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Madeline

I'm a sad old Transsexual . . it hurts sometimes

About Me

I'm a 50 "Several" year old TS from England NOT interested in men who just see anything in a skirt as a green light to sniff and grope around for sex. Switch OFF your hormones fellas and get real ....Madeline's is NOT available and NOT looking right now. I enjoy being a woman BUT to my deepest regret I am currently still living within a mans body. It feels like I'm just using a bunch of oversized bones and this covering of aging skin until something better comes along. In my day (uh ah . here comes a middle aged yarn) things were very different and society was not as tolerant as it is today. So I made my choices and conformed to my families expectations and have suffered quietly ever since.

My Interests

I love being a woman, but I'm a long way from ever doing so full time. I "Dress" but not for any sexual gratification etc. For me, it's a means of expressing myself and for every year that passes the need to do becomes more intensive and the more fustrating "Dressing" becomes. You wouldn't BELIEVE what I put myself through to achieve an image . . .to see my mirrors reflection as a woman and not just an aging man in womens clothes.OH YES WE WOULD ..SHOUT MY SISTERS!!First the shaving . . .I love this . .it makes me feel clean. Then the taping . . pull in the waist . . leaving welts across my chest as I desperately try to create a cleavage. I even use tape to lift my aging face . . remove the wrinkles and character . ."I don't want to see ANY likeness to whom I really am" Found a great Web Site that stocks theatrical makeup where you can buy elasticated stickers that can give you a face lift! . . whow! but they STING and get pulled further by the strong elastic headband I use to raise my eyebrow. The hip pads and false breasts (I have the best CHECK them out) all leave me feeling like a trussed up oven ready chicken . . but worth it if for a moment .. I get the look!So that's what I do . . . PLEASE don't judge me . . .it would not be necessary . .I do that for myself every day.Heavily into photography . . .have always taken pictures but nowadays digital is wonderful. I admit that I'll enhance my photo's BUT what girl wouldn't? To me a little clonning here and paste there are no different from mascara or foundation . . . if it makes you look better then do it.When you wish you're body were different the sometimes you go the whole hog and steal a body you'd like. So I admit I've pasted a few of my faces on other girls places.All my photo's ARE honest and I've posted no "Stolen Bodies" but heh! if I come across a nice one . . .who knows.PLEASE don't judge me . . .I do that all by myself . . every minute . .every hour of every day.

I'd like to meet:

Not really looking to meet anyone .....but interested in making friends via the web

Music:

Guess I'm STILL a Led Zep kinda girl. Dazed and Confused still gives me a tingle all up my back bone ..."Lots of people talking ...pretty few of them know that the soul of a woman was created below" I appreciate all good music Classical to anything just as long as it makes me wanna dance ...tells a story or forms pictures in my mind.

Movies:

Weepies ....Nuns Story with Audrey Hepburn ...Breakfast at Tiffanys ... Epics like The Big Country (When the music starts I wanna jump on a horse and ride!!) Shindlers List makes you understand the evil and goodness in our world. Lord of the Rings and all time favourite is Blade Runner.

Television:

Most of it is crap ...

Books:

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Heroes:

I guess my heroes (sorry . .heroines) are other T girls ESPECIALLY those few who have the courage to take the final step. Here's to the Angels who are fully fledged everywhere.

My Blog

Whow!! . . . my first thousand profile views

It's nice that people are taking the time to view my page but a few comments would be nice. So COME ON post a message . . good OR bad. I know you're looking . . . now tell me what you think?  ...
Posted by Madeline on Fri, 27 Jul 2007 08:39:00 PST