knock knock i'm in this bitch

straight edge, god free, vegetarian.
i used to start my about me with "my life is a steady pattern of let down after let down," but i never realized that i was the person allowing my life to give me let downs. i set myself up for situations that can lead nowhere but down. lately i've been trying to stray away from my old self. i am sick and tired of having to hate everything and everyone. it's gotten me absolutley nowhere. chances are i've let you down at some point in my life. it hurts to see peoples faces after you've failed them. however, i do not regret the mistakes i have made in my life. they taught me valuable lessons and without them i wouldn't be where i am today. i had to hit complete rock bottom before i realized that my life was truely getting out of hand. i believe you learn life's greatest lessons through your mistakes so i am grateful for the mistakes i've made. it doesn't matter to me how bad the consequences were, i learned my lesson and grew from my mistake. whether it takes you two weeks or thirty years, just be glad you learned something from your mistake. i've known so many great people throughout my life and i am only sixteen years old. i look forward to meeting new wonderful people that can fill me with useful knowledge and love. most people that i have known have left my life due to nothing but my own mistakes. i used to delete people without a second thought, but now i find myself trying to hold onto everyone. i never seem to realize how much i loved, wanted, or needed anything until it is gone. in the past few months i have been blessed with a handful of new friends that have impacted my life incredibly. they've showed me what it feels like to be happy and to love. i don't live my life searching for the bad in people anymore, i now look for the good and embrace it. i've realized recentley that i want nothing more out of my life than to love the people who want to be loved, or who deserve it. i want to give rather than recieve. i'm not just talking about material things, but everything. what nobody ever seems to realize is that nothing will matter in the end. our clothing styles, the music we listened to, the friends we had, how cool we were, who we had ill thoughts towards, will not make a difference. all that matters here, now, and forever is the love we have in our life. whether it is coming from your family, friends, or special someone it is a precious thing. it's all we have in the end. be yourself, show the world who you really are, chances are you are something great. don't be afraid to show yourself & truely shine. everyone was meant to, we're all just to afraid. live to your full potential & make a difference in the world. what's holding you back?
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