I'm just some kid named Will who goes to some school in some little nowhere town and who has nothing to do on the weekends or after school except sit arround and wait for something to come up or go do Civil War reinactments. And yes, I am a big enough geek that I did this custom layout by myself. I look like an emo kid, listen to a nice mix of punk, jazz, and foriegn music, and like what I like for no more reason than that I like it.
The most general thing I can say about myself is that I am constantly contradictory.
On my look:
I love the macabre and the darker things.
I sit on the fine line between emo and goth (not like the baggy pantsed Marylin Manson goths, though. More like Edgar Allen Poe, or Nathanial Hawthorne, Maxwell Atoms and especially Voltaire (the musician). You, know: stylish, classical goth) however, I prefer the punk-emo look so that's what I front.
On musical trends and preference:
I'm way into psychobilly/rockabilly and stuff like that because a well-used standup bass can rock the hell out of any other instrument.
At the same time, I'm really starting to like the modern pop that's coming out of Europe, with it's pulsating rhythms and mix of electric synth-type sounds and classical string instruments and piano. I will admit that I do like Lady Sovreign. She has a good beat and a lot of additude for such a young musician.
It's kind of cool, but I couldn't tell you exactly which artists I like because I never feel like looking at the artist name on XM; I just know that The channel is U-Pop.
Of course, I love punk, but I'm pickier about punk than I am about anything else. If I don't like it, I hate it, and that's that. One can't just go about loving music all willy-nilly. Whent that happens, the airwaves get stacked with the same repetitive soft rock and mass market friendly punk, alternative, and college rock like that which is played on the radio all the time now. It's bad. I don't care if you like it, it's bad. So is mass-market emo and screamo like Fall Out Boy and Red Jumpsuit Aparatus.
And then there's Jazz. Not that smooth Jazz crap like they play in elevators, but the real stuff. Mumbo, rhumba, salsa, swing, rhythm, blues, torch, swooners, crooners, and all that. My greatest solice when I'm stressed and tired of heavy-hitting rock. I like a song that I can dance to because I do love to dance the old fasioned way: swing in gentle embrace as opposed to that disgusting display that people put on now. I was born too late, I think.
On turn ons:
The smell of honeysuckles, heels, and hoisery turn me on more than anything else.
I love roses, especially once they dry up and turn into that beautiful purple-black shell of what they were when they were alive. They match my personality in that way: vibrant red turning to broken black.
On relationships with others:
I am both shy and pompous at the same time: I have a hard time talking to friends and love interests yet I can throw out my chest and speak in a big, important tone to a large crowd like it was nothing.
This leaves me in a tough spot in the area of love (which you would know if you read my blog) but I'm getting over it. The problem is that this girl thinks I'm "a cool guy", but I'm not picking up any signals either way and I don't even think she's on to me (I've tried to make myself obvious enough but I'm not good at obvious).
I've also gotten to the point where I need to decide between being a black-hearted shell of a human being or a normal, healthy person. The choice may seem obvious to you but I happen to like the dark side so I may stay.
Life's a bitch so I sit on the internet whining to whoever will read. Ah, well...
All I want is a girl who I can talk to, and who will lean on me and let me lean on her. Someone who can dance the old fasioned way to jazz or salsa would be nice too.
On listening:
I hate doing things that other people tell me to (unless I really respect them, then I'll do it no question) no matter how beneficial it may be to me or the world. Even if I was about to to something of my own free will, then someone tells me to do it while I'm going to do it, I'm going to stop for risk of it looking like I'm doing what they told me to. For instance, I could be about to go save a whale but if someone tells me "save the whales" then I'm going to stop. I may even stab it. I hate peole who aren't better than me and tell me what to do like they are. Especially really in-your-face hippie do-gooders. "Save a tree," they say. "Fuck you," I reply, and then set the nearest redwood on fire.
On vegetarianism:
I eat meat. God gave me incisors and I'm going to use them. Stop trying to tell me not to, damn it. Animals are not people. Want to know how I know that? They don't have a written language. I don't even consider humans people unless they have a written language. In the old Roman definition, if you don't have a written language, then you are a barbarian, and barbarians are not people. Another way I can tell is that they don't have thumbs. Even if meat is murder, and it's not, I wouldn't have a problem killing a human if I could get away with it, so why do you think I would have a problem killing an inferior species, which is perfectly legal as long as it is not indangered? Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't eat something of my own species, but I would eat any other animal if someone cooked it in a way that made it edible. That is, except maybe a dog. I hold dogs in higher esteem than I hold most humans.
On war:
In general, war is a good thing. You may think that strange or wrong but you neglect to think of what war has given us. A world without war would be a war without computers, aircraft, cell phones, and many, many other objects that you take for granted. There is an old phrase: "war is the mother of invention" and I believe that this is completely true.
War also inspires patriotism and nationalism, which strenthen a country. You should support your country or move to a different one. I'm no lover of our current government or the current war, but a good government and a good war will unite a people better than anything.
There is such a thing as a good war, as well as a bad war. Our current war is a bad war. The people are discouraged, the soldiers are discouraged, and the government is falling apart. The World Wars were good wars. The people were incouraged and united behind their soldiers and officials. The country was strong, the industry boomed, and heroes were made.
I'm no patriot, nor am I extremely religious. You will never see me wear red white and blue anything. You will rarely see me wear a cross except for on a holiday or at a funeral. However, I do believe in the old Roman order of responsibilities which, until recent generations, has been our order of responsibilities in America: God(s), country, family, self. Since the Cold war, Self has been brought to the top of the list, and country to the bottom. It is unfortunate.
On the internet elsewhere:
I am a Gaian (gaiaonline.com). It's nerdy, I know, but I told you I was a nerd. It's fun, sort of. Anyways, I'm too rich on that site to quit so deal with it. My Gaian name is Lance Tennichan. Lance is my alter ego. I use his name when it's convenient in the real world too, and if you pay close enough attention to me, you'll see that name in a lot of places. I even respond to Lance if someone calls that name. Lance is even more me than the me you know. There's some avi art I've commissioned in an album under my pics, if you're interested. Some of it is pretty good. I didn't draw any of it, but I paid fake money for them. You can look at my Gaia profile here: http://www.gaiaonline.com/profiles/?u=265155
My AIM is Phantomangel09 but I don't recommend IMing me unless I go to school with you or know you in real life because if I don't know you I'm likely going to be rude and I'd just as soon save you a tounge lashing.
