MANCHESTER, NJ SCUM. stay away!
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no i'm not going to message you when i add you. and i don't care if you message me without sending me one. and yes i did write all of this myself. first of all this is not an essay. it is grammatically incorrect and lacking in capital letters. it contains an overwhelming amount of repetitive sentence structure and the format is merely an organized matter extracted from the way my thoughts are organized, with transition and subject relation between each subject but without conclusions to the topics themselves. i'm not trying to impress you, nor am i trying to advertise myself; i'm just trying to warn some people of what they're getting themselves into. thinking can be a form of art, it's a skill acquired by experience, study, or observation, it takes practice and most of all it causes inspiration. i'm doing this to help myself keep my thoughts together. viewed as a self-contained machine, like a watch, whose laws of operation could never be understood. but it continues on. the common over-individual. like driving on the freeway in slow traffic, trying to get to that destination but suffering through an endless reoccurrence of trying-to-stop-me. i, unlike you, do not use myspace as a self-confidence booster. i absolutely hate hospitals, long outros and over-used crash symbols. i don't see a point to capital letters. i really can’t stand fat people who wear clothes three times too small. i wear studded belts over bikinis. i'm getting a new phone with jake in 2 days. i never use the word 'purse' because i think it's really ugly so i call them bags. i can't stand wire hangers, i only use plastic ones. i have more private posts in my livejournal than friends-only and public ones put together and you will never read them. i do messages over comments because people are slick and lurk. i dream of running through the city in an indestructible hamster ball. i'm really shallow and judgmental, but not very straight-forward. i'm very non-confrontational and dislike violence. i don't hate anything really but one person. i still eat kid cuisine and spaghettios. i've written a book that will never be published. you will never meet jefree star. nor will you meet the gay god. stop worshipping them and grow up. peace, love and happiness are the only things to live by. my number one hero is a lady in kentucky that nobody knows. don't waste your time on those few people. i dislike italics. i dislike bad breath. i love burberry lotion and gucci II perfume. i love the smell of gas stations, propane ovens, and the inside of magazines. i love the grossest things. i have been playing music for over ten years [piano, guitar, sax, drums] but i have never been in a band. i listen to music constantly when i'm alone, but when i'm with another person i turn it off because it kills my concentration. i want to be an independent [bands, clothes] industry promotor. i don't go to enough concerts, but i love them. i wish i had a camo microphone. i wish i were stronger, just so that i could push people over in a mosh pit. i don't drink and i don't do most drugs. i don't run around with X's on my hands drawn in sharpie. i have a kawasaki ninja that i don't know how to ride. teach me. !!! i want a hot pink mustangg : D i speak two and a half languages; obviously english, fluent french, and the high school two year equivalent of what i've learned in spanish. i hate the taste of envelope glue. i love snowboarding. i love starbucks and tacobell. i hate thirteen year olds who act like they’re twenty and think they know everything. you don't. and you shouldn't even be on myspace. i like my cheap five dollar sunglasses better than my two-hundred dollar gucci sunglasses. i'll gladly wear a 80$ shirt with old pajamas. i buy ninety percent of my clothes online. i like to wear pearls but i really shouldn't because it has become completely unoriginal. i live on java monster. i'm usually completely wired on some form of caffiene. i want to look like lily cole. i want to be lily cole. i never will be. i compare my life to a cat. i have a soulmate and am currently in love with 3 people i will never meet. i am jailbait. i'm a good listener. i love taking long showers until the hot water turns freezing. i hate when people reenact scenes from movies, or quote lines from movies or shows i haven't seen, and expect me to think its funny. chances are even if i actually did watch it, i still didn't think it was funny. and i honestly don't enjoy watching tv. i very very rarely turn it on, and it always ends up pissing me off. when i go down my hallway to the kitchen at night, i turn on every light i pass. i'm not afraid of the dark, it's just a habit. i’m afraid of death. i hate people who can't take no for an answer. i'd usually take a girl over a boy. if your name ends in a Y or IE i'm going to want to spell it with a double E. i write notes to friends on grid paper, and i fold them into broken hearts and spaceships. i think the concept of jaywalking is vulgar. people rush life too fucking much. i only listen to death cab when it's raining. i used to like fall out boy and panic but now when it comes on the radio i scramble for the volume button. i love when people make me mixtapes. never call me buster. i am emotionally weak, and i cry easily, just not in front of you. i spend money as an anti-depressant, therefore, i'm a compulsive shopper. i don't sleep enough. sometimes i can rap. RE is the only good spot in manchester. if i eat too much dark chocolate, my mouth goes numb and i can't taste anything else. but that doesn't stop me. i can type up to 120 words per minute. i'd take a fire-fighter over a police-man any day. i believe that all musicians have ADD. no, i'm not joking. some day i will do research on it. when i go to the store i organise all the shelves. i have never tried to kill myself. being suicidal is not trendy. neither is taking a picture of your steps, where you can't see your face, just so that people will comment saying how much they like your steps. and i'm sorry but you are not myspace. and you are not hollywood. especially if you live in illinois. you are not "a pretty big deal." no one even knows who you are. i am everything but nothing and cannot tolertate labels except in nessecary circumstances. i'm not fake. i'm not posing. and certainly i'm not labeling myself. i'm not "trying to be" anything. this is the style i like and this is the music i truly love, and not pretend to love, so don't call me names. and, most of all, I'M NOT PUNK OR GOTH. please STFU. & if you copy any of this i will hunt you down. i hate when people steal shit from my profile! pictures, codes, phrases, anything. don't do it. i will make your life hell. i'm not a bitch, but it will be returned.
