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ryan

suisidal_idiot

About Me

I have delusions of grandeur. And by grandeur I mean patheticness and by delusions I mean reality.
I'd like to think that when I walk down the street and receive stares it's because I look like a child-eating, malicious, heart breaking monster but I always feel like I have something on my face instead.
I claim that I'm a writer but I'm probably not.
I don't - and won't - post pictures of myself and neither should you.
If music were a boy, I would marry him.

My Interests

I answer stupid questions with "fuck off". So, fuck off

I'd like to meet:

everybody! just kidding. I can't stand most of humanity. That being said... Rock stars because they make me want to take off my clothes and that's always just fan-fucking-fastic, Trent Reznor, Satan, Chuck Palahniuk, Holden Caufield, Hitler (I would have oodles of fun kicking his ass), The Beatles (yes even McCarthy), Pink Floyd (yes even Gilmour), Layne Staley, Kurt Vonnegut, Gordon Campbell (fucktard), Kurt Cobain (I swear he's still alive), Fox Mulder, Dana Scully, Hamlet, insane psychopaths (for educational purposes), Craig Clevenger, The Spice Girls, Jesus seemed like a pretty cool dude and of course my stalker... so do you fit in?

Music:

My CD collection: Alice In Chains, A Perfect Circle, Louis Armstrong, Audioslave, Autolux, the Beatles, Beck, Big Wreck, Johnny Cash, Champion, The Clash, Closure, Coldplay, John Coltrane, Cresent Heights, Death From Above 1979, Default, Deftones, Depeche Mode, Duke Ellington, Ella Fitzgerald, Evanescene, Eve 6, Foo Fighters, Godsmack, Gorillaz, Billie Holiday, Iron Maiden, Kasabian, Korn, Linkin Park, Mad Season, Marilyn Manson, Matthew Good Band, Metallica, Metric, Michael Buble, Mudvayne, Nickelback, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, Oasis, Papa Roach, Pink Floyd, Queen, Queens of the Stone Age, Radiohead, Rage Against the Machine, Ray Charles, Seether, Sigur Ros, Frank Sinatra, Slipknot, Elliot Smith, Snow Patrol, Soundgarden, Spice Girls, Stabilo , Staind, Stone Temple Pilots, Suspect, Switchfoot, System of A Down, Theory Of A Deadman, Yann Tiersen, Tool, Trike, U2, Wilco, The Who... I would also marry Sinatra's voice if I could

Movies:

Way too many to remember and name. Thank You For Smoking, Bowling For Columbine, Life of Brian, Fight Club, Reservoir Dogs, Ghost World, Little Miss Sunshine, Art School Confidential, Storytelling, Life Is Beautiful, A Very Long Engagement (absolutely stunning), Vanilla Sky, City Of God, Airheads, Memento, American Beauty, The Legend of 1900, The Corporation, Amelie, Eulogy, Million Dollar Baby, Natural Born Killers, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Full Metal Jacket, Suicide Club, Crash, Serenity, 21 Grams, Cinema Paradiso...

Television:

X-Files, Twilight Zone (old old version), House, CSI (the original damnit!), Dead Like Me, Firefly, South Park, Lost, Arrested Development, Wonderfalls, The Lone Gunmen... I watch way too much Futurama

Books:

Anything that's good. Kurt Vonnegut: Slaughter-house Five, Breakfast of Champions. Philip K. Dick - A Scanner Darkly, The Man in the High Castle. Douglas Coupland: Girlfriend In A Coma, Generation X, Hey Nostradamus!, Eleanor Rigby. Flicker - Theodore Roszak. Chuck Palahniuk: Fight Club, Survivor, Invisible Monsters, Diary (highly underrated), Stranger than Fiction, Haunted. Christopher Buckley: Thank You For Smoking, Boomsday, Little Green Men. Will Christopher Baer: Kiss Me Judas, Penny Dreadful, Hell's Half Acre. Joseph Heller - Catch 22. Catcher In the Rye - J.D. Salinger. Craig Clevenger: The Contortionists Handbook, Dermaphoria (so goddamn beautiful). Chuck Klosterman: Sex, Drugs and Coca-Puffs, Killing Yourself To Live, IV. George Orwell: 1984, Animal Farm. Drown - Junot Diaz. Running With Scissors - Augusten Burroughs... random books I find at the library that I don't remember (not in a bad way it's just I have a shitty memory) No matter how old I get I can never grow tired of Christopher Pike

Heroes:

Satan. No really.

My Blog

Insult of the day

A single pin on my Lite-Brite is brighter than you.  
Posted by ryan on Thu, 24 Apr 2008 02:49:00 PST

Chasing Butterflies

    The wind obliterates my face making me deaf, blind, numb and maybe in the long run, dumb. Every mile, second and cheap motel room of the road brings me either farther or closer to y...
Posted by ryan on Sun, 23 Dec 2007 12:19:00 PST

A Paradox

It starts with the memories I pocket as I getlost in the early morning, when my mind is trickedbecause it feels like night and I'm making my way home.Once upon a time, I used to sleep, so I'd put thos...
Posted by ryan on Tue, 13 Nov 2007 01:09:00 PST

Apocalypse Radio

    It's the end of the world and all everybody wants to do is fuck.  Call me crude but it's you who wants it.  Call me rude and I'll tell you it's true.  It all started ...
Posted by ryan on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 07:23:00 PST

Opposites Attract

What it comes down tois fire and waterday and nightand all the elements in betweenLife is a tragedy with mere moments of comedyAnd while you live in the momentDeath is on my mindYou dance around me fr...
Posted by ryan on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 01:19:00 PST

Imaginary Friends

******** The following piece was one of those write a line and pass it onto the next person assignments.  Participating was myself, Aaron, "ink", this chick named Robyn and a dude who fucked up a...
Posted by ryan on Tue, 28 Aug 2007 07:36:00 PST

Stupid People

You know, I don't have a lot of faith in humanity in the first place but I would really, really, really like to.  HOWEVER, when I see stupid people whether it be on the street, the news or on mys...
Posted by ryan on Sun, 22 Jul 2007 03:36:00 PST

So it begins... (again)

Staying up until the hint of first light.  And with my eyes closed the darkness is blurred by fuzzy dots moving around frantically like a television screen that's lost it's connection.  I'm ...
Posted by ryan on Wed, 18 Jul 2007 07:42:00 PST

.... you

        you are here                        here you are        &...
Posted by ryan on Sun, 27 May 2007 02:58:00 PST

Collapsing Contradiction

It's all in the words you use,the language you speak.And I can't help but feelthat my words aren't good enough for me, you or them.The words are contagious,flying away from paper and becoming airborne...
Posted by ryan on Tue, 01 May 2007 05:06:00 PST