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*SOME WORDS FROM MY 3*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~My
Little Girl
July 7, 2003
As I watch myself slowly fade away
I begin to realize my true existence
My cry out to that little girl I once knew
Is silenced by my numbness
The pain has embedded a new layer
That slowly destroys myself
I continue to lead this path of self destruction
Hoping to gain a better me
My little girl I once loved
She loved me back
I seem to have miss placed her
I hear her tiny voice and distant words
The song cuts in and out of my life
Broken pieces with jagged edges
It cuts me and the pain is so familiar
No place like home
Then in a flash back of destroyed memories
I struggle to loose her time and time again
Her reflection appears in a faint disgust
Of what I’ve become
I tell her that temple has been broken
I feel her pain
Taste her tears
And watch her spirit slowly drift away
I wish for better days
And the little girl I once knew
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Cr
ystal Clear
January 24, 2004
So here I am positioned in a frozen state
My eyes are glass and my tears are unknown
I watch my life melt away
Everyone seems so sure
Everyone walks in a general direction
In rhythm as if no one dares to break the cycle
All in line
Complete in unison
So clean and untouched
As my body melts and washes away
I watch the faces in disgust
Such a disaster I have caused
A ripple effect makes way
Discolor in the waters
The beat is off
And the faces turn
Humiliation sets in
My body morphs
Back to my frozen state of mind
The world is not prepared for my imperfections
My dirty water and off beats
Everything is so crystal clear… to me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Un
titled
August 17, 2004
I’m bare as the me is stripped down to my real skin
This comfort feels so fresh
Enters in a still motion
Consumes my cloudy trance
That beats to my own rhythm
Breathe it in and hold for a moment
And only I can experience my own unknown
The warmth becomes embedded in my pours
The calm chills
And soft currents
Stabilize my anxiety
That seizes to never reach the surface
Watch as I rise into a synthetic pose
And reminisce about my state of mind
Placed so gently back into my perfectly formed position of where I belong
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Se
t on yesterday
September 16, 2002
Caught between what I was and who I am
Its like that missing piece that gets
Shoved under your bed for another day
It goes unnoticed
But still exists
I watch the world fast forward
Yet my mind’s on pause
My world is frozen
I watch the people set in their place
A perfect picture
A moment that lasts forever
Nothing but perfection
Everything is full of color
But I am painted black
I turn the next page
Move on to an other day
That b rings me back to yesterday
My place I do not know
The voice that’s so old
A distant whisper
That fades behind me
I continue my search for my missing piece
My mouth screams out silence
And yet pains my ears to deafness
What was once familiar is now fresh
I sit again and watch life pass me by
Such a beautiful picture
More colors in a rainbow
The softest sound
I watch through a blurry window
Go back to yesterday and live for tomorrow
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Bl
ank Page
April 10, 01
My words are nothing but a black page of erases
Pieces of words unfinished
Sketches of my life presented in a sequence of events
The pencil trembles and brushes across my clear picture
Lost of this nothing filled of what I don’t know
My life is a question unknown to the teller
Screaming to the thousands of voices in my head
Telling me lies
Leading me to a trap
I am but a potential masterpiece ready to show off
What wasn’t offered to me
Stop
Please keep these pieces that scrap at my wounds
Its too heavy for my body to carry
Tell me why I am given this difficult task
To continue to move the pencil across my answers that follow
Leading to my unresolved problems that chip away
Falling into my sad eyes that fill with tears
Tears too sour to taste
Bitter sweet with every ounce of pain I have endured
Lines of aging stress of what I have be come
Yesterday was full of youthful laughter
Tomorrow is aching pain that runs through my body
Which slowly tears away at my soul
Who has done this terrible deed?
Must pay for my hours of tears and days of confusion
I stare off wondering how this page became filled with
Words that aren’t mind
Who is this person who was so lost
Of forgotten words so distant in her mind
The paper allowed the pencil to flow to the rhythm of
What must be
There for it has become my masterpiece
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Wh
y
November 28, 2000
I don’t understand
Or begin to comprehend
This permanent decision
Displayed amongst people
So tragic so wasteful
A chain reaction that
Hits person after person
Consuming in your thoughts
In your plans
The plans to take what was so precious about you
The thing everyone adores
But for you
You cant see that
The beauty inside that has been
Restored with pain
Your face is hollow as you r heart
That goes un-mended
Destroying your beauty will not get rid of
The pain that haunts your mind and
Tortures your soul
I don’t understand
Why people do such an irreversible act
I cant begin to comprehend why they don’t
Reach out for a hand
