PSYKOSUS

It's a dark place inside my head... That deep corner of your mind you try to avoid is my comfort-zone.. You know the one: The place you shove all those pessimistic thoughts about the existence of man. The place where you doubt God exists. Where you disagree with almost everything you were taught as a child.. Where you try to stick every alleged negative thought or action to hide it away from your memory as if it never happened... Yeah, that one.. Crammed pretty tight, isn't it..? Funny, how you try to shut this part of your brain out, yet we both know it's one of the most honest of places inside your head.. And it doesn't stop working.. It doesn't stop working, because deep-down you know there's something wrong with almost everything and everyone around you.. You can't quite put your finger on it, but it's hard to ignore, isn't it..? You try, though.. Push it away; push it deep down, and forget about it.. I have a hard time doing that. In fact, I don't quite understand how you do it so well... Maybe you don't..? It interests me.I was always that of a quiet observer.. I like to study people. Watch how they talk, how they think, facial expressions, body language, etc. I like to try to get inside their heads. Try to connect, and catch a glimpse of that corner to see if they feel the same way I feel about life in general.. Life fascinates me.. And you can learn a lot just watching.. It amazes me for instance, how people are both 'good' and 'evil'.. Everyone. You. Me.. But if we're all both good and evil; does good and evil exist..? I don't think so. These are questions I often like to ask myself. It fascinates me how we separate aspects of life with a fine-line dividing black and white. I often don't see a line. Everything looks more gray to me when I watch different people operating both sides of the fence. Criminals often honor a code. Cops often don't. Who's wrong..? Anyone could easily argue either way. I see them more of a mirrored-duality. If one can't exist without the other, couldn't that make them the same person looking at their own reflection..?"Perception is reality. Facts are negotiable."I look at religious faiths and belief systems in the same manner.. "Good and Evil". Mirrored-duality. One and the same. On one hand.. Religion offers hundreds of millions of people peace and happiness. On the other hand, I can't think of a single war in the history of man, that wasn't caused directly or indirectly by such religions. Every war on Earth was fought in the name of a god. If it wasn't for God specifically, he was an excuse for it. Most people will argue that it's not Religion that causes war, but the people who manipulate it. If you ask me..? You're right. Men will always need a reason to kill each other, it's human nature to destroy. It's human nature to manipulate the masses as well. How could you manipulate millions of people to fight for your own cause..? Religion. I believe that religion is solely the work of man. The sheep do need a shepherd, right..? Who better than "God"..? You can't undeniably prove it's existence or lack there of. People, or sheeple, for fun, choose faith because it makes life easier.. I think it comforts them when they visit their "dark corners".. If you ask me; it is easier to believe there's something out there that mapped out my entire existence before I was born.. And all I have to do is fear, love, respect, and obey him. Easy, right..? Not for me. It isn't good enough for me. God isn't good enough for me. I'm not a man of faith. My own personal beliefs are result of rational thought. Rational thought is not easy.. It's difficult. It's often callous, and it's the minority. At the end of the day, a Priest, an Imam, or a Rabbi has no more assurance of God than you do. They all have this dark corner.. Do they shut it out..? I don't think so.. But they have God to comfort them and shield them from this corner.. Me..? I like the corner.. I find comfort in the fact that when all's said and done.. No man on Earth knows why we're here, what we're doing, or where we're going... We're all lost in the dark...Psychosis: A severe mental disorder, with or without organic damage, characterized by derangement of personality and loss of contact with reality and causing deterioration of normal social functioning.Psykosus: Poet. Emcee. Performer. Artist. Intelligent, intuitive, and thoughtful. Self-righteous, egocentric, and fiercely argumentative. Positive and hopeful. Dark and cynical -- All wrapped up into one. All of these words make up who I am.I've said many times I don't write poetry for fun. I enjoy what I do, but it is no hobby. I have to write. I feel obligated to do so. I feel I have something to say.. And feel a great deal of responsibility for the effect my work may have on others, but I pull no punches. I never claim to have all the answers, but I do feel I owe it to myself and to you, to show you that you can think differently.. I fear no God, but I own a very powerful sense of morality. I feel we live in a dark world of our own design and we owe it to the following generations to make this world a better place. Contrary to popular belief, I don't feel it can be done via religious faith. Though religion interests me to no end, I feel Man has proved for thousands of years that faith in God does not make you a better human being. My words are often described as dark and hopeless, but if you listen closer I think you will clearly see that my message is a positive one. I'm simply here to offer my voice and thoughts for you to ponder and discuss.Perception is reality. I do not speak the truth. I pursue it. fantasy layout powered by HOT FreeLayouts.com / MyHotComments