[#229] Jem Asphyxiation !

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#229;houndoom.
mendacem memorem esse oportere.
a liar better have a good memory.
I could let my affections flow to my fingertips,
& pour them all over this keyboard, but I see little use.
For nothing, truthfully, needs to be explained to anyone else.
I feel so strongly for this boy, that I honestly wouldn't know what to write anyway.
Look, Sam.
You're absolutely breathtaking.
& I mean that.
jem.
all hail the heartbreaker.
01/10/1989.
absolutely smitten.
artist.
lip x 5, septum.
commencing tattoo work in near future.
asphyxiation;
noun
1. the condition of being deprived of oxygen (as by having breathing stopped); "asphyxiation is sometimes used as a form of torture" [syn: suffocation]
2. killing by depriving of oxygen [syn: suffocation]
We told her stories of the dread of how it feels to be a man.
lostprophets, alexisonfire, the spill canvas;
silverchair, a day to remember, city & colour;
finch [r.i.p.], mindless self indulgence, a thorn for every heart.
against the overdose, in the shadows [r.i.p.], the jetpack escapee scene.
i've rethought my priorities in life.
everything dawned on me during a D&M,
which made me realize how much i'm fucking myself over.
i'm going back into study next year,
& i'll finish with the best marks possible.
it's about time i took advantage of the potential i have,
of the intelligence i mask from so many of you.
i'm putting my happiness first,
following my own heart & mind.
enough of the worrying,
i'm revamping myself into a ultimately better person;
to have a better outlook on life & everything surrounding.
i'd like to express gratitude to the person whom initiated the turn of mind,
but i'm not sure if he knows he even made an impact.
fama nihil est celerius.
nothing is swifter than rumour.
don't say shit unless you genuinely know me.
sussing me out from a five metre radius does not count as being familiar with me.
bitching behind your hands does not make you any more worthy of a person.
trying to spite me will rarely work, as i'm a bitter soul & will dish it back tenfold,
only i'll handle it with better grace.
i honestly couldn't care what i do,
& to be honest, it shouldn't be half you kids' business.
grow up in a way that'll actually benefit you in the future,
rather than merely drinking your lives away.
don't you dare ask people exactly why they associate with me,
due to how much of a slut, bitch, egotist
or whatever else i apparently am.
if you have a problem with me,
say it to my face, or at least make it obvious.
i swear,
the amount of shit i hear is ridiculous;
sit back & understand that most rumour is simply that:
rumour.
as in an exaggeration,
or plain-out bull.
i killed the prom queen;
rest in peace.
It's amazing how far you boys have gotten since I first started following your music, which was about five or so years ago.
You are, were, fkn brilliant, & a huge inspiration to me, both musically&artistically.
Becoming a fan of your music was what originally spurred me to start the one thing that has kept me drawing these last few years,
what has made me improve so drastically; Asphyxiation Method.
I owe you all so much for that alone.
Best for the future.
Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore.
mors ultima linea rerum est.
death is everything's final limit.