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Matt

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About Me

New About Me
I've spent quite a few years away from a great many ppl I care and/or cared about. Life has a strange way of turning everything you know and believe in upside down on you sometimes. So after along time of self perspective. I've found many things about myself.
I could care less about money and material things... If I have a plate with food on it and a roof over my head, then im happy. I dont care about what car I drive, if my clothes are made by a name brand or generic, or whos got the most "bling" going on.
I hate sh!t talkers... Watching someone who hasnt looked in a mirror recently, try to talk smack to someone else pisses me off. We are all different and all have our own flaws. Do everyone a favor before you open your cock holster, check yourself.
I could care less what ppl think of me... I'm me, you dont like that... Guess thats your problem then. (ie- go fuk yourself (also- see above))
Im not a follower, but I do not consider myself a leader... The only person whos life I want to control is my own. I have lead before, and having ppls lives in your hands, who trust and are willing to die for you. Well, I guess i'd rather take a bullet then send them to take it for me.
You, before me... This has been a life long thing I guess. I've always been willing to give my last dollar, last smoke, last drink to ppl I care about. I want to see those ppl succeed in life, sometimes even at my own expense. Guess thats a dbl-edged sword alot of the time. But thats the price of caring for other ppl, expect nothing in return. There are a few of you out there that I have taken aside, and im very proud of your steps forward. Keep it up.
Trusting others... If you want something to stay a secret, tell only yourself =P Its amazing how easily ppl let things slip sometimes. I dont ask much of ppl, but when ppl give me their word, I expect that to be kept till your death bed. Hence the small pocket of friends I keep (see below)
Ambitions in life... Well, seeing as how I dont care about material things... All I really care about is having fun, and one day finding that one woman to start a family with. I dont have any goals to own a major corp. or to be in politics, those things dont consern me. Lifes to short to waste it being exploited by other ppl, or playing the game just to gain something you cant take with you in the end.
Trusted by others... Sometimes I find it amazing the things I hear about, being so far away from everything I once knew. Makes me proud to know that ppl have such faith in me. I hope they know that goes both ways.
Well, enough of that... As for me, and where I want to go in life... I want to travel the world, I want to see how others live there life... Im sick of ppl thinking that they HAVE to live life a certain way, and yet, have never removed themself from that environment to SEE if there is anything else... One day I wish to go to Japan. Something about Japan and Japanese culture has always had a strong appeal to me. So like my 2nd mom says, go try it out, see if ya like it ^^ Thanks mom,
I'd like to become fluent in at least one foriegn language... I know bits and pieces of like 6 languages now, but couldnt hold a full convo with someone...
Old About Me
This is me, like it or not. I grew up in Orange County CA, lived in Huntington Beach/Westminster most of my life. Was in the Marines for 6 yrs and finished 2 yrs at Fullerton Junior College while worken on my AA. Was planning on transfering to CSUF, but life happened (more like all hell =P) Im currently M.I.A. =P As to say, very few ppl know where I am. And frankly, I like it that way. Im an honest person, straight forward, blunt, and dont give BS answers... At the same time however, I am tactful, respectful, and know there is a time and a place for everything... If you want to know what I think, ask... but dont get pissed if I tell you something you didnt want to hear... Im a good guy whos alil tooo romantic and got a big heart... Some say too big... Which usually gets me screwed over =P... Im am loyal to the end towards the people I love and would do anything for them... and those few of you know it (QUALITY not QUANTITY!)... Ive been told im unique, and I would tend to agree... so if ya like what ya see, add or email me ^_^

My Interests

Movies, TV, cars, the beach (though I havent been to a beach in years), good times with good friends

I'd like to meet:

Honest ppl with like minded beliefs about life

Music:

If it sounds good, I like it. A really wide range tbh. Right now i'm stuck on JPOP again. Ayumi Hamasaki to be more specific. She has a beautiful voice, and can sing even the saddest of songs with an uplifting melody. If you ever get a chance to check out her music, check out the lyrics... You'll see what I mean. Atm, I'm really sick of rap, hiphop, etc... Most of it is the same song, same lyrics just repackaged under a different name. DnB, Trance, and all the trillions of different labels for rave/dance music still grab my attention and interest.

Movies:

Action, anime, drama, fantasy, sci-fi... Alil of everything. Kinda lost interest in the horror/thriller and comedy movies of late. Those are kinda going the same route as rap mentioned above. Same thing, different package.

Television:

CSI, Smallville, Modern Marvels, Over There, Mail Call, Battlestar Gallactica, ATHF, Family Guy, Robot Chicken, and Futurama

Guess I'll leave these photos up for old times sake =P

Books:

Most of the "books" I read now are things I find online. Generally "How To's" and websites dealing with specific interests of mine. I tend to leave fiction to the movies.

Heroes:

My Blog

Romanji

Well, i've gotten a few emails from ppl asking wth the Japanese says, so I guess i'll have to do alil editting to the previous posts and add a rough translation for yas...  Also, if you find erro...
Posted by Matt on Fri, 24 Feb 2006 09:28:00 PST

How I feel

Damasarerya shikkaku. Sora wo ubaware, ashita ga ware. Kokoro mushibamu yami ga umare. Yume wa kare, fuan ni nare. Yukiba ushinau tori to kumo to hoshi to ore. Ichinichi no sakai ga kie. Usureteyuku ...
Posted by Matt on Sat, 11 Feb 2006 04:01:00 PST

What I have to give

Itsuka umareru mae kara kitto Kawaranai mono sagashitsuzukete wa Mitsukete ushinatte toki ni Hito wo kizu tsuketa yoru mo atta Moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara Moshimo tatta hitotsu dak...
Posted by Matt on Fri, 10 Feb 2006 03:42:00 PST