postman • Kino Eye by Vertov • Walden by Thoreau

My Blog

IMDB

haha, i didn't realise i was on imdb...http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0381485/http://www.imdb.co m/name/nm2650227/
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Mon, 05 May 2008 09:48:00 PST

My Current Camera List

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Posted by Johnny Martyr on Thu, 01 May 2008 12:07:00 PST

no more

this is the last tyme i will type my blog from my first real home. the g4 that i'm typing on now has been sitting here on my 1969 steelcase desk for the past two years in my second apartment and the ...
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 04:30:00 PST

sometyme

sometymes you have enough moneysometymes you don'tsometymes you are ecstatic in lovesometymes you're notsometymes you are alone in a room full of peoplesometymes you feel like profoundly connected to ...
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 08:25:00 PST

just listen.

to everyone to whom i haven't replied recently or seem out of touch or missing in general,i'm not sure what is happening with me lately but i know that it happens from tyme to tyme yet always feels pe...
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 08:10:00 PST

Freebie Five

1. Jewel Kilcher2. Mariska Hargitay3. Gillian Anderson4. Gweneth Paltrow5. The Spice Girls
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 12:39:00 PST

Everybody’s Free (to wear sunscreen)

joe posted this today and i just thought my blog audience would also enjoy it!as i left on his blog, i graduated high school in 1999 and i’m being nostalgic about how good those tymes were in ju...
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 08:25:00 PST

New Years Resolution

i know it’s a little late into the year but i figure that the passed two years have more or less been a wash up for me. so i’m starting now.1. when i say i’m going to go out with p...
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Fri, 04 Apr 2008 09:02:00 PST

Land Rover?

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Posted by Johnny Martyr on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 10:13:00 PST

who was right, ben or harry?

good question--and one i think about often when watching notld.i think the beautiful thing about the story is that, had our lead male characters cooperated instead of arguing that one was better, they...
Posted by Johnny Martyr on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 07:36:00 PST