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[ a l i c i a ]

Sometimes you have to take one step back to make a major leap forward.

About Me


On the outside I am an outgoing, loud, witty, female. I love attention though I dont really like to be in the spotlight (as weird as that may sound). My favorite thing to do is laugh. I live for those long conversations where it just flows and occasionally makes you laugh so hard you cry. I love deep, intimate, thought-provoking, conversations with loved ones. I love the feeling of bonding with someone, because it doesnt happen often for me. The inside scoop is that I analyze (ok..ok..over-analyze) situations and people down to the very word, action and gesture. I have the tendencies to be both emotional and a bit sarcastic. I dont like to put up with bull. I hate arrogance, but I love confidence. Im quick to judge because I trust my instincts. I have many associates, but very few "friends", and those who make it in become like family to me. I would do anything for those I truly allow in my inner circle. "Some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes far more strength just to let go." Once our hearts get broken, they never fully heal. They always ache. But perhaps a broken heart is a more loving instrument. Perhaps only after our hearts have cracked wide open, have finally and totally unclenched, can we truly know love without boundaries. "Sometimes when I'm alone I cry cuz I'm on my own. The tears I cry are bitter and warm; they flow with life but take no form. I cry because my heart is torn. I find it difficult to carry on. If I had an ear to confide in, I would cry among my treasured friend. But who do you know that stops that long to help another carry on? The world moves fast and it would rather pass by than to stop & see what makes one cry. So painful and sad..and sometimes I cry and no one cares about why." -Tupac I've gone through more in 26 years than some go through in a lifetime. I wouldn't change one experience. I love the person I am. The good with the bad, I cherish it all. I appreciate and focus on all the positive things I have to offer any person in my life as well as recognizing, working on and/or accepting the negative. The past year...the past few months...the past couple of days...hell, the past few hours have brought forth significant changes and growth in my journey to become the woman I am meant to be. I am a work in progress and I am thankful for every moment of this process. In general, it took years to get where I am and the outcome is irreversable. I'm extremely flirtatious and c0cky; talk to me and you may occasionally view me as naive and insecure but in the blink of an eye you'll realize I'm most likely one of the strongest people you've ever met. I've been told I cut glass with my words and break spirits with my eyes.I love to laugh but I'm far from afraid to cry. Im emotional and moody yet goofy as hell and I'd do just about anything to make people laugh. I've learned that each new relationship gets deeper and feels stronger and each goodbye hurts more than the last. But even when you're at your lowest point, there's always tomorrow and you'll get over your past. "they say if you love something you've got to let it go. and if it comes back then it means so much more. but if it never does, at least you will know.... that it was something you had to go through to grow" -heather headley I can count on one hand the number of people I have ever trusted to really get close. These people are my life support. They get my all, no matter what. I know from experience that nothing will ever change that. Each of them played an amazing, unique and distinct role in my life & I don't know where I would be without any of them. I love them all with everything I have. To all the new people in my life, if you can't make me laugh - you won't keep my attention. If you cant engage in an intellectual conversation - you won't gain my respect. And if you give me what I want - I'll become bored with you quickly. I'm always up for a challenge, are you? "A real man doesn`t make love to one thousand women; he takes one woman and makes love to her one thousand ways..." Looking for new friends...I dont care where you are..what you look like...just be FUNNY and have the ability to form complete sentences. If you send me illegible notes, I won't respond. Not being arrogant, but I refuse to break a sweat trying to work my way through ignorance. Half assed notes just won't work here. Not looking for love on here at all, but trust me, there are plenty of other chicks on MySpace who are...go find one of them. Hell, I could actually introduce you to a few. And I'm always looking for those Ive lost contact with over the years. (ps. If youre not sure whether I liked you back in the day or not...I probably didnt..proceed with caution.) ~ ~ ~ ~

My Interests

I love animals, playing cards, video games and designing web graphics. If I didn't write, I probably wouldn't have made it through half the shit I have. I love to laugh and I hate serious people.

ALL ABOUT DSM
Name: alicia.
Birthday: 8.17.80 @ 8:49 pm (leo sun with a scorpio moon...that's quite vicious)
Birthplace: jersey city, nj
Current Location: duncan projects.
Eye Color: greenish brown.
Hair Color: brown.
Height: 5'3 1/2
Right Handed or Left Handed: depends on what im doing. :)
Your Heritage: puerto rican & portuguese.
The Shoes You Wear The Most: Nike Airs or stilettos, depends on my mood.
Your Weakness: a man who can really make me laugh.
Your Fears: losing a loved one. mice. but most of all, my thoughts
Your Perfect Pizza: extra cheese & sausage.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: learn to put myself first without feeling guilty
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: word?
Thoughts First Waking Up: i gotta pee.
Your Best Physical Feature: some say eyes. some say smile. some say titties. i say all three.
Your Bedtime: whenever i fall asleep.
Your Most Missed Memory: i honestly can't pick just one.
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi.
MacDonalds or Burger King: ehh. they're equal.
Single or Group Dates: mmm that depends. most likely id wanna be one on one
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: crystal light
Chocolate or Vanilla: men = chocolate / ice cream, etc. = vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: white hot chocolate
Do you Smoke: wow. would you believe me if i said yes?
Do you Swear: yes, im a bit of a potty mouth.
Do you Sing: yes, just not well.
Do you Shower Daily: smell me & tell me
Have you Been in Love: next question.
Do you want to go to College: mm, a tech/computer school maybe.
Do you want to get Married: only if its with the man im genuinely in love with.
Do you belive in yourself: lol..no, but i BELIEVE in myself. skip must have typed up this questionaire. *sigh*
Do you get Motion Sickness: depends on the motion. :)
Do you think you are Attractive: do you? ;)
Are you a Health Freak: not right now, but i was a vegan for 7 months in 2004 *sigh*
Do you get along with your Parents: they're deceased. but i get along well with my gramma, she's my everything.
Do you like Thunderstorms: yeah, they turn me on.
Do you play an Instrument: violin and piano.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes sir.
In the past month have you Smoked: wow.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: ...lol WOW..some of these questions are straight reckless.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: *exhale* yes. ;)
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: a few of them, yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no, but speaking of Oreos, have yall tried the Golden Oreos?? They're knockin!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: lol...QQn @ skip.
In the past month have you been on Stage: no, but im always in the spotlight.
In the past month have you been Dumped: negative. and i did the dumping in my last relationship.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: um, no.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: a better question would be what haven't i stolen in the past month?
Ever been Drunk: yeah..but ill always remember my first time.(shouts to nana and khadigga for introducing me to thug passion...lol)
Ever been called a Tease: lol...
Ever been Beaten up: yeah right, im too hood for that. ok maybe once...
Ever Shoplifted: didn't i answer this already?
How do you want to Die: old and loved.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: content.
What country would you most like to Visit: ethiopia.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: *shrugs*
Favourite Hair Color: *shrugs*
Short or Long Hair: depends on the dude/lady.
Height: depends on the dude/lady. (but i prefer tall men and short ladies tho)
Weight: depends on the dude/lady.
Best Clothing Style: just be presentable.
Number of Drugs I have taken: um, what?
Number of CDs I own: over 300.
Number of Piercings: 8
Number of Tattoos: just one for now
Number of things in my Past I Regret: over 10...but under 100

I'd like to meet:


stalk my friends.
see who says shit to me.

Music:

MARY J. BLIGE!!!!!!!!!!!
Old School R&B, Teedra Moses - (WILL YALL PLEASE STOP SLEEPING ON THIS WOMAN!!!), Mariah Carey (sometimes i really wanna slap her for reading my mind.), Christina Milian, Jill Scott, Stylistics, Heather Headley, Stevie Wonder, Prince, James Ingram, Lionel Richie, Jay-Z, Whitney Houston, Janet Jackson, Brandy, Common, Smokey Robinson, Ready For The World, Eminem, Musiq Soulchild, Talib Kweli, SWV, Xscape, Deniece Williams, Im even starting to feel Beyonce, and of course, Michael Jackson.

Movies:

Eddie Murphy's Delirious, Eddie Murphy's Raw, Baby Boy, Runteldat, Sister Act, Training Day

Television:

I don't really watch much TV anymore, but when I do I love Friends re-runs, I think I might know every episode word for word. Spongebob Squarepants is my crack. Real World & American Idol can have me hooked something serious IF the season is interesting...lately it hasn't. And if I'm PMS'ing, I try to catch Extreme Makeover Home Edition, so I can cry. lol.

Books:

Coldest Winter Ever by Sistah Souljah ( i love that book - literally read it over 5 times), I cant list all my favorite books so I'll list my favorite authors..Omar Tyree, Eric Jerome Dickey, Zane, Sistah Souljah, Terry McMillan, Mary B. Morrison, Karen E. Quinones Miller, Shannon Holmes...There are a lot more, but i literally own every book each of these authors has written.

Heroes:

My gramma. She is truly the strong woman I aspire to be.

My Blog

My first blog..400 things about DSM. :)

1. Spell your name. Alicia Brianna Youknowitifyouneedto2. Spell your name backwards: Otdeenuoyfitiwonkuoy Annairb Aicila 3. Date of birth: 8.17.80 @ 8:49 pm4. Male or female? Imma laydeee5. Astrologic...
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