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so, im paige . i am in the process of seperating lies from reality. i have lied to myself for years and have come to believe those lies. those lies have controlled my life.
love is real.
my past really did happen.
i am not a failure.
GOD is real.
i find myself looking through old poems and notes wandering how i could have ever thought those things. a little of my past lies in each and every poem. my past is my biggest battle. i am facing that and letting myself know that it was all real and i am reviewing it very carefully. by doing this i will know real from make believe. and with Gods help, i will see why i went through what i did.
i have secrets. i have a lot of secrets. i guard myself from everyone so that they cant find those things out about me, but i should have known that someone would eventually come along who would snatch that guard away and find the real me. i dont believe in luck, so i guess you could say that i am blessed. i live in fear and confusion, but i love it. as crazy as it sounds, i know that God is behind me and always will be. i struggle with my belief. i am new at this. i will fail, but i will also get right back up and try again and make it right the next time. i make mistakes . i respect everyone and i am openminded.
i am human.
"how many years have we waited for a ship that would never sail and how many days have we wasted chasing a love that is not our own?" -as i lay dying.
