i am a simple girl with simple dreams. after a lifetime of chaos and more excitement than one person should be allotted, i just want to lead a simple life. in my old age, i've learned so many things:
i've learned that material things are nice but not necessary. the less clutter you have, the less complicated your life seems. all you need in life is food, water, air, shelter and love.
i've learned that true friends aren't always by your side, they are always in your heart. people will come and go in your life, it's not worth your time to mourn those who choose to leave...it's much more fulfilling to appreciate the ones who stay.
i've learned that true love is the most beautiful and unattainable thing in the world. love is unconditional, caring, generous and forgiving. if you truly love someone, you will want that person to be happy no matter what, no matter where, and no matter who they are with. even if that means it's not with you. this was the hardest lesson to learn. but i'm glad i've learned it...because when i can find someone who loves me as much as i love him, then i will know that i have found my true love.
i've learned that if you love someone, you always will. it doesn't matter what terrible injustices they've done to you, they will always hold a little piece of your heart. of course you can be angry with them and not like them as much, but it's useless and tasteless to sling mud at each other. you are only proving that you never really loved them at all. so watch what bad things you say about someone you love or once loved, it only reflects badly on you.
i've learned that i am only human and there are things that are impossible for even me to do. i can not do everything. i can not save everyone. i can not make everything better for everyone i love. there are those in life who just weren't meant to be in my life no matter how hard we both fight to stay. other people's happiness is not my responsibility. i have amazing self restraint, but even i have limits. certain people just aren't worth my time.
i've learned that i am very much loved. in the back of my mind, i'd always known. how sweet it is to get affirmation. dreams do come true and true love does exist. now i don't mind all the frogs i had to kiss along the way to finding my prince. i am complete now.
life is but a journey filled with lessons. i have so much more to learn and so much more i want to learn. i have done so much in my life that i can honestly say that i could die happy at this instant. this doesn't mean that i don't want to live on and experience more and see more. all i mean is that if i were to die right now, i'd be content and satisfied that i have lived a full life. i have no regrets. to regret is to say that you made the wrong choices. i stand by all my choices - good and bad. everything that has happened in my life has shaped me into who i am today. i'm not going to waste my time regretting anything. if i'm going to sit around and regret choices i've made, i might as well have not made those choices. all you can do is roll with the punches or get rolled over.
for now, that's all there is to know about me. i'm sure there will be more to know as the years pass. until then, carpe diem!
